i am emmanuel ford. first, i would like to thank our community partner gayle from total family coalition for connecting us to samhsa. i never experienced, i never in my life experienced what some would call a normal life. always knew there was something different about me. most people think about a loving household for a child, they think of a home having a mother and father, two people i have never had growing up. at the age of 7, my life took a drastic turn. i had to move to one of the worst neighborhoods in the city. i was placed in a home i thought would be peaceful and loving. instead, it was the opposite. while at this home, i was abused mentally, physically and emotionally. the saddest part is, i didn't tell a soul. i suffered every day for most of my childhood in solace. i was taunted by peers for any reason, i didn't have a stable home, didn't have food or my biological parents weren't around. i isolated myself. i did not let people into my life because i didn't trust anyone. as i got older, i t