my mother screaming, "emmitt, stop! emmitt, don't! emmitt, emmitt, emmitt." so i didn't want to carry that name. harvey: when did you change it? tyler: i was about 16 years old and somebody asked me what my name was, and i said tyler. i don't know where it came from. - harvey: just the air. - tyler: just the air, yeah. so i said tyler, and it stuck. everything i've read was just a hellish childhood. - mm-hmm. - he made your life hell. - beat you badly. - mm-hmm. he had this distinct disdain for me. and i think he knows i'm not his child. i think he's always known that. and that was the disdain. i think so, i think so. so what he blamed on her, he took out on you. absolutely. and once i got more information about who he was, what he had been through, i couldn't excuse it, but i could forgive it because it was too painful for me to hold on to anymore. and to this day, i still take care of him. he lives very well, and gets a check every month, and he's taken care of. did he ever say, "i'm sorry"? i don't think so. i don't think so. if he has, it may have been in