well, we have americana and expresso and all of those. >> and before you went in, it was like, i will and now it is a ventura iced latte or whatever it is. and it is not progress, trust me. what has been like for you, damien? >> well, one of the most remarkable moments that let me know that it was finally over was that we went to a friend to a improve comedy routine and we are with a group of people on the front show and we have a bunch of people behind us, and i realized that i don't have to worry about anybody behind me stabbing me or hitting me in the back of the head and they are watching the show, that is it. they are watching the show. >> and that is the fear that you lived with for ten years? >> every day. >> and awful thing to live with. have you managed to get work? >> not yet. >> why is that? >> i think that it's just the things that i'm interested in, you know, i really started to getting into the realm of art when i was in prison, and that is what i would like to continue doing, and continue writing and continuing doing visual outwork and i haven't been out long enough to