fawcett was he had a sense of drama. he almost saw himself as a mythical character and this figure to read he grew up reading these adventure romances and in fact his older brother was an extremely popular novelist at the time and in fact, according to the malae doyle novel probably borrow a little bit in terms of the themes from one of fawcett's brothers' early novels. in terms of why z if it had a sense of romance and, but beyond that he never specified. as for his wife the relationship was extremely interesting and i didn't really talk about that in the lecture by go into it all lot in the book and his wife is extremely -- they loved each other deeply but her life was pretty miserable. i read a lot of her letters. he would go off years at a time and leave her to man the family and he also became so obsessed with finding this great city that he pinker to the family. he would use what little money they had as taking his pension and investing it in his trips and he left them with almost no money and in the end they were