you at fort meade?ay that? >> nope. >> nope. >> that's the voice of her lawyer, who helped her steer clear of secrets in our interview. winner wouldn't say it, but at fort meade, linguists eavesdropped on communications in afghanistan to identify targets for armed drones. >> it is not something i'm allowed to discuss. >> she didn't discuss her mission with her mother, billie winner-davis. >> only one conversation that i had with her did she ever let on how heavy her work was. i'll never forget because she said, you know, "when you're watching somebody on your screen and that person goes poof, you've got to make sure that you've got everything right." >> i was starting to see in the news that our mission had a very high civilian casualty rating. >> she began to feel guilt while battling illness, depression, and the eating disorder bulimia. she left the air force for a top-secret civilian job at the national security agency at fort gordon in augusta, georgia. but here in 2017, she says what she was hearin