certainly not ian when the geshe agreed that only women would be allowed on retreat with him. it was as if roachould do no wrong. another follower said he watched as his geshe became increasingly outrageous. >> we were all called into a room. and all his consorts, his religious sexual partners were in the room. and he told us as students that if you want to stay here, if you want to do this practice you have to see all these people as buddhas. >> and when most everyone including ian began to believe, this buddha began to get a bad feeling that this was morphing into a cult. >> the vibe i got around diamond mountain, that it could turn into a jim jones thing, and that's dangerous. >> coming up, strange doings in the desert. >> michael takes a ritual dagger and slams it through his hands. >> we hear >>> at the dawn of the new millennium, ian and christi why hard core devotees of tibetan buddhism studying at the threshold of michael roach. roach told the l.a. times about the rigorous nature of his three-year vow of silence. >> and you have to say good-bye to everybody, because you don't know who's