so i think also in 18981 when i was outed i think i'm the first athlete who was outed but glen burkery difficult. he was with the dodgers and they offered him $75,000 to get married, for instance, just to hide it. and it was terrible way people treated him. but the media wasn't even ready to talk about in the those days. you know how the baseball writers were very protective until recently and now it's hard to protect any privacy but i think i was probably the first athlete to be outed in 1981 and then martina came out -- >> rose: how did you handle that? >> i had to fight with my lawyer and publicist that i wanted to have a press conference and they said "no, you don't do that." >> 5 i said "i don't care, i'm going to tell the truth that i had an affair with this woman. and so for 48 hours we argued, they caved in, i flew from l.a. to new york, my former husband larry met me and we went before the media and i told the truth and my lawyer just about died. he just said you don't do that. we had to go to trial and i said -- we had to keep it narrow because we were going to trial and i