we talked about gramsci. we drove to boston. >> gramsci being the italian philosopher. >> the italian philosopher. >> the pessimism of the -- >> of the intellect and optimism of the world. >> right. >> right? i mean, we -- >> you see the world as it is, but then you act as if you can change the world. >> exactly. i mean, we tried to find ways to both enliven the neighborhoods we lived in. but at the same time, we knew that that wasn't enough. that there was a world beyond our neighborhood, and that world had all kinds of things for us to learn. and we were excited about that. i mean, we drank, danced and talked. that's what we did. >> and i assume there were some other more private activities. >> and there was more private activity. >> you know, you are a buoyant man, and yet you describe what you call a shift away from the hope that accompanies the living, to a politics of cynicism and despair. >> yeah. >> what leads you to this? >> what leads me to this is something that we mentioned earlier, and that is, w