i felt like guliver tethered on a beach and powerlessness. so i chose a self-destructive way to block it out, and that was alcohol. in the years 2007, 2008 and 2009 i spiralled down. by march of 2010 i realised that alcohol had taken over my life. i was not being a great father. more absentee and i wasn't making a difference. i realised sobriety had to come first, and finally surrendered to the concept i was an alcoholic, and went ahead and moved into sober living and worked a 12-step program with unique fellowship and i work on that every day and here we are four years later. >> in your book "the agent my 40 year career making deals and changing the game", you speak of so many aspects of your profession and on a personal level you mention how it fell apart and alcoholism. is the one point you had to admit that you were powerless over alcohol. coming from someone so powerful in your career, was that a hard thing to accept that you were powerless against alcohol. >> yes, or i wouldn't have kept drinking. there's an ilugs as you go through the