being hahsled? >> and basically i came up with a caption says hey, just he lax, it is a turbin.nd now let's get concern and that did well, people loved it, i thought that's goode, i made a connection, but a photographer who is based in new york city, who was trying to capture more for part of her photo shoot, she mentioned in passing hey, would you maybe you should come pack next year as dressed up as captain american, i told her no way, i am a skinny guy, have been all my life, i have been bully add lot, so to me i could not imagine wear costume, anything on skin tight and exposing my body soy forgot about it, until about a year later, a year later, milwaukee massacre happened at a seek temple and that hit me hard. so i penned the piece. so fiona read that piece and i just felt okay. sixes have changes and i have to get out. so that's how i started. i was scared very scared. i didn't know how people would respond. >> and i know that the people have responded well, and you raised an important conversation, more about what it means to be an american. then what it means to be a si