it struck me that hajif's death had been orchestrated by someone just like this young woman pressing buttons from thousands of miles away sitting in a comfortable chair in front of a computer, completely oblivious to the destruction and cause of families whole society halfway across the world i was overwhelmed, overcome with the feeling of intense hatred and anger toward the women in colorado and all of the fresh-faced american soldiers, but in my heart, i knew that wasn't fair. they are mostly kids caught up in a cycle of greed and power and they don't understand now eve in the age-old game of aggression and warfare, warren and raised in the united states and encapsulated sphere of privilege and safety. it is not surprising. they wouldn't be able to fathom the reality of distance of four in society and the ramification of their action. i was struck again by the english that has stayed with me ever since hajif's death also my consciousness and memories are forever connected to the conflict zone in iraq and so many other war-torn countries across the globe my present reality has becom