four days after that, i was in handcu handcuff, arrested. didn't realize at time what was going on with me. i know now that it was ptsd and, you know, i was going through some symptoms of, you know, things that i went through. it was attacking me at the moment. >> can you describe that, what that felt like? >> it was very lonely feeling. i didn't feel like i could actually talk to anybody. you know, what i was going to say to my family or my neighbors, people who hadn't experienced it? there was no outlet for it. so i actually -- i used substance, drugs and alcohol, to cope with ptsd. eventually i was arrested seven times prior to being put veterans court. and i can't help but think, you know, if veterans court was around when i first got back, you know, i wouldn't have gone through a lot of that stuff. >> what were you arrested for? >> aggravated assault. and then there was -- you know, just violations of probation from the initial charges and it just kept going and going. and, you know, it was -- it was very difficult because, you know, be