you can now look back at your life with all the undercurrent and pinpoint a time when you were happeniest, most blissful on a personal -- happiest and most blissful on a personal level. do you have any idea when that was or is it yet to come? >> yes, there was a moment when i was doing my first play. "fool for love". 90 minutes. no intermission and the challenge from roger robinson. i had just seen years ago doing "soldier's play" at the ensemble play. tavis: he won an award last year. i love roger. >> he said pam, you should do it. you have this energy. you have a spectrum of energy and a well, a deep well. and i didn't think i could achieve what i saw on stage with these fine, fine actors and when i saw my first -- when i had my first performance, i felt it then. "fool for love." i was completely -- this is what i love. this is what it is all about and i was so -- i was content and i was challenged and i was passionate and it has enhanced my passion to this day. tavis: there are some wonderful parts of this book that, i mean, being a fan, i knew some of this stuff or at least i knew the