harry harlow, too. i'm reading a good book right now called love at gun park about. harry harlow and his work with rhesus macaque monkeys and and then later with with human and attachment theory. it's really good. yeah. mean i write in the book about the difficulty of of even leaving my mom in the first place that you a lot of it there's a lot of research and attention paid you know the kind of maternal impulse to care a child and that sort of attachment and father's to have the way that the parent feels toward a newborn toward a small child. but there's less think less research on on the other side that of just how much how attached child feels to their parents and how deeply that connection is felt. and happens after it's severed and. so that was really for me to leave my mom. and then and then the first foster homes, i think the first two homes i lived in, it was really upsetting that i had to leave them and know like the body adapts and i about this sort of coping response of just kind of being blunted and and and later just sort of from all emotions and feelings