in hendon, where i grew up.h, as it happens — and they clearly, as teenagers, had a love affair. indeed, it was a physical, a sexual love affair. but then one of them, ronit, made a life far away from that community. she was a creative, she went to new york city, she was a photographer. the other, her former lover/friend, esti, stayed at home. ronit comes back because her father has died, a rabbi. and the question is, will they rekindle that love affair? was there a lot of you in ronit? there's a lot of me in both of them. if you're going to say to me, "well, did you ever "have an affair with a rabbi's daughter?" no, i never did have an affair with a rabbi's daughter when i was living in hendon. i wasn't going to be quite that literal. but, certainly, yes, there's a lot of me in ronit and there's a lot of me in esti. when i was writing the book, i was still religious, so in a sense, it was... and very observant, is what i mean. i was observing the sabbath, i was keeping all the kosherfood laws. you use this word