answer sister hildegard. did you take them down?nant was, of course. >> did you feel ashamed? >> i was frightened out of my life. i couldn't tell you, when she said you're going to have a baby. i thought oh, my god in heaven. i didn't know how this baby was going to come out, you know? >> you literally didn't know how you were going to deliver the baby? >> no, dear, no. >> her family sent her away to have the baby in a home for unwed mothers. >> it was a very bad birth. it was a breech birth. >> don't let them put the baby in the ground. it's cold in there. it's dark in there. >> i thought i was going to die. >> no medicine? >> no medicine whatsoever. you just get on with it. you suffer for your sins? >> is that what you were told? you suffer from your sins? >> after you have your baby, you have to stay in the abby for four years in order to thank the sister for taking you then? >> was it just. but then you just got on with it. we thought well, we commissioned a sin, very grievous sin, having a baby out of wedlock as we were told. s