he's not as eager to face death as holton. he's ready for it, nonetheless. >> i'm extremely sad for what i've done. it hurts me knowing that i went to the level that i went. and if there was any way possible for me to be healed or correct it, believe me, it would be done. it's an impossible situation not only for me but for everybody involved, you know? and i'm not saying that to get out of an execution or -- because like i said, i'd ready. if you want to kill me, let's go. i'm ready to go. but i think that i have something i can offer somebody. and i don't think it's really time for me to die. >>> due to mature subject matter, viewer discretion is advised. >>> msnbc takes you behind the walls of america's most notorious prisons, into a world of chaos and danger. now, the scenes you've never seen. "lockup: raw."

i am honored to introduce holton.i want to celebrate the wisdom and the congeniality of the fellow judges, who gave up a half half-year of their own writing to help find the five amazing books that we present to you tonight. they are brad gooch, linda gordon, susan orlean and judas fuel of its. [applause] the other judges and i also want to give special thanks to sherry young, who was our tireless and perfectionist liaison at the national book foundation. thank you, sherry. [applause] the finalist for the 2012 national book award for nonfiction are, and cho applebaum, "iron curtain," "the crushing of eastern europe" ,-com,-com ma 1845 to 1856 published by doubleday. [applause] and katherine boo, a hind of beautiful forevers. [applause] life, death and hope in a mumbai under city published by random house. and robert a. caro, "the passage of power," the years of lyndon johnson volume four published by albert a. knopf. and domingo martinez, "the boy kings of texas," published by lyons press, an imprint of pequot press.

ambassador to the u.n., john holton says her illness is basically faking.e words about that. do you think she's faking? >> i would never accuse the secretary of faking it but i do think it's at the appropriate time she needs to be before the committee to say not only why, what failed happened in the first place but that's being done within the department to see it never happens again. >> senator isakson we appreciate your time, thanks for talking with us. >> merry christmas. >> likewise, appreciate that. >>> john berman has the rest of the day's stories. >> is it days left until the nation goes over the fiscal cliff and negotiations do not seem to be going well. the optimism that president obama and house speaker boehner would reach a deal appears to be damaged. speaker boehner will put his plan b to the house, the president promised to veto the bill all know there ises' really no chance it will ever reach his desk. >>> a final good-bye to sandy hook elementary principal dawn hochsprung and three students and two teachers. police say it will take months to