and howme. and how that lives on inside you as your circumstances change and how you struggle with it. what parts of it you are content to live with. i want to that series of dramas to be played out. >> is a person that ran away from negro land myself. don't tell on me. as a person that ran away with struck me is you build this kind of segregated fortress that we hope translates you from the larger mainstream society. everybody desires to be better than somebody. and that seems to be the quests. whether it's the american quest, i don't know how other countries do it. >> that's how you get to the top of the food chain. >> the possessions internal and external necessary to get that recognition. the perks, the respect, and for us there is this vast spectrum. you wanted to be treated nicely in a restaurant. new line sales woman. if she's white or black to be suitably differential which is not deeply attractive, but there you are. you keep going along a continuum. you want to be treated like a first-