and i wanted to also say thank you to ed rogers and to sheldon come here tonight, and hugo gordon whos here tonight. steve just touched on this briefly, but there was a moment back then when i thought that my career was over, and i thought, you know, a career that had taken many years to build is going down the tubes fast, and today many people felt we are going to a book signing which you are really here for a celebration. i don't know if the had a celebration at the end of those survivors tv shows the this is what it feels like to me like i got my head back above the waves. i'm standing. and you can't get to that point without people who care about you, people who love you and to key was idf tell you when you're wrong and how to deal with the situation and get some council. so many of you in the room tonight are those people for me, i'm high friends and those of you that our journalists, you know how tenuous our profession is and how things go up and down, ratings, editors, relationships, you never know. so tonight i just want to tell you this is a celebration for me, a celebration