different voice, each letter is written in a different voice, sometimes she is complaining is a hypochondriac and other times she is sensitive and intellectual and other times a satirist. it does feel like there is a record of her voice but also a record of her many voices. i do wonder reading it whether that was a complicated thing as a writer to track this person who seems to have so many different voices and you got to know her by the end of the processor what she is alluding to buy the end. >> i felt i got to know her really great. which is to say complicated human beings. and where they were and how. it was not something i normally think of. and the development of the voice is very funny. and the first letter, it is one incredibly long run on how she hits writing. i will therefore quit the subject. 4 years all she could write about was how she hated to write. at great length. this is partly a story about her becoming a writer, not a published writer although she did publish. and became proud. and she had these different voices which were so important because she is a complicated person.

i am a little bit of a hypochondriac semite tendency is to do two checks per year. would not want -- hypochondriac, so my tendency is to do to try checks per year. i would not want to leave that office. >> then she is pregnant. in thegets cured and cancer comes back and in the middle of that she starting this new relationship. he's also going to the recovery of a huge tragedy in his life and they need each other, they recognized something in each other and they start this relationship. she gets pregnant in the middle of that. she is two hearts beating insider but she has this cloud on her, this monster trying to take her away from this world. and she decides to try to take away this family for her from -- for her son. we are not going to say what happens if she makes it or not but she does great. a huge scene for this kid. she creates a family for him. but she also cares about her gynecologist? >> yes, she has a very special relationship with this doctor who sings to her. there are a lot of things that are very risky but in a great way because this is julio's world.

hypochondriac, what is it? i become hyperalert to some buddies symptom and by focusing on that body symptom i become fearful that something is terribly wrong. in the manic things of bipolar illness, it is still the void. anything that's going to make me feel better, the reward, constant striving is what captures me. virginia woolf became very focused on the fear that she was going to be institutionalized. she was afraid that others would label her as going mad and the one thing she didn't want to do because it would interfere with her work, was to have that. hemingway, the ambassador of cuba from washington is dispatched and told hemingway to get out of cuba. he says and they are using a word about you in washington and the word was traitor. hemingway said i am not political. this is where i write. this is where i love to be put that use of the word he became increasingly concerned about his finances and his inability to write and he would never write again. addiction, the power of addiction lies in the grip of

i think i have told you a little before i am a little bit of a , hypochondriac, so my tendency is todo two checks per year. i would not want to leave that office. i would want to be there with the doctor and get all the answers. what i do even with a cold. then, she is pregnant. penelope: she gets cured, and then the cancer comes back. and in the middle of that, she is starting this new relationship with a man that is also going through the recovery of a huge tragedy in his life. charlie: he lost his wife and child. need eachyes, they other and recognize something each other, and start a relationship. she gets pregnant in the middle of that. her body is creating life. she has two hearts beating inside her, but she has this cloud on her, this monster trying to take her away from this world. and she decides to try and create a family for her son. he has nobody else in the world. we are not going to say what happens, if she makes it or not, but she does great and huge things for this kid. she creates a family for him. penelope: -- charlie: but she also cares about her gynecologist? pene

as i think have i told you before, i'm a little bit of a hypochondriac is doing two checks per year.not want to leave that office. i would want to be there with that doctor and get all the answers. and i would drive him crazy, which what what i do even with a cold. so we're different. but i understand her. >> rose: i wouldn't want to be your doctor. >> yeah, maybe it's no fun. >> rose: and she's pregnant. >> well, then she gets cured. and then the cancer comes back. and in the middle of that, she's starting this new relationship with a man that is also going through recovery of a huge tragedy in his life. and they-- . >> rose: lost his wife and children. >> and they need each other. they recognize something in each other. and they start this relationship. and she becomes-- she gets pregnant in the middle of that. and she's creating life. her body is creating life. she has two hearts beating inside her but at the same time she has this cloud on her, this monster that is trying to take her away from this world. and then she decides to try to create this family for her son who is ten. a