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it was probably the best ending and i could still love my parents. t wasn't like i stopped loving them. it's just the form it had to take for a while. >> or you figure things out and it's nice and you kind of have it create a narrative and you move on. you are making us talk about this over and over. >> that is true. thanks. [applause] it was therapeutic and she said no, writing a book is terribly therapeutic. in your family of mine. or maybe they don't want their name. was there ever a consideration because it is easy to figure out who your parents are and did you ever consider publishing a under someone else's name? >> my understanding of the memoir is that it's pretty tricky. i think that you could publish it as a novel which i did think about. i thought about just saying it is a novel but then the first one is no one would have believed it. too weird. i told one of my brothers when i called them up and said i'm going to write about our family there was a pause on the other side of the line he said you won't have to make anything up so i thought i

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i wished i could have been more forthright with people as we were growing up together. we met so young, we were 23. i feel like in the early stages of our relationship if i had pushed back more or demanded things like we are going to go to counseling an learn how to communicate, i want you to see somebody, you seem depressed. i wish i had the confidence and felt safe enough that i could do that without risking my relationship but i didn't. i didn't feel like i had the right to speak up for myself, for us as a couple and as a family, so i would definitely give myself that advice to speak up. >> you had talked in your book about the reasons of why you may not have felt this way in dealing with your childhood and you also mentioned the income disparity. how would you overcome that in retrospect? >> i think i bought into this notion that because i didn't make the most money i didn't have any power in my relationship and i think that comes from what i saw in my parents' marriage, typical 1950's marriage. my mom was a stay at home mom which i think enjoyed much working than ra

i could imagine if i were in the shoes of your children how they might have felt, what could have happened differently. should i am forced to go to the hospital. their father is an authority figure and even if he were ill he was stubborn, he wouldn't -- we have to go to bed anyway. how did you reconcile with your own guilt throughout this entire process. >> guest: that's a great question. i didn't realize what i was feeling with survivors guilt until i went through counseling "after words" because immediately after peter's death almost everything i do that might be remotely pleasant and there were not many things that felt pleasant for a long time. if i saw a beautiful sunset, i did something with what our kids i would think i can't believe he's not seeing this, i can't believe he's not here and even at school events for my second senior year i would find this checking over my shoulder, peter would often make it but would be late, always late at work and i would say premises at school events or meetings and we would text each other and i would say third row down, two in and i kept looking

then i could have conversations with them and only after i found the smartest people who i could findisagreed with me would i be able to make a decision. in addition, to know how to improve my return to risk ratio by being able to diversify well. i wanted all of the upside. but i wanted to be able to control the downside. i would say that there are a number of lessons that i would like to sort of pass along. first of all, the value of painful mistakes and learning and reflecting on them has been a big thing. finding the smartest people who can work with you. that is what created an idea of meritocracy at bridgewater. it is that back-and-forth in terms of the thoughtful disagreement. and then also raising your probabilities of being right in those ways. that humility and fear of being wrong combined with the audacity to go for the great results and how to do that well is really the most important thing i learned. david: but, you now use a lot of computer-related algorithms to help you navigate the market? ray: algorithms are what we call them today. equations is what we used to call th

in severe shock, and at first i could not talk. i tried to talk to another officer for my outfit, a orutenant, who was maybe 20 30 feet from he and another foxhole, and i found that words would not come out of my mouth. so i thought, well i have lost my ability to speak. and then, within a few minutes i was able to talk. that.rds came out like with a long pause, and i did not speak normally until the next day. put my hands up to my helmet to see what had happened, and i put one hand through the hole, and felt what i was pretty sure must've been my brains, mushy, and i felt about half an inch of mosh and said, this must -- mush, and said this must be the surface of my brain. i thought why was i here, why can i think or talk? i put my other hand through the helmet whole and both have -- hands fitted through it, so i knew it was seven or eight inches wide, so it was huge. the helmet was almost split in half, so i looked at the other officers nearby, and i could see them looking at me, and it looks to me as if they announcer: listen to

i could i could. >> you of course hav it? that i'm probably as proud of this as anything that i will ever do >> reporter: even during this time when seemingly everything is closed, dolly's imagination library remains opened for business >> i thought i could, i thought i could, i thought i could and that's why. >> reporter: pigeon forge, tennessee. >> my little girls love it that's nightly news for this sunday lester holt will be with you tomorrow i'm peter alexander, from all of us here at nbc news, stay healthy and have a safe night. >>> right now, a makeshift hospital now has its first patients. >> thanks for joining us. the bay area getting ready for an expected surge in patients as our top health experts say to be prepared for a bad week. the first patients are arriving at a temporary hospitall as cases continue to climb. we have team coverage tonight. let's

so specifically, by the time i got there, i felt like i could kind of help the president be more vocal about his feminism. so i felt like i could build up and help him have voice to what he believed. and i could push it and see if he pushed back, in a way, you know? and i was on a team of men, so i felt like through each piece of writing about what we did. he got up on a stage in front of thousands of people and said this is what a feminist looks like. and it wasn't that i was putting an idea into his head, it was something he already had, i was just helping him find the voice for it. >> the thing most rewarding about writing for a president -- a president you like, is -- and a vice president i have to say as well, is that the reasons you like the person you're writing for you the whole country to see what you like about the person. so you think about that when you're writing. and i don't consider that as having influence on policy. not so much as giving him confidence, expressing his best thoughts, pulls all you can into it to make sure the qualities you like an admire are there for a

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i could almost bet on it and i only bet on sure things. sure, while they were in our care, they were in the ospital in a bad, -- a bed, yes, i'm sure. interviewer: how long were you there, roughly? andrew: two weeks. the 20th of april 1945 to the 11th of may, 1945. roughly two weeks. we were there the day the war ended in germany. do.we still had work to that did not stop us. interviewer: does anything else come to mind about those two weeks? that i can think of offhand. patients came in, we took care howhem, i cannot tell you long they stayed, maybe some stayed for a couple of days, i can't remember how long it took for the test to be done. x-rays,k then, the today you can get them and the lab work. i'm not sure how long it took for the lab techs to give the answer on whatever specimens they were checking. i never got involved in that part. the doctors would get that information. to this day if i look at a chart i cannot tell you what i read. tell me about the showers? andrew: i was not involved in that, but a gentleman -- the only one th

credit has really inspired me you know i did everything i could before i ever heard of her or knew of her and i decided to do more so i made some changes i never thought i could do around my house early how they but they call it leap plan i'm a home that's a green a stone that built i did out but i did a few other things that i've since discovered that can make it even greener i've changed you know i used to fly rarely know i fly never been this long before the coker 19 going out and flown all year nor do i expect to in the forseeable future so i'm trying to i'm trying to continue my my inspirational effort for her and her generation i have a 20 year old daughter and i know you have kids about the same age i want to do something for them so they have a plan of something like what we knew or are you are you happy with the way things are good as you've always been you do things on your own you don't wait for the saw a society a society to catch up yet will feel yeah you're alone in the wilderness. i used to fuel very much alone but now i see so many people you know who can afford it put

matter how bad things got in iraq, i had a magical passport that i could in a way. they were there. and i was confident when i was leading. and to make sure people were working nonstop and this is their life in many reported as a hardship post. and you could respond and 24/7, 365 job for our rockies. and i was incontinent of that and in terms of being a woman, in some ways there were similarities because of my background they see my name they know a muslim and they expected me to have a certain standard of behavior they did not expect her mother americans who are not at the background there was an element and i did not have to face all that stuff. and that my family about that. in just a little bit more on the identity issue i intentionally and this collection included women like haner who are dual nationalities and identities because i feel strongly that is part of the story of our world where you have them living outside the arab world and many were forced out of the world and live in exile and others have families who fled conflicts who are younger and so on. and

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but i could not see it in the hospital. i cannot remember german civilians but i do remember captured german soldiers. i know we had them on our ward, soldiers. civilians could have been some other place. interviewer: where were you when the war ended? andrew: a concentration camp. interviewer: i'm sorry, before you transferred out. that is what i meant to ask. andrew: we wound up in a town called breton, germany. that's where we were when we got our orders to ship home. i could tell you by looking at the book what the date was. we left germany, heading for the stationing areas. we left germany sometime in the middle of september. i wound up home on november 25, 1945. because it did not go as smooth. i can understand. i did not like it. but with the number of troops -- it took several years to get all those people over here. all of those soldiers and so forth. you are not going to move them back in a couple of days. we went to -- i think, we went to camp philadelphia first, i think. and then we went to camp philip morris or

i guess if the guy had a tension knew mow thorax, i could relieve that. but the skills i have here for diagnostics is between my ears. there's no radiology, ultrasound, nothing like that. sterilization, we talked about my hands. what about the instruments? over there, that's the steam -- not steam sterilizer, but that boils water and then i sterilize my instruments. okay. the suture i used, if i were to close something, which most of the time i didn't, would be surgical cotton, and then if for some reason i could close up any fascia or muscle, i would use this. what these are -- i don't know if you can see it there. let's see. there it goes. it says plain. plain o. this is cat gut suture attached to a curved cutting needle. this is a little class vile that has a little crimp in it, and you would break this out on the sterile field. this is still sterile after all these years. i don't think that the suture would be any good, but it's just amazing. they all game in little packages like this that had the little viles in it. now it comes in in the tinfoil pack

i wrote back to her if we could start a correspondence. eventually i wrote to them and i told her i had written about her. she wrote back. she wrote me letters. her first letter was kind of livid. she was upset that i had written about her. and she said. you didn't know me you didn't know my son. what gives me the right -- you the right to even write about me. i wrote back and told her my story. i told her who i was. and why i had written about it. i was a child at the time. i told her that i would like to hear her story not what the newspaper said or what was on the news but the truth i include this in the book because i think it is important for readers to see the writer implicate themselves and talk about how they are complicit in certain violence is. and when i ask her to tell me her story she wrote back and said this is not a story this is my life. she put me in my place. and i deserved it. i really started thinking about why i was writing in my i was writing it this way. i went back to the beginning of the book. and i started interrog

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and that i could push it and see whether he would push back. i worked on a team of men, so i felt like i had the ability to do that. and to kind of challenge it a little bit. and through each piece of writing about this issue that we did, i could kind of push the envelope a little more so than by the time he gave the speech, when he got on the stage in front of thousands of people and said this is what a feminist look like, it took slowly moving us to that direction. it wasn't that i was putting an idea into his head, it was something he already had, i was just helping him find his voice, giving it voice. >> the thing that is most rewarding about writing for a president, a president you like, and a vice president i should say as well, is the reasons you like the person you are writing for, you want the whole country to see what you like about the person. so you think about that when you are writing. i don't consider that as having influence on policy so much as giving him confidence, expressing his best thoughts, putting all you can into it to e

that's not-- i wish i had something special, i wish i could tell you to buy this book and you'll have it all figured out, but just care. and show people that. i think if we all do it that changes the world. >> how about we go this way? i'm here all night. want me to go? >> okay. two questions quick. i'm a big fan of the wired podcast, the information and the special guests you have on there is very impressive. keep up the good work. but i've always wondered and i love the pregame with dan johnson. you two are a great pair. how did you hook up with dan johnson. >> deer hunting talk, so, yes, i ran the things, the podcast, a lot about my co-host, dan johnson is a character. i wanted to start a podcast back in 2013, i just quick my job at google, was going to go full-time, trying to be an outdoor writer and podcaster and that stuff and i realized i had all of this free time and better do something with it and podcast seemed like the natural next step, but i am-- i am like the straight-laced normal bookish kind of guy, which is okay, but it's not that funny. it's not that entertaining at

it does feel, i wish i could travel there, i think it would make a big difference, but i think it was able to know quite a lot. and basically with those who came to iran to help track the refugees. they lost things a lot of lot of records. and then they could rebuild the did your mom help you? [laughter] >> no. it was a difficult relationship. my mom was born and palestine in 1938. she didn't know anything. they were very mismatched in a way. so even now she read the book and she is shocked but of course i had no idea. >> thank you all for coming and lead playing yes but thank you again for showing up. >> follow me on twitter and facebook. t. see all the book tv and c-span products available. >> good afternoon. i am the director of the boston institute for international public affairs and i am so delighted to be here today to

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i kept thinking if i could get into one of these homes and have a bath i would die happily.now kids bundled up. they are looking with eyes in these monsters walking in the middle of the road. three young women reporting as slaves were looking the other way they do want to see who was walking. it was total rejection i picked it up right away. the difference between person is my housing this is high in very low and we keep going and i see inmates, prisoners in this strap hanging from a cliff. i said this is going to be the end. that was a wonderful thing what people did. i went through my housing the terrible four days there i really had i almost bought it a terrible case of dysentery i was so sick, you can't keep any food down and how can you keep walking and working? there was a blacksmith and he gave me a piece of call and he said take this call to get the poison off my body that was i was eating for three days was à Ãi wound up every time he would move from one camp to another i was there march 15 and found out who that was. i'm not sure how i'm going to make this but i'm

i don't think anybody else could have. i think there are cases where people might feel uncomfortable that it is out there, but for three years they told me they were comfortable and i have to go with that. susan: what was the progression from you walking, meeting, taking photographs, to you doing blogs with photographs to columns that appeared in "the guardian" to this book? how did that all happen? chris: it was basically that progression. it was just -- susan: did "the guardian" see you on the internet and come find you? chris: it was an editor, heidi moore, who knew me for my business writing. she saw me on twitter and asked me to write some business articles for her, which i did, on wall street. not very favorable to wall street articles. from there, she introduced me to the op-ed people and i started writing more political pieces. susan: who -- how did the book idea come together? chris: that was entirely accidental. meaning -- i did hunts point for three years and eventually i had to leave for both emotional reason,

they knew i could sing. o choir when i was a little boy, and, uh-- - joe perry just left l.a. - harvey: hey, joe! - steven: hey, joe! - ( harvey chuckles ) - all right, so-- - he left you again. oh, god. he's hanging out with johnny depp. what music, what artists influenced you? i gotta say the everly brothers because of their harmony. it's the first time i ever felt any kind of sexual feelings from the waist down. their harmonies together-- the everly brothers, in their harmony lived something i couldn't explain, i didn't understand, but it felt like-- it didn't feel like sex. it felt like... ...something so wonderful that i'd never heard. harvey: i wanna talk a little bit about your upbringing. - you hunted, shotguns... - mm-hmm. you were hanging out in the woods. you just don't strike me as a country boy. i still carry a knife everywhere i go. - why? - it's to open my fan mail. um, you know, i don't know why. - but you were mostly-- - i had a nice-- i actually gotta share this with you. it's ridiculous. it

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i could not hold back the tears. ly promised that i would care for this woman as if she were my own mother. i am so sorry we can't save everyone." earlier today i spoke to meredith about that life-changing experience. >> you shared a very moving experience that you had with a covid patient on facebook over the weekend. can you tell us what happened? >> i was working on saturday and i had a patient. she was elderly. she could no longer even open her eyes. she was so physically exhausted we were unable to get her oxygen levels down. and her daughters asked if we could call from the room. and so i did. it was the only thing i could do for them. she was able to speak a little bit at that time. but i knew that she would probably not leave the hospital. her prognosis was poor at that point. and essentially, the family was saying good-bye. >> and so what's that like, witnessing those moments where a family is cut off from their loved ones unable to provide comfort in those incredibly painful moments? and here you are having

in chicago, when we won the world series, i think my son could have been elected to anything. verybody said he should be president, anything. everybody has respect for what has happened in my family, my three kids are still in chicago, i don't regret it. >> i want to touch on a little more personal areas, you had a brother who was gay and a daughter who is gay you come from a catholic background, grew up in the midwest, obviously, you write about it in the book, it's honorable the way you handle it, what is that like for you and your children and growing up where you did? >> obviously i think you can imagine growing up in a town of about 6000, and an agricultural community, don't have much exposure to the idea or reality every homosexual, doesn't come to your well-being. i never had an idea my brother was gay until he called me and told me he had eight and as i described in the book. he was only a year younger than i was so i left him. it didn't make any difference to me whether he had aids or a homosexual, so we took care of him until he passed away. my daughter was in her ear

if i had a patient that had a real dirty wound, i would wash it out the best i could. given penicillin, put dressing on it, stabilize him and call for transportation. get out of my yard. also, no doctor in their right mind wants to be a battalion surgeon. i do not want to be here. i want to be in an english hospital with a bunch of good-looking nurses and a nice warm bet. i do not want to be 200 yards from the front line with bullets going over my head. people shooting short rounds at me from the rear. but this is my job. if i did not do my job what would happen? people would die. for the most part, the battalion surgeons did not jump into combat. they would establish a front, we would be brought up by ships. the more i read, the more doctors did jump. there was one dock and the third battalion of the 5:06. his name was doctor stanley morgan. he actually did jump into normandy on june 5th. he sprained his ankle and was immediately captured by the germans. they put him to work. he worked right alongside the germans. he could not understand where they said. but, it was th

now i could have, i could have, kept it open. and i could have done what some countries are doing.hey're getting beat up pretty badly. i could have kept it open. i thought of keeping it open because nobody has ever heard of closing down a country, let alone the united states of america. but if i would have done that, we would have had hundreds of thousands of people that would right now be dead. we have done this right. we really, we really have done this right. the problem is the press doesn't cover it the way it should be. one more question, steve. reporter: there is debate over what authority you have to order the country reopened. what authority do you have? >> well i have the ultimate authority. we'll get into that in a minute. we'll finish this up. we'll tell you about other things that we've done right. but i will say this, had we said keep going, let's not do a closing, whether it is 2.2, at one point predicted as an outside or 1.6 at a lower number, you cut it all the way down to 6 or 7 or 800,000, take a fraction of the number that could have happened. it literally would

army, i could track her. i knew where she was.diers talked about her selected kind of find her in the documents and because she led this effort after the battle glorieta to nurse the soldiers, they wrote about her, they called her the angel of santa fe. the santa fe newspaper printed a piece on her although they were a little skeptical because she was helping the enemy. it was a little dicey. the only problem with louisa was that she seemed too nice. she seems like too nice to be true. i kept trying to figure out angles on her that would give her a little more texture she was also one of the attendees at the scances. she was very interested in contacting the spirits. which gave her some good context. really it was a combination of who could i think about in their context that would give me enough sources so i could build their lives for you on the page. but who would also allow me to talk about the larger community and their role in it. >> great stuff megan, i want to ask the second of the trios you ended with the three by three m

if for some reason i could close up any muscle, i would use this. i don't know if you can see it there. this is catgut suture attached to a curve cutting needle. this is a glass vial. you would break this out. this is still sterile after all these years. i don't think the suture would be any good. they all came in little packages like this. now it comes in little tinfoil bags. this is a "portable operating room table." this is a monster to put together. usually you would see most of these in the surgical area. it's nice to have this here because these stretchers were not here, they were in the field. i can just put them on this thing to work on it. iv fluids, we talked about iv, the bottles that came in and reconstitute the plasma after we use the bottles, what we do with them? we threw them away? no, we reuse them. nothing was thrown away around here. sometimes you would see a medic coming from the field. necessity is the mother of invention. the battalion surgeon, this would be my quarters. i'm here 24 hours per day seven days a week. i don't have

i felt i could accomplish the majority of the orbital science objectives of the flight, and i felt we had a good mission and we could do it all. considern, did you that this could have been a meteorite strike or something internal? mr. lovell: this crossed our minds that it could have been a meteorite. i don't have an answer whether it was or not, except the fact the panel was missing, indicating whatever went in must have caused a larger bank to blow the panel completely out -- larger bang to blow the panel completely out. debriefing, days of can you give us an idea of the best possible cause of what lou --r tank that's what blew of what blew your tank? mr. lovell: i don't thing i can. our debriefings have been from the crew point of view. our people on the ground had a lot more information about concerninghen we did pressures and temperatures in possible causes of the accident, and perhaps have a better indication right now than we do. regarding whether the apollo we weremy fly again, informed today that such discussion did take place at debriefing. i wonder if you could confirm thi

i asked them if i could go to the toilet but the soldiers said no they would not allow me to go. they did not let me so i wet myself. they forced us not sides and i took my dad and myself and they blindfolded me and this was the most scary thing of all. and how do you feel now this is not the soldier's. i'm so happy now they have a gun now i can go out whenever i like at night and day people can come and see us i'm happy even my close friends can come visit me and i can go to their houses i mean i'm happy happy happy and so so. was. it. was as internal tensions rising gaza children have also been caught in the crossfire between hamas and fatah the 2 leading palestinian political parties. in december 2 10063 children were killed when their colleagues and little girls in an apparent attack on their father a senior fatter intelligence official. over 50 children have been killed in the past 3 months. and more than half of gaza's children are thought to be suffering psychological damage as a result of trauma i love where i live have very little had them are all this destruction and mes

it's the best job i could have imagined. i only miss being around those people.re just comes a time, i don't live a life of regrets, and there comes a time when you know what you have to do. david: you don't ever look back? gen. mattis: i look forward. i am like dallas. [applause] david: i wish i could do that. i always look back at the deals i should have, i missed. i wish i had that same ability. but, ok. [laughter] you disagreed with president trump on syria. i realize you have been very careful about not criticizing president trump at all since you have left, in any public forum, so i will not probably persuade you to do so here, not that you want to do so. but the reason you want to be not commenting on your service as secretary of defense or saying anything negative about president trump is what? is it because you are a former cabinet officer, former military person, or it's just not a good policy? gen. mattis: i resigned over a policy disagreement, you are right. i put that disagreement in a page-and-a half-letter. the letter has been released, that is all

all i could see barbed wire, fire and smoke and ashes coming down. they were fish and they had us drink it was the first drink i had in four days. my father asked them if we were going to see our families today. that's what they had told this before. and they said where did you come from? we said we came from hungary in the middle of the night. i can hear it so clearly they said in 1944 you don't know what this place is all about? your families have gone through the chimney. the only white you will get out of here is to be beaten to death, you will be starved to death you will ghosted the chimney for sure. we did not talk about it anymore. i think probably my father and uncle talked about it but didn't at least until the next day. you are now in the clutches of survival. we were putting in sheet work units and give it a couple, with a psychopath with from the german jails. the put this psychopath they were our work bosses. you are dancing on the edge of survival. your food was 300 calories. day. i was lucky i had good boots. boots became a big thing b

i got there as early as i could that morning and i had my vacation pictures from the week before. i was going to share those with these gals. we did not get started on this meeting until about 8:20. i would turn around and look at my computer screen at the next item we were to discuss. i leaned back in my chair and let them discuss who was going to copy this or get this ready so they could hurry with their audit. i turned around in my chair and kind of rared back to discuss the next item, when the bomb went off. it had to be longer but it was like seconds. all of the girls in the office with me had disappeared. i felt they had ran out and left me alone. i started hollering, where are you guys? then a realization set in somewhat. i realized that i don't know where they are, they are gone. eventually i found out that when the bomb went up and everything started coming down, the seven floors above us had took them into what was eventually known as the pit. there was a silence that fell over the scene. the papers were still fluttering. when the glass and stuff stopped -- there was gla

i could see the interior. i could not see what was damaged, i could see material hanging out for the interior and about that time because my description would not be as good as a picture. jack then knowing that he didn't see anything from his window started to come down through the tunnel to the left and fred got his cameras ready and the spacecraft maneuvered to a point where the service module was visible and the front window and fred and jackson were taking pictures trying to capture some of the damage that we can see. the remainder of the flight went just as the ground had told us to do it. we had kept in that position. i got an alignment from the earth, moon, and soon which was good enough to transfer back to jack a rough alignment so he could get one in the command module. he started to get this alignment. and it ask a triangular window while they're powering up, and even though it is not noticeable to me it looked like it was getting bigger and bigger. and i kept yelling how are you coming, are you fine

i could read a topographic map. he taught us how to pack '70s work of gear. he taught us how to safely camp or hike in grizzly bear country. simple things but things i wasn't learning in grand rapids. i graduated. had that information in my back pocket and decided it was time to go and use it. so at 21 years old or so find i can visit my girlfriend we should head west. i had a career as mentioned though started out in california. we took three weeks and road trip across the country. went to rocky top national park in colorado, yellowstone and grand teton national parks in wyoming. i think if any of you have been to some of these places you will know what i'm talking about especially the first time you see something like that. it is life-changing, it is paradigm shifting when you see what's available to you, what's out there, this big -- for anyone who appreciates the outdoors who appreciates open-space, quiet encounters of animals, if you appreciate any of those things, lunches are heading out into some of these bigger, wilder places and you see that scale and