so i felt scared. and i was scared to tell my friends the people that really knew me the truth about what happened the shame as bad as it is for women is even worse for men because it's all tied in with him a phobia the people who are doing the raping are not gay that's not the problem they're worried about gays in the military the gays are not the rapists they're heterosexual man for the most part this is not an issue of sexual orientation this is simply an issue power and violence male sexual predators for the large part of target whoever is there to prey upon whether that's men or women whenever. there is. evidence of another when one has been sexually assaulted the question i keep asking myself is when does this ever. breaking news at this hour but maybe appears to be facing a huge sex scandal details are still covering yeah. this news girl news tonight with peter jennings to do we're going to begin tonight by putting a human face on the worst case of sexual harassment of the navy's history at an an

. >> i felt guilty. i felt shame. i felt what anybody would feel in abuse. i was a preacher's daughter. like i was taught to be a virgin until i got married and so i never wanted to share these like sexual things that were happening because i didn't want to hurt anybody. >> you did finally told your folks, and that took big-time guts. >> it did. and my parents' reaction, they did the best that they could. that's a heavy thing to hear from your child. >> did they kind of ignore it? >> they ignored it with their words for sure but they took action. and never had to do the sleepovers again and i never had to go back. >> all of this seems so cathartic for her and she seems to be in a great spot. >> yes. the book comes out, it will be released february 4th. >>> now to selena gomez who told npr she experienced emotional abuse in her past relationship with justin bieber. >> well, you remember the two started dating back in 2011. selena was 18. justin was 16. then they broke up in 2018 and that was the siame year he married hailey baldwin. >> it's dangerous to stay i

i felt what you felt. i felt what you felt. that is how powerful it was. goung girl like that, you know? coming to understand what it is. life, i will still be learning from what you gave me and i wanted to give what you gave me to the world. so i wrote a piece -- that part -- notes]ises those are the bombs falling. >> and what are the words? what is she singing? hannibal: "what is this rain that falls from the sky, this rain that burns me until i die will this firen end angels to send -- descend souls a sinr end?"his fire that has no still inhe fire is aleppo. the fire does not end. the fire does not in. -- how it destroys, destroys us. much.lmost too when i put the last note on the taper, i asked the creator to make sure you could hear it and i never thought to ask if i would be there to see it, but that is how the creator were. the creator is all knowing and powerful. [applause] >> it is an extraordinary honor the creator has sent you here to give us this work and we are so honored to have you here and to tell your story. take us back to that terrible da

i felt like we really do have this opportunity at this moment. when i first started writing the book, girls, parents of boys would say to me i'm so relieved to have avoided because they don't have to think about these things. and i kind of think really, you think you don't have to think about these things? that is the mentality, it's changed entirely. now parents of boys are so eager to hear about these things and have these discussions to read a book like this because they also want change and they realize that they arrealizedthat they wg challenge raising a man of integrity in a world that often gives boys a message that is the opposite. >> host: i have noticed in recent years in particular with the prevalence and the rise of me to a love of parents talk about the idea that they are actually fearful of having and raising boys and is a larger job now for some reason. what do you think is behind the anxiety? >> guest: it is the lack of conversation that somehow we think we have got boys raised in the way we have in the past that is something to be

>> i think they felt constrained and i know they felt conflicted.but they also felt eager for something more expansive. for a way to be a better man. to engage in intimacy both emotional and physical in a way that would be mutually gratifying and fulfilling. i felt a real sense of hope that they wanted to have these conversations. that gives me hope that there will be a better way moving forward. >> as an outsider, did you feel an overwhelming sense of hope in terms of sexuality in america?or did you feel as though there are still several roadblocks and plenty of things we have to take care of? >> we are in a polarized country right now. this is another place, sex education is about as polarized as it gets. that is a tough one. i do feel really strongly. i was so excited to write this book and get it out into the world. because i felt like - - we do have this opportunity at this moment. when i first started writing about girls, parents of boys would say to me, i'm so relieved to have a boy because i'll have to think about these things. i would think

i felt a freedom i never felt before. i had just enough to pay my rent and to buy a couple of meals. i sent in cafcs all day. clichc stuff but really world opening things too. i wondered to myself, can i be a writer? i can try this. as my year came to an end, my father told me you need to come back home and figure out what you will do. so i took the gre and didn't get into the program i wanted and decided, i've got to get a job. i was a paralegal for two years at a midtown corporate law firm. i thought i'd do that and go to law school. it was absolute misery. it was terrell - - terrible. i decided i had such bad experiences that i need to actually try to be a writer. so i applied to nyu, to the writing program. i got a fellowship. i approached that with a kind of nacvetc as though i had to come out of that with a deal. >> the way you just told it, you thought you might be a writer by vocation. it was sitting in cafcs. >> yeah. >> writing about what was happening to your. >> that sense of freedom, it's really a troop in the

i felt very alone. there was a period that i wasjust...t i hadn't been born in this way, really at all, and i almost kind of blamed her, because i knew that she wanted a child so bad. the numbers for how many pregnancies you can allow, people don't report, is if the pregnancies are unsuccessful, so the sperm donors don't get a lot of information in return. so there is a problem with a lack of regulation around that or something. but, i mean, should they have 20—something kids? sperm donation is around to stay, so, i don't know, someday it might only be this. i don't know. we don't know the future of, like, any of that. it is so grody that other people's parents had to have sex. it's weird! science. i really want to get to know you better and i'm down to be a brother. i want to get to know you guys too. we're not brothers and sisters in name only, i kinda want to make it more than that. i really hadn't used the term brothers and sisters up until today, but meeting them and hearing samantha and george and julia say, like, you're my brother,

i felt like on the former we needed to find a path of citizenship. i think on the merits is the right way to go. you can make adjustments to who is coming in. that is where i disagree with him. my primary objections my primary objections are not in the realm of policy, though the separation of children and parents-deeply offensive. but i think he is psychologically unwell and that worries me. said, the assault on truth reality, and the conspiracy-mongering is really that -- bad. >> we have come to time today. >> you bet. thank you for having me. [applause] >> thursday, the house meets for general speeches followed by legislative business at noon. members are taking up a war powers resolution, calling for the president to limit the use of military action in iran. on c-span two, the senate considers the nomination for the office of management and budget. then, president trump holds a rally is of his reelection campaign. , a look at efforts to secure voting systems. the house gets underway at 10 a.m. eastern. >> the house will be in order. c-span has bee

i felt — it's two and a quarter hours. i felt it would have benefited from being two, for example.niseries. i just loved it. i loved it. but there we go — diversity of opinion is a wonderful thing! thejoy of film. yes! 0k. i didn't love it, i didn't hate it. no, 0k. but they're not putting that on the poster. no. dvd. dvd, what's out? yes. just very briefly, the by the grace of god, which is a true—life drama directed by francois 0zon about a real—life case of a group of men who got together to take action against a priest who had molested them in younger life. what's interesting about it is because the subject matter is so factually based, it is almost as if ozon, who is a kind of, you know, famous auteur, he has put aside any style and has just made the film as straightforwardly and as simply and as, you know, a matter of factly as possible because the story itself is very strong, very powerful, very controversial and it's almost like the film—maker's saying "i do not need to embellish this at all. this is how it plays out." and i thought actually, it was a very smart move becaus

i felt — it's two and a quarter hours. i felt it would have benefited from being two, for example.i just loved it. i loved it. but there we go — diversity of opinion is a wonderful thing! thejoy of film. yes! 0k. i didn't love it, i didn't hate it. no, 0k. but they're not putting that on the poster. no. dvd. dvd, what's out? yes. just very briefly, the by the grace of god, which is a true—life drama directed by francois ozon about a real—life case of a group of men who got together to take action against a priest who had molested them in younger life. what's interesting about it is because the subject matter is so factually based, it is almost as if ozon, who is a kind of, you know, famous auteur, he has put aside any style and has just made the film as straightforwardly and as simply and as, you know, a matter of factly as possible because the story itself is very strong, very powerful, very controversial and it's almost like the film—maker's saying "i do not need to embellish this at all. this is how it plays out." and i thought actually, it was a very smart move because i though

that 10 million they demanded from heiko. >> i felt my whole body just collapsed. if i cannot convince him that i don't have that money, i will never see my family again. so i looked up toward heaven. and there was this one star just blinking. i pointed at the star, this one star up in the sky. and i told them to -- if they can get that star, my husband can give them $10 million. >> reporter: gerfa knew heiko would have sent all the money they had, even as the kidnappers squeezed him by putting his terrified son on the phone. >> dad! just send the money. that's all they want. >> reporter: heiko didn't realize that the kidnappers were beating kevin as he spoke. gerfa was forced to watch. helpless, full of rage. >> he get hurt from head to toes. even though he fell on the ground, they continued to -- >> they kept kicking him. >> -- abuse him. but all he was doing was just listening to his dad. because that was the safety zone. >> reporter: gerfa's cousin threw himself on kevin, tried to shield him. [ speaking foreign language ]. >> what i want is to hug kevin, protec

i felt like throwing up. i just felt this gut punch. and i felt sick. >> i was asked by someone how could you be so stupid. at the time i was going through it, it was very real. >> as our population ages, that's a matter that is only going to get worse. >> reporter: seniors have lost nearly $38 million to the scam says senator susan collins. >> oftentimes our seniors are embarrassed when they rehmize that they've been ripped off and they're too ashamed to admit that they've lost lost out their life savings to a scammer. they shouldn't be embarrassed. they should report. >> reporter: the andersons say they'll survive the dollar loss, but others may not. >> we don't want anyone else to go through this. a lot of people since this has happened to us have gotten those calls and called us and said i just got a social security call. what should i do? and we say hang up. >> reporter: that is the thing to do, just hang up. but these scam calls just got even scarier. the fbi put out a warning yesterday saying the crooks are now spoofing the fbi's

it's how we talk about them and i felt like i was doing something for them just by having the conversations it seems like you said they felt such relief and seemed to get them thinking and just giving them some space and room to think through their ideas and think through things that had affected them that in itself felt like i was giving them something. >> host: we've talked about some of the young man who felt relief from that and have kept in touch with you. were there any young man who felt fear after talking to you or felt uncomfortable or were worried that opening u up what someone would be a damaging thing where they felt guilt? >> guest: i don't know how they felt afterwards. i don't know. there were, not every guy just walked into the room and, you know, said everything that was in his heart. there were those that were anti-spoke a lot, so there was a real range. but my what i would hear mostly is that it was a positive experience for them. >> host: anybody that picks up the book, it deals with the prevalence of online pornography and the readiness and you had at one point and i ha

and i immediately knew that i was going to want to, when i felt ready go public, because i had felt likeof the little girls an explanation. >> wow. the congresswoman says she is coming to terms with the loss of her hair and she says she still misses it. >> i think that you might overly intellectualize it and say, it is just hair. people well meaning have been reminding me of the india arie song, i am not my hair and my hair is not me, and that is true, but i still want it. >> this is one of the favorite lines she said to "the root" i am not here to occupy space, but to create it and be free. tha thank you so much, congresswoman. i am sure you are inspiring so many men and women today. and "the lead" with jake tapper starts right now over in washington. >> a defense team dynamic duo that kept jeffrey epstein out of jail. "the lead" starting now. and the impeachment dream team, and president trump beefs up the defense team with the names that you know from the infamous defendants and from their time on tv. the pentagon initially said no u.s. troops were hurt by the iranian missile strike l

ijust wanted to make sure that i felt better. london, i went to my gp, who recommended i talk to the sexual assault clinic. he encouraged me to speak to the police here, which i hadn't thought of doing before, at least i had kind of society not to because all i wanted to be was safe. com pletely because all i wanted to be was safe. completely understandable. you went to the police. how did they react? first i spoke to the clinic, who said that it would be really important to talk to the police, and so important to talk to the police, and soi important to talk to the police, and so i decided i would. i met with them at a police station. u nfortu nately them at a police station. unfortunately they were quite discouraging. they said it would not be likely that anyone would be able to find the perpetrator. they would have to hand it over to the cyprus police, at which point i asked whether my anonymity would be compromised, but they said they did not know and i asked if someone would be able to find out but no one ever found out for m

i was in deep sleep and when i heard the rapid the front door it felt far away. i was still coming out of the drowsy haze. i didn't recognize the noise for what it was. i thought the knocking i was hearing was part of a dream. eventually i realized the sound was real and was coming from my own front door. i wasn't expecting company at that hour so i hesitated before answering. i got to the door and looked through the peephole to see three sharply dressed marine standing together. immediately had a sinking feeling in my gut. my husband rob had been deployed to afghanistan 6 weeks earlier. it was arthur diploma together and i noticed the appearance of marines in uniform was rarely a good thing but i remembered something i heard in a meeting for servicemembers that gave me some hope. if you receive a notification family readiness officer had instructed us before rob left 2 or 3 marines will come to your house no earlier than 8:00 in the morning. i recall sitting with other military families at the meeting where we learned important things we would need to know to get

i was the sole dissenter in that case, because i felt while i -- while i felt that parts of the wall were not justified as a matter of self-defense, i thought some others were, and as a matter of fact the israeli supreme court and this is something that is not known when we talk about israel, the israeli supreme court using basically my approach to how this issue should have been dealt with has pushed back the wall in quite a number of places. and, there are about 100 cases, i'm told are still pending in the israeli supreme court to deal with the issue. that is not something you would find in many countries, in the situation, similar to which israel finds itself. i dissented and i should tell you, if i may, that a funny story about this. my colleagues on the court knew after we discussed it and, they read -- heard my position, i said to my colleagues, we are going to -- i might have, peggy and i are just going to be gone from the city, once the decision comes out. because, we have no security, no protection. and the israelis brought a bomdz-out bus, in front of the court, the arabs, t

i felt like i was doing something for them, just by having the conversation. and it seems, like you said they felt such relief and they seem to get them thinking. and just giving them kind of space and room to think through their ideas and to think through the things that had affected them. that in itself, maybe phil echoes giving them something. >> host: slave talked a little bit about the young men who felt relief from that and have kept in touch with you. for there any young men who felt fear after talking to her felt uncomfortable? or were worried that opening up and being honest would somehow be a damaging thing or they felt guilt? >> guest: i don't know how they felt "after words". i don't know. there were some guys of course there were not every guy just walked into the room and said everything was that was in his heart. there were guys who were mono slavic and then there guys spoke a lot. so what i would hear mostly was it was a positive experience for them. >> host: and i think anyone who picks up the book, there's a chapter earlier on in the first hal

. >> i had a room when i was an mater, and i saw from my room where i felt trapped like rapunz rapunzelhere i lived and forest lawn where all my family was buried and i felt like i was in the bermuda trial, you know, this weird place of life and death. >> burbank existed. >> reporter: fired after a few years, he found his footing directing "peewee's big adventure." >> thanks for stopping. >> reporter: that began a string of hits that made burton a household name. >> this exhibition is an immersive experience into the mind of tim burton. >> reporter: perhaps no one knows better than jenny hee, burton's chief exhibition curator. >> what he puts on screen or on a page or in a sculpture is identifiable for all of his fans. so there is really no disconnect between tim and his viewer or tim and his visitor because of that intense emotional connection that he imbues into his work. >> reporter: his art has 700-piece collection that was a viewed at new york's museum of modern art, where it drew the third largest crowd in moma's 8 moma that is new york same tim draws 43 million tourists a year. >

i felt like i was dropped in the deep end and i didn't know how to swim but it worked out. i developed a relationship with bill and worked in the george h.w. bush administration as a speechwriter for bill. in the 90s, i was policy director think tank on power. a very large figure in the conservative movement in the 80s and 90s. jack tragically died years ago. bill where the founders and i was there through the 90s. then hired as a speechwriter. for george w. bush when he became president after the florida recount was taking care of michael carson, speechwriter, one of my closest friends. he hired me and i did that job for two years. as an anecdote on a speechwriting side of things. mike would normally go to the senior staff meetings which were held in the roosevelt room but when he was not there, i would go in and i remember the morning of september 11, being struck, this was one of the most uneventful days with the bush presidency. the big topic of the conversation was there were supposed to be congressional barbecue on the south lawn at the white house. the tuesday late a

i just felt terrible but you were so generous and forgiving me. it is so indicative of you. i just think so kind. any time i got a text from you that was a kind word, i knew you meant it. i so valued it. i hope that we have entertained and amused you as much as we have driven you crazy with our personalities and shenanigans. my staff would sometimes say just out of the blue, can i just say, i love john. and so i think everyone sort of feels that way about you. although, the way we are talking , we are acting like we will not be on the third floor. you are not going over to another jurisdiction or going to private practice, you are actually staying with us. john, i want to invite you to come back to my office and hang out with us. come back and eat a doughnut, and because i actually feel like we are real friends. i think, to the great disappointment of the board of supervisors and to our office, i want to say, i thank you are such a hell of a baseball player good luck. thank you. [laughter]. >> supervisor stefani? >> thank you. i was so sad when i heard the news, john. i remem

very happy with the way i played.” felt great on court, i was moving great and i felt the ball match. meanwhile, garbine muguruza's return to form continues. the former world number one — who's unseeded at this year's championships — beat russia's anastasia pavlyuchenkova 7—5, 6—3, to reach the last four. she's now through to a grand slam semi—final for the first time in two years — and for only the second time since winning wimbledon in 2017. garbine muguruza and simona halep will meet in the second semi—final on thursday. before that, the top seed and home favourite ashleigh barty plays the american sofia kenin. and later — under the lights on rod laver arena — it's the first of the men's semi—finals, between roger federer and the defending champion novak djokovic. on to football — liverpool are now 19 points clear at the top of the english premier league, after winning 2—nil at west ham on wednesday. jurgen klopp's side have now gone 41 league games without defeat — stretching back to last january. alastair bruce—ball was watching. liverpool nowhere near their best but still

for as long as i can remember, i felt very dark, empty on the inside of my chest, even as a young kidll yourself when i was 12, i imagined that that is what would happen and so when... so that is the background. there wasn't one particular thing. i understand a little bit more about that, you know? there are statistics out there, non—gender conforming kids and lgbtqi youth are 70% more likely to attempt suicide. the cliche is you have to hit rock bottom before you start to rise, and you hit rock bottom and essentially you are saved by your sister who takes you back to france when you are in a very bad place in the us. shortly afterwards, you come out and you were honest about your sexuality. was that the beginning of a journey to self—knowledge about your own perception of your gender and your sexuality which helped you ? imean, yeah. the book, godspeed, ends when i am 21 and it ends there specifically because the life as i had lived up to that point, as you said, ends completely. it's a bit miraculous and inexplicable why one day i was using every day, i had quit swimming and i'd los

i felt what you felt. that is how powerful it was. young girl suffering like that, you know? i am still coming to understand what it is. all of my life, i will still be learning from what you gave me and i wanted to give what you gave me to the world. so i wrote the piece. [improvises notes] those are the bombs falling. >> and what are the words? what is she singing? this rainwhat is that's call -- that falls from the sky? this rain that burns me until i die? when will this fire come to an and? descend tohe angels make this fire and? -- and? to make their souls a sin. from this fire that has no end. because the fire is still in aleppo. the fire does not end. it is ignorance and hatred. how it destroys so many lives. how it destroys, destroys us. too much, because when i put the last note on the paper, i asked the creator to make sure you could hear it and i never thought to ask if i would be there to see it, but that is how the creator works. the creator is all knowing and powerful. [applause] >> it is an extraordinary honor that the

i felt something cracking or breaking inside of me. that point i knew i had two paths left open to me. one path would not have gotten back from -- made it back. the other one was one that gave me purpose. it allowed me to get out of the rock every morning. a purpose to put myself in the best possible position once i was released from prison. >> tucker: it seems from the outside looking in, and it's obvious you want to stop using. your book describes this passionate love affair you had with getting loaded, with drugs. the question is, now that you're off and clean, do you miss it? is it better? why is it worth getting off drugs? >> absolutely. life is amazing not being addicted to drugs. it's something that takes i think a long time to get to the point that i was at. to answer your question, life now has a purpose. i have a beautiful daughter. i have a lovely girlfriend. as a great, great relationship with my family. it started as a young teenager, i felt lonely. i felt uncomfortable in my own skin. it gave me, it soothes that for me. i

i felt like i invited the woman in for a couple of tea. i felt so bad she was knocking on doors. i said, it is important enough for that young woman to knock on doors and advocate for you, that money to give you some serious consideration. so, we are now down to crunch bee and the voters that will persuadable are the voters that you will make human contact with. this is so incredibly important. this will make the difference in new hampshire. this is how she is going to win. and we have wins the first woman president of the united states of america, we are all going to be able to be so proud. i want to feel pride again in who the president of the united states is. i and tired of feeling ashamed of what we have right now. i have never, ever thought we would get to this point, but we have no choice but to win and elizabeth moran is our best chance. i want to thing all of you for being out here today. thank you for believing and caring. thank you for being born. you're going to save our country. thank you very much. [applause] all for being here. i am on elizabeth's team here in conco

you name it, i went through it. >> she felt neglected. >> a male relative sexually abused her. when you think she was 12, 13, 14 years old, it's just nightmarish. >> so i basically ran away. >> going to school, i was always bullied. >> she was approached by an older boy at school. he kind of charmed her. they started having sex. and she realized she was pregnant. >> i wanted to be the best mom. >> she goes to look for a job to better her life and leaves her child in the hands of her mother. >> her mother's boyfriend was drunk, and he grabbed joey by the leg and fractured his knee. michelle took joey to the hospital, and social services put joey in foster care. >> she is going to court because she's fighting desperately to get her little boy, joey, back. >> i was so super excited to get to the appointment and then i couldn't find the place. >> she was pretty desperate. so she walked over to a family dollar store to ask the clerk where this address was. >> and then my best friend's father comes into the store. >> and gets you to the point. >> he says i know where it's at. i can ta

after that, i kind of felt the weight was lifted. and then i can start to rebuild.r—high 12 in the world. it is now image a qualified first third olympics in tokyo. i am probably the best place i have been mentally, physically and in my game, because i go out on the table now and i don't really fear anything i'm kind of quite proud that i managed to get through that and get to where i am now. so fearless and fighting fit, a different experience in tokyo surely awaits. best of luck to him. that gets under way at 7pm tonight. just before we go, a reminder of our top story — heather watson and harriet dart out from the australian open, ending british interest in the singles. left to the guys in the doubles now. starting now on bbc radio 5 live, build—up to wolves/liverpool in the premier league followed by full commentary. lots more in sportsday with katie at 10.30pm. hope you can join us then. see you later. hello there. the winter has been so mild. even if you daffodils poking out. recent nights have not been ethical because we have much, much more clout around. that

i felt like i was dropped in the deep end. and i didn't know how to swim. it worked out. i developed a good relationship with bill. then worked in the george h.w. bush administration as a aide and speechwriter for bill when he was the drug drug czar. then in the'90s, i was policy director at empower america which is jack kemp. very large figure in the conservative movement in the'80s and'90s.jack tragically dude years ago. bill and gene kirkpatrick were the founders of empower america. i was there through the 90s and then hired as a speechwriter for george w. bush when he came president after the florida recount was taken care of. the chief speechwriter was one of my closest friends. i got do know mike when i was at empower america. he hired me as deputy director of speechwriting. i did that job for two years. just an anecdote on the speechwriting side of things, mike would normally go to the senior meetings in the roosevelt room but when he was not there, i would go in his stead. st and i remember the morning of september 11th being struck of that this is one of the most

when i saw that i felt so frustrated and sighed this is because i had stressed out the point during the press conference to the media that it is important for them to report stories from different parts of the world i really felt disappointed when i phoned i had been cropped out of the photo. wives were in shoes but the action made us to mean to me i went ahead and read the article actually and i was not introduced as one of the activists who had the press conference none of my quotes from the press conference was included in the article it's really made me feel so sad. for this and no one looking at your twitter feed can really get a sense of that some of the statements that you've put out in response to it but you took part in the congo press conference today alongside you'll hear that would be great to. tell me what was the objective all spec press conference i understand it was in response to this picture. the objective of the press conference was mainly to points the climate crisis in africa for everyone to see this press conference gave an opportunity to different activists from a

and i felt that the black people in montgomery had a real problem with buses. and so i made a personal commitment when i was a teenager. i was going to finish college, go to somebody's law school, become a lawyer, but in order to do that i wasn't going to apply to the university of alabama, go someplace else, come back, take the bar exam, and destroy everything segregated i could find. while i was thinking about doing that, i saw mrs. parks working, doing what i wanted to try to do, and that was my first beginning. move forward to some three or four years later, in 1953 i enrolled in case western reserve university law school in cleveland. finished in three years, took the ohio bar exam just in case. a month later i took the alabama bar exam. on september the 7th, 1954, i became licensed to practice. now i'm ready to destroy everything segregated i could find. [ applause ] shortly thereafter -- and one of the things that mrs. parks was doing, she was youth director. and one of the young ladies who was in her youth director chorus at the naac was claudette carvin

i always thought that when i , i was moved by the same consideration. that he felt i couldn't judge him. nicholas: but you participated in the world court case involving the war -- involving the wall? thomas: i dissented. i was the sole dissenter in that case because i felt -- while i felt that parts of the wall were not justified as a matter of self-defense, i thought some others work. as a matter of fact, the israeli supreme court -- this is something that is not known when we talk about israel -- the israeli supreme court using, basically my approach has pushed back the wall in quite a number of places. there are about 100 cases that are still pending to deal with this issue. that is not something you would find in many countries in this situation. i dissented, and i should tell you a funny story about this. on the court after we discussed it and they had position, ird my said to my colleagues, we are iing to -- my wife peggy and -- are going to be gone from this city once the decision comes out, because we have no security, no protection. the israelis had brough

i felt like i was dropped in the deep end. i did not know how to swim. it worked out. i developed a good relationship with bill. i then worked in the george h. w. bush administration as a speechwriter for bill when he was the so-called drug czar. then in the 1990's i was policy director at a think tank called power of america, which is jack kemp, a very large figure in the conservative movement in the 1980's and the 1990's. jack tragically died years ago. i was there through the 1990's. then i was hired as a speechwriter for george w. bush. when he became president after the florida recount was taken care of. michael person was the chief speechwriter. he hired me as deputy of speechwriting. i did that job for two years. there is an anecdote on the speechwriting side of things. mike would normally go to the senior staff meetings, which were held at 7:30 in the roosevelt room. when he was not there, i would go in his stead. i remember the morning of september 11. i remember being struck that this is one of the most uneventful days of the bush presidency. the big topic of

i felt like i ifelt like i got it for two i felt like i got it for two and then at mid—on, they gave it and as soon as i then at mid—on, they gave up on it and as soon as i saw then at mid—on, they gave up on it and as soon as i saw him give up, i wa nt to and as soon as i saw him give up, i want to the far side. it was a celebration to be honest. i didn't know what to do. just getting rid of a bit of energy. it was a pretty special moment. it was awesome to look at the boys in the changing room and see it and seeing how happy they were as well, something we really enjoy, enjoy each other‘s success. really enjoy, enjoy each other‘s success. that was pretty awesome. so a day ollie pope will remember for the rest of his life. earlierjonathan trott joined us in the studio and gave us his reaction. the thing that struck me, and what pressed me usually was he didn't feel as he had to play like ben stokes. he played in the same manner. he didn't feel like he had to add to it, he was very co mforta ble to add to it, he was very comfortable himself, letting ben stokes be the aggressor and ta

and i told i felt horrified and i felt sad and i felt angry and you know along the course of the evening.

i felt like if i did something wrong or whatever, she wouldn't love me.he would give me away. >> wouldn't love me? shirley told her, says renee, she was born to a prostitute drug addict named geri. that shirley saved baby renee, raised her as a daughter. but kept renee in line by threatening to abandon her. did she ever threaten to do that? >> yeah, many times. we'd do something wrong, and she would say, well, you stop doing that or i'm going to send you off to geri's house. >> and so they lived a life of packing up and fleeing state to state, one flop house to the next, searching for the cheapest place to stay and then skip out of. hunger constant. medical care, nonexistent. when money ran out, as it often did, shirley drove to the nearest truck stop. the girls would bed down in the car and watch shirley sneak off to do -- well, they didn't know. and alone and frightened, they held on to each other and watched the shadows of strange men pass by their car until the night when, terrified and unable to sleep, renee followed shirley. >> she's taking a long t

and i told i felt horrified and i felt sad and i felt angry and you know all along the course of the evening you know feelings just started to surface that were probably just simmering for a very very long time and she put her arms around me and were both there and saw it was like.