i know that. felt so so guilty that i couldn't really enjoy anything as time went on with my children or even in my life because it felt so bad he could not back to. and then i understood that was survivor's guilt which is odd because it's not like the two of us went through lots of events are we were in a car accident together. we had two different trajectories but we both lived through his drug addiction. and we came out the other end but he did not make it and i did. so i felt so much guilt. i think part of my processing was writing about it. but definitely in the book. i was so angry at peter for ditching us. it just felt like how could you do this we need you and were depending on you. he was a partner in a law firm, you can imagine our incomes. i needed him. and is not a cheap city. i miss his advice before he was addicted to it. before struggling with that. banana very different way of looking at a problem. he was very scientific and logical and a lawyer. and so if i would have an emotional reac

i felt like i needed and wanted to write about other issues, issues that felt more important to me and more focused on what it means to be a human being at this point in time and the society and this world and i say what we all i think grapple with and for social work is both a way into that to examine the issues and also will allow to hope to work with populations that are in need and feel, you know, that i'm doing good in the world too in contributing in other ways not just as a journalist. >> well, it's been a real honor to have this conversation. i so enjoyed your beautifully written book and i brought it today so i can show it here. >> thank you. >> i just so appreciate your sharing your wisdom and your humanity with us on such an important topic to you personally but to so many people around the country, in the world, so really appreciate again and thank you, eilene. >> thank you so much. thank you. >> this program is available as podcast, all after words programs can be viewed on our website at booktv.org. >> recently counterinsurgency expert traced threats and explain it is tit

that had been might be for many years and i felt i needed and wanted to write about other issues, issues that felt more important to me or more focused on what it means to be a human being at this point in time in the society in this world and what we all grapple with so social work is both a way into that and will allow me to work with populations that are in need, and feel that i am doing some good in the world and contributing in other ways, not just as a journalist. >> host: it has been an honor to have this conversation. i enjoyed your beautifully written book. i just so appreciate you sharing your wisdom and your humanity with us on such an important topic to you personally, to so many people in the country and the world. really appreciate it. >> thank you.

that was the tone i always felt. i never felt in a position where i needed to say i disagree with something. >> it is hard to overstate how hard that is. the first time i was in the oval office, i forgot the whole thing, you're there and you're like i'm in the room, it's so bright, what am i doing with my hands, and it is hard, you get used to. especially senior people, you get used to it. >> in the impeachment of andrew johnson, one of the articles of impeachment involves peach wrsp writing. the president did a tour of the country about reconstruction, and he was so rude that they wrote that as a reason for his removal from office. is it possible for a president to to say something, write something, or tweet something that we would justify removal from office. >> justify the removal of the writer. and that is what you live in fear of. but of course johnson didn't have writers. so bang, impeachment. >> legally i can't answer that question. if he says something where he perjuried himself, then yes. >> seems like it cou

i felt like i go to them that. then i felt like i also owe something to myself. i should explore this. i want to see that i am able to do and i really want to do this and i could not reconcile those two obligations. there wasn't a way to do with. >> your mother's role is interesting in this because she encourages you in this you are the one that i thought would get out of here so you need to go and not stay at times and then other times it seems like she is pulling back on that. >> my mother is really complicated. whenever i think about my mom, i think about the kind of two versions of her. so, there's my mother i think of as my mother and then there's my father's wife and they are just not the same person. my mother is a really different person when my dad is either fair or is kind of acting on his behalf. she's a very different person. when i was younger i felt there was more of her as my mother, and then as i got older, i felt like the person was less and less present. >> so it was unpredictable putsch mother you would wendy welch at a little unpredictable. >>

i was in a deep sleep and when i first turned to the door, it felt far away. so i was coming out of a drowsyd haze i didn't recognize the noise from prior was. i thought the marking force was part of a dream. i realized the sound was real and was coming for my own front door. honestly i wasn't expecting company at that s i hour. i got to the door and looked through the peephole to see three standing together. emily, i had a sinking feeling in my cup. my husband was inny afghanistan earlier and i knew the appearance of marines and uniform at your home was rarely a good thing. i remember something i heard in a meeting i attended and he gave me some hope. if you receive a notification from two to three millions wills come to your house no earlier than 8:00 in the morning. i recalled sitting with auditor military members at the meeting, we learned important things to one theugh the monthth words company, if they were bad news, it wouldn't come for another five hours at least. i wondered how long they had been standing outside trying to get my attention. after concl

from men and i developed very early and i felt like i was getting all this attention that i gwasn't interested in so i started dressing and was close. i wore baggy jeans and polo shirts and basketball jerseys and i trust head to toe like a boy and i didn't want to be looked at and i think dancing was very much like that. pretending to be someone else, tending to be stronger, tending to be happy but it was also for me and my girls dancing is like what we did because we needed something to do. we went to bayside marketplace where you can pay three dollars to get on a boat that had a dance floor and music kind of got us through a lot. like, we needed to dance . especially during thattime . we needed music and so now when i look back at everything we live through, it felt like dancing was not just performance but dancing was resistance and survival. thank you. other questions? >> will you please talk a little bit about your editing process? how much of the book was edited and how did you get with an editor and that agents and publisher? >> my first stop even before the book wasfinished

i felt they had ran out and left me alone. i started hollering, where are you guys? then a realization set in somewhat. i realized that i don't know where they are, they are gone. eventually i found out that when the bomb went up and everything started coming down, the seven floors above us had took them into what was eventually known as the pit. there was a silence that fell over the scene. the papers were still fluttering. when the glass and stuff stopped -- there was glass found on buildings blocks away, everywhere. but there was this eerie silence that was something. i had been thrown on the floor and packed into my spot come up with the stuff packed around me. i found out later there was only like 18 inches of the exterior wall that did not break away, which kind of helped me. but my desk was sitting at an angle, ready to topple over into this hole the bomb had made where my employees had landed. my first thought was it probably had to be a gas explosion of some kind. later on, they started saying bomb and that was shocking. i have been asked this by quite a few

i felt like i was doing something for them just by having the conversation. and it seemed like you said, they felt such a relief and it seemed to get them thinking and just giving them kind of space and room to think through their ideas and the things that had affected them. that in itself felt like i was givingthem something . >> you talk a little bit about some of the young men who felt relief from that and have kept in touch with you. were there any young men who felt fear after talking to you or were worried about opening up and being honest with somehowor other be a damaging thing or they felt guilt ? >> i don't know how they felt afterwards. i don't know. there were some guys, of course there were, not every guy just walked into the room and said everything that was in his heart. there were guys who were in fact monosyllabic guys he spoke a lot so there was a real range but what i would hear mostly was that it was a positive experience. >> i think anybody, there's a chapter early on in the first of the book which deals with the prevalence of online porno

when i felt pressure. the second time is when i found out hey we didn't have everything wrapped up as well as we should have, we had some loose ends and now the crew was going down the cape, we were weeks from launch. these are the two times i really felt pressure during the course of this mission. but i didn't feel anything. >> finally they launched. they were coasting out towards the moon. your crew were still operating. getting ready for the big event. during that time? >> several interesting things. this is my first experience with the translunar phase of the mission because i had worked 7 and 9 but never had this continuous communication. it was absolutely marvelous to sit in mission control now and see the spacecraft on a 24 hours a day throughout this entire transit period. so, from my standpoint we used this to continue binding ourselves together as a team. i would go over through every one of the telemetry measurement i-talked the trans lunar phase of the mission was that final period to pull all t

. >> within a couple of hours i felt better. within 24 hours, i felt pretty good. within 48 hours, i was able to leave the hospital. >> laura: do you feel like that made the difference for you? >> i do. it made all the difference in the world. >> laura: any side effects? >> zero. >> laura: that 48 hours he mentioned is interesting because you said you've seen a similar timeline with your patients? tell me. they go absolutely >> absolutely. we've had at least 50 that had been diagnosed covid positive and we've tested a couple hundred now that had early signs. we do a lot with immune supported therapies and many of our patients are coming through absolutely unscathed, which is been amazing. we need to start the hydroxychloroquine absolutely on the mark within 48 hours, it's been shocking to me that there has been a couple of pieces where i've had to fight with primary care physicians that have been involved with these patients, they are sitting at home with fevers bouncing around, taking tylenol, and things are going on then on the and they are starting to get very s

i always felt like i did not had enough. it was important for me to talk about that and talk about puerto rican history. in the relationship. i started thinking about how to include our history in a memoir that was something that was not a history book and how my story is connected to that story. being puerto rican i think most of us who come to puerto rico we feel a connection to the island even after we had left it even if we never been there. which is the truth. i saying that a lot of puerto ricans know. it comes from a poem it means that i would be puerto rican even if i was born on the moon. i wanted to reach people that would never be there. people that did not had access to that history. for whatever reason and make some of that history assessable to the general reader. i tried to talk about the parts of local history. a lot of this influenced the kind of a writer i became. i was always thinking of who i was writing for in some ways i felt like this book even though i intended it to be as open and honest and as vulner

i felt like i was doing something for them by having the conversation. they felt such relief and it seemed to get them thinking and just giving them space and room to think through their ideas into think through the things that have inflected them, that and self as i was giving them something. >> you talked a little bit about the young men who felt relief from not and kept in touch with you. were there any young men who felt fear after talking to you or felt uncomfortable or worried the opening up and being honest was somehow or another would be a damaging thing or guilt? >> i don't know how they thought "after words". i don't know. of course there were not every guy that walked into the room and said everything that was in his heart, there were guys who spoke a lot, not what i would hear with a positive experience from them. >> i think anybody who's read the book, there's a chapter earlier on which deals with the prevalence of online pornography and the readiness you read at one point i had to read this over a few times, you said young people's erotic im

i felt safe doing it. i think since i left, after those things are a little more tightened up in that way. which is understandable. guest: harry about your grandfather and your anti- racism work was fascinating can you tell us anymore about him and well just him. megan: i do write a lot about that in the book, it goes a lot about that into the book. he took that as a sign from god that he should go go to law school and defend the rights of the people. and for him, some people look at that work that he didn't compare it later to the work of the dead against lgbt people and their rights. and for him, there is no tension between those two. in that seems to be on the outside and that's because he thought both of those positions as being scripturally right. the importance of equality and under the law in the bible, one law should be to him, should be home born and in the strangers among you because god is made of one blood in all nations on the earth. so there was no, he never said it was a an abomination to be

when i felt pressure. the second time was when i found out that, hey, we didn't have everybody wrapped up as well as we should have. we had some loose ends. and now the crew was going down to the cape. those were the times that i felt pressure during the mission, but i didn't feel anything externally. >> finally, they launched. they had tli. they were coasting up towards the moon. and your crew were still operating, getting ready for the big event. what was happening during that time? >> the -- several interesting things. this is my first experience with the translunar phase of the mission. i had worked seven and nine, but we never had this continuous communication. and it was absolutely marvelous to sit in mission control now and see the spacecraft 24 hours a day, throughout this entire transit period. so, from my standpoint, we used this to continue binding ourselves together as a team. i would go over through every one of the telemetry measurements, i'd talk to the controllers about it, i'd find out how

in so many ways i felt like this book even though i am i intended to be open and honest than i intended it to be vulnerable, i wanted it to be a conversation with a specific group of people, girls who are like i was certainly puerto ricans, black puerto ricans and girls who grow up in poverty and for them to understand i wasn't writing about them. i was writing for them. something that i mention in the book, i was a kid who loved to read and i didn't have money for books. i went to the library and asked the libraries to give me books. i read everything they put in my hands everything they put in my hands were books that were written about white people and for white people and i thought to be a writer you needed to be white and so i wanted them to understand and to see the book and understand that isn't real and that we exist and that it is possible. there were other parts of this book that kind of shaped me and at the time i thought about while i was writing how it would make sense to the story. one of them was the baby lollipop that i talk about which happened in 1990. there was a todd

when i came to that realization i literally felt like i was deranged. how could i so strongly and passionately believed both of these things at the same time? in hindsight i have learned a little bit about psychology since i left. [laughter] its way our brains compartmentalize the information. they're both from the bible so it was unreal. >> my sister and i stayed in the home of my wonderful friend who was both of our high school english teacher who was really wonderful they let us stay in their basement the first night he would hurt me if i told you not to follow him on twitter. [laughter] but he stayed up with us for a couple of hours per i thought he would leave us to our despair but he stayed up with us and that was so important to finally out loud more in our family what was happening in just the whole fact that her whole lives had been to figure out. he was absolutely wonderful. >> thank you so much for your talk it has been interesting and inspiring. what are some things you have done to make amends with the community from the past? >> of course

>> i honestly felt i was going to die. and like i tell people, i'm telling my story, i'm telling my truth. i'm not telling anyone else's story. i'm not telling anyone else what to do. i'm telling my story and my truth, and this is how i feel, and these are my words. >> well, i'm not going to speak for her, but i don't see her voting for sleepy joe biden. i don't know. i'm not going to ask her that question. but if she votes for sleepy joe, i'd be surprised, okay? anyway, incredible story. such a great story. thank you. but your wife, i think we're going to- >> you're unbelievable. >> we're going to keep your wife around, right? we'll keep her around -- >> she is unbelievable. >> what's in the veins, right? >> she is unbelievable. >> that's fantastic. great, great stories. thank you both very much. >> please, go ahead. >> yeah, so, i mean, i consider myself a relatively healthy individual. probably get sick once every couple of years. >> right. that's good. >> and to think that i had something like this was very kind of sur

i felt energized. came back to your i no longer have my apartment with my girlfriend and i had this amazing situation where your paid-up front for work that you will complete a year later site just without knowing anything about i i got on a plane and wt down to buenos aires and rented an apartment for a few months and just worked like i've never worked in my life. >> host: you say that in the book. you don't say very much about how, i would like to go three months to buenos aires, don't get me wrong but it's a rather bold thing to do. i guess there was an english speaking community. >> guest: there was. i just, it was such, i was just obsessed with the literature. >> host: it was the literary -- >> guest: i was either going to go to mexico city or buenos aires. i had a friend who is living in both places. >> host: and that was, you did most of the finishing of the book? >> guest: yes, i got through much of the book there. it's one of the situations where you just didn't have to worry. it's a fraction

freedom i had never felt before. i taught english for ten hours a week. it was a cheap town. i had just enough to pay my rent and to buy, you know, a couple of meals and cook the rest, and i sat in cafes all day reading, cliche stuff, but really really like world opening things too, you know, and i wondered to myself, you know, i was keeping some notebooks. can i be a writer? maybe i can try this. as my year came to an end, my father kind of told me look, you know, you need to come back home and figure out what you are going to do. so i took the gre and didn't get into the program that i wanted and decided you know what, i've got to get a job. i was a paralegal for two years at a midtown corporate law firm, and i thought maybe i would do that and i would go to law school. and it was absolute misery. it was terrible. i worked a 36 hour day. i'd come in on a tuesday and left on a thursday from the office, and i decided, you know, i had such bad experiences there, that i decided you know what? i need to actually try to b

i felt like i was doing something for them, just by having the conversation. and it seems, like you said they felt such relief and they seem to get them thinking. and just giving them kind of space and room to think through their ideas and to think through the things that had affected them. that in itself made me feel like i was giving them something. >> host: so you've talked about some of the young men who felt relief from that and kept in touch with you. whether any men who felt fear after talking to you or felt uncomfortable? over worried that opening up and being honest would somehow be a damaging thing or feel guilt? >> guest: i don't know have to they felt "after words", i don't know. of course not every guy walked in the room and said everything that was in his heart. there were guys who were my slavic and then there were guys who spoke a lot. there was a real range. what i would hear mostly was it was a positive experience for them. >> host: and i think anybody who picks up the book, there's a chapter earlier on in the first half of the book which deal

. >> my lungs were collapsing already. >> reporter: he had a terrifying near death experience. >> i felt and met death. and i saw my mother, i saw my brother and my dad. >> reporter: he told them he needed to stay here on earth. >> they left me. >> reporter: they treated him with a cocktail, vitamin c and hydroxychloroquine and a medication used to slow the progression of hiv. >> the second day my fever went away. >> reporter: scientists can debate about which treatment turned his health around but he said he already found the answers, in his heart. he wants ether people fighting covid-19 to know it is not a guaranteed death sentence. he wants to give them hope. and to those afraid of becoming infected -- >> drive us to do better. >>> san francisco is opening new coronavirus testing sites. the first just opened at the galleria. the drive-thru testing site is by appointment only and will only test 200 people per day. owr a san francisco :00 p. restaurant closing her doors because others aren't following social distancing guidelines. they have been offering take out since the shelter-in-pl

i felt that there was nothing but a benefit. even when their work those encounters where i could help someone because i was a woman or the time when i was in iraq. one of my first days at work at bureau chief i came back and found something taped to my door that said fisher-price, my first bureau. hazing me about my age. there is age and gender and wrapped up into it. but i did find that it was generally i still twist it to my advantage because it came from underestimating what we can do, my very first translator was a woman, she is still in my life, very close to me but she was eight months pregnant and can you imagine the pair of us bumping around and talking about the uncertainty and also we need to chair. in 108-degree weather. look at these little ladies want to talk about this, come on we'll talk about it. so as a result the nine month pregnant iraqi woman we broke one of the first stories in the first interviews. >> in terms of disadvantages, i was wondering if you feel that you've experienced similar disadvantages to loca

i suppose in a way i felt that although i know that it is harderfor me, you know, obviously i felt thatasn't with me. let's put it that way. so, you know, i wish i could... i'm sorry. oh, debbie, ididn't mean to upset you. are you 0k? yeah, sorry. as strong as she is, the strain is showing. the charity carers uk says in a survey 55% of unpaid carers said they are feeling overwhelmed by their responsibilities, and are worried they'll burn out in the coming weeks. we estimate that there are 8.8 million people caring unpaid for a loved one in this country. they need recognition, they need financial support, they need to be included in the contingency plans that the government is making. we need to make sure that services come back as soon as is humanly possible when all this is over. carers really need to know that they will. .. this will come to an end and they will get respite. i'm totally responsible for sarah now. i have to do everything for her. it's very stressful.

i felt like i could accomplish the majority of the orbital science projections of the flight. and i felt that we had a good mission and we could do it all. >> captain, did you consider at the time and do you consider now that this could have been a meteorite strike or something internal. >> this thought crossed our minds that it could have been a meteorite. i don't really have a complete answer whether it was or not. whether or not it went in must have caused a larger bang to throw completely out and that's all i know about so far. >> after two days of debriefing could you give us the best cause of what blew your oxygen tank and ended your mission to the moon? >> i don't think i can. i don't think i'm in position to because our debriefing so far have been from the crew's point of view. it is unique, we were a few feet away from the accident, but the people on the ground had a lot more information than woe had concerns pressures and temperatures, and have perhaps a better indication than we do of what caused it. >> referring to wonderful the apollo crew might fly again, did tha

because i felt that i could not takpick. think that it cannot really pick it will be the main character characters and story that i wanted to tell. until interested but with the choices that different people made them over the range of choices that i could figure out who could be very good examples of each of those kinds of choices. i arrived in 2011, which was obviously ten of years and the assembled plant had shut down. i knew from the beginning that we need to go back in time so that i could tell the story from the moment that the announcement happened. that this was town would be change. so i knew that i would have to find people who to talk to who could go back a couple of years with me and explain what life had been like before it showed up on the scene. i also had the sense that i needed to understand the history of this community. i spent a lot of time reading and at the historical society because i wanted to understand what the past of janesville admin. i wanted to understand where the pride in the work that was don

about the concern — ifelt, and i was week about this, about the concern — i felt, and i was told week ifelt, and i was told by week about this, about the concern — i felt, and i was told by other people in the government, boris johnson was at least able to get backin johnson was at least able to get back in and think about what's going on, and be consulted on this decision. we are told it will be a dominic raab decision with the cabinet deciding on thursday. the question is, do they give a date? the problem is if it plateaus for a few weeks and there's no hope of leaving, there will be lots more people really upset, going a bit stir crazy. borisjohnson gets that in this communication, and his concern is that until he can get back to a full fighting figure, we will not have the same way. what do you think, is don having dashboards johnson having an impact?|j you think, is don having dashboards johnson having an impact? i think not having borisjohnson there will have an impact on the decision. i think it is having a bigger psyche on the actual lockdown. as far as i'm aware, we are the o

. >> my breathing was so difficult i felt like i was drowning. >> reporter: dr. anar yukhayev was the trial's first patient. >> the only question i had for the doctors, if you were in my pl d th said yes. of >> reporter: still, you were kind of rolling the dice, weren't you? >> i was.

>> i disagree with jim's request, i made that known to him. he felt it was important so i followed the directors direction. it is important for me to get this out, this entire idea virus somehow compromising my approach the investigation because of the support my wife had received from someone else year earlier. a false narrative, this is a lie perpetrated for political purposes so should i have made this decision differently in my professional life anticipating people would likely lie about this later? >> i recently told reporters we don't predict the future. but it's clear that. in time, money she took it came back because. >> wanted me because it was created in the political warfare going on at the time, you can't possibly secure today, should i make a decision on the off chance that someone my wife about a year end a half from n now? that's ridiculous. >> let switch gears, military commissions, you talk about detainee, i've written about this detainee, page 121 sessio sessions, jeff sessions refused to bring back to new york, if you didn't want to

i felt like i was doing something for them by just having the conversation. like you said they felt such a relief and it got them thinking just to give them that space and room to think through their ideas of what had affected them. that was helpful like i was dealing with something. >>host: talk about the young men who have kept in touch with you where there any who felt uncomfortable or were worried opening up and be honest would be damaging where they felt guilt? >> i don't know how they felt afterwards. i know. of course it wasn't like we just walked into the room and they said everything in their heart. some spoke a lot so there was a range but what i would hear mostly is that it was a positive experience for them. >> so there is a chapter in the first half of the book which deals with the prevalence of online pornography and the readiness of it out there. i had to read this line a few times you said young people's erotic imaginations are shaped long before with even a good night kiss and going back to the beginning of that working my way through to think

"it was an excellent company, "but i felt unable to grow the kernels that were in me." getting soft, mild discrimination. women did not do this, no, i could not apply for promotion there, no, it was not suitable for me to be talking about marketing, i was technical, and generally feeling that i was not allowed to expand from being a technical person to what i became, a manager. i hope a good manager, i've really worked very hard at that. but the fact that doors were closed or were very, very hard to open really made me quite assertive, aggressive — i believe in equal pay, i will carry my own things, i will do my own things, and that set a tone perhaps for what was going on in the rest of the world. well, we're now talking about the late 1950s and the very, very early 1960s, a time when perhaps the word "feminism" was just beginning to be used although, frankly, for many women, it probably still was not a word they were terribly familiar with. i personally avoided the word because it was very much anti—male, which i assure you, i am not, but... you really felt the early f

, there we re that was some genuinely felt, there were those genuinely felt words, and ie those genuinely felt words, and ithinka were those genuinely felt words, and i think a lot of people were kind of moved by it and i was. ifind it ha rd to moved by it and i was. ifind it hard to say that, but i was.” moved by it and i was. ifind it hard to say that, but i was. i think that situation he was in did change many things and i wonder if we have communication with lucy, we do, are you there? yes i am. i don't know if you there? yes i am. i don't know if you are able to hear us, we were talking about the front page of the independent and their decision to lead it with a 10,000 deaths, that's number number as the government says. it is a desperate number and i don't think the journalist could have chosen any other story. it is a landmark figure and i was going to say we we re landmark figure and i was going to say we were inching towards it but of course we have been accelerating towards it in the last week. the problem is we have also seen this happening in other countries,

i suppose in a way i felt that although i know that it is harderfor me, you know, obviously i felt thatother way?” would worry if she wasn't with me. let's put it that way. so, you know, i wish i could... i'm sorry. oh, debbie, ididn't mean to upset you. are you ok? yeah, sorry. as strong as she is, the strain is showing. the charity carers uk says in a survey 55% of unpaid carers said they are feeling overwhelmed by their responsibilities, and are worried they'll burn out in the coming weeks. we estimate that there are 8.8 million people caring unpaid for a loved one in this country. they need recognition, they need financial support, they need to be included in the contingency plans that the government is making. we need to make sure that services come back as soon as is humanly possible when all this is over. carers really need to know that they will. .. this will come to an end and they will get respite. i'm totally responsible for sarah now. i have to do everything for her. it's very stressful. if i do become unwell, then the whole deck of cards comes down. itjust all falls down. t

i felt that his revolutionary comrades in fact that viewed the newly created p.l.o. with great suspicion. they felt the organization was the product of the same impotent arab regimes that had lost palestine in 1988. that had the activists wanted instead to take matters into their own hands and in january 1985 they began attacking targets in israel. although militarily insignificant the 1st attack was a sign of things to come. that i don't know what i mean why not. that would. mark that fact he declared it had mounted the 1st operation although i don't believe it was the 1st palestinian petrol to go into a compact palestine but the significance is that fact his declaration heralded the independence of palestinian decision making that palestinians would no longer be subservient to arab government dicta which would never have approved the launching of the armed struggle. arab leaders greeted fat operations with distrust in this dane they were wary of a radical palestinian group acting on its own initiative president nasser of egypt suspected fattah was an extension of t

i have never felt i have been addicted to alcohol. when they ask you what the doctor, once or twice a week type people. i never felt addicted to anything except chocolate chip cookies and ice cream. >> let's talk about unemployment. many people left kentucky to go north, those jobs have been hollowed out so you see a lot of unemployment. describe whether it is getting better or worse and what is being done about it. >> it is getting better the past couple years because the economy has picked up a little bit, but i don't think it improves significantly over where it was 30 or 40 years ago. the number of people that the cold industry or steel industry employed in the 50s and 60s hasn't returned to the past couple years. not as bad as it was that you are seeing a really long-term economic shift in some of these areas and it is something policymakers were blind to. everybody just thought the economy would adjust and people would get good jobs and scale up into moving to different professions but what has happened is a lot of communities h

for as long as i can remember, i felt very dark, empty on the inside of my chest, even as a young kidelf when i was 12, i imagined that that is what would happen and so when... so that is the background. there wasn't one particular thing. i understand a little bit more about that, you know. there are statistics out there, non—gender conforming kids and lgbtqi youth are 70% more likely to attempt suicide. the cliche is you have to hit rock bottom before you can start to rise, and you hit rock bottom and essentially you are saved by your sister who takes you back to france when you are in a very bad place in the us. shortly afterwards, you come out, you are honest about your sexuality. was that the beginning of a journey to self—knowledge about your own perception of your gender and your sexuality which helped you? imean, yeah. the book, godspeed, ends when i'm 21 and it ends there specifically because the life as i had lived it up to that point, as you said, ends completely. it's a bit kind of miraculous and inexplicable why one day i was using every day, i'd quit swimming, i'd lost th

that's what i felt about washington too. love presidential biographies, the audible series the presidents "presidents are people too!" would require in my mind to understand what it was going on as i read micro history. i would also read three or four biographies of the same time in conversation with each other and i would emerge with some sort of understanding of the president, hopefully. that just never happened for me with washington. it needled me and i felt like it's a surprising assertion to make because you look at washington books there are quite a few one book on allison freda but i felt like i had to do something to that bookshelf it needed something. >> in the introduction you talk about how these washington biographies it's not just that there's a lot of them that but they all have a similar cast and written by a similar person. i will be honest, at the beginning is a typical washington biographer grew up going to historical sites, lived in virginia and i was like it sounds like me. [laughter] could you talk more

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i had been pretty fearful, but after that day i felt much better. felt much better. ithought, maybe fearful, but after that day i felt much better. i thought, maybe we can do this. we can make it work — we can get on a plane and go on a trip. it's going to be stressful and there's going to be meltdowns. hey, it's ok. if they melt down, how do we deal with the people around us? how do we let them know that it's really 0 k how do we let them know that it's really 0k and that we are actually 0k really 0k and that we are actually ok with meltdowns? we have to keep them calm and try and soothe them as much as possible. you worry about the people around you, that you are offending people, and you worry about being judged. look how handsome you are! just so that somebody understands — it's so helpful. and all of a sudden you don't feel so crazy. they are autistic, so they come with their own needs. since we are going to take the whole family for the first time to a special park called wonderland in san antonio, texas — it's a special—needs part, and they h

far from that stated perfection then i tried as hard as i could to give him a break on things that i felt were related to the way people thought t and i also try to think as a man was he ever cruel to people? and he treated people very well. and many of o the people were called freaks were very devoted to him and grateful to him he was a very nice to his dwife i don't think that is anything we can forgive out of a historical perspective. he came from a culture in new england that was very much all about practical jokes and playing tough jokes on people making them look silly once after he was in england for several years he came home unexpectedly and had two or three kids at the time and one of his daughters had died in the interim and he had not come back. he came back without announcing he was coming and sent somebody to tell his wife she must come to the museum to find out some information. it was clear that she would think that he had died but she came in there he was to greet her and there was a great practical joke i think the cruelty of that is self-evident. and then to think throu

i felt the i couldn't pick, funny you talk about characters, these are real people. but they are also book characters. [laughter] i felt i couldn't really pick who was going to be the main characters in this story i wanted to child until i understood what were the choices that different people make. our range of choices and forgot who might be good examples and those kinds of choices. in 2011, obviously two and a half years after the assembly plant shutdown, i knew from the beginning that i would need to go back in time and tell the story from the moment the announcement happened, but this was going to be changed. i knew i would have to find people to talk to who could go back a couple of years with me and explain what life had been like before i showed up on the scene. i also had the sense that i needed to understand the history of this commander. renÉe said, i spent a lot of time reading historical society because i wanted to understand what the industrial past of janesville had been. i wanted to understand whether pride in work that was done here came from. i want

and i felt like i could -- i felt like i could see you wrestling with the gravity of what you were asking people to confront. >> i was wrestling with the gravity and it was a difficult situation. and i remember on friday the 13th when we announced that we were going to ban mass gatherings greater than 100. and i remember that was -- felt like a enormously difficult decision because of how it would impact so many people and restrict so many activities. and, you know, on friday the 13th, i really couldn't even wrap my mind around what we then did on monday. it was a very long weekend with a lot of discussions with fellow health officers. and i think we were, you know, looking at our local data and looking at trends around the world and we were listening to our colleagues who are infectious disease modelers and it just became clear that we either acted now and created a lot of social and economic disruption, or we acted later and still created a lot of social and economic disruption but didn't get the benefit of the early action. and so it was enormously helpful to do it as a group of truste