i felt like i was feeling it. eldridge: why did you feel like you are failing him? >> because i was there. technically i could do something that physically i couldn't do what i wanted to do because those were there at the time. eldridge: explain why you thought you couldn't get involved. >> there was another police officer pushing the crowd back to make sure we were on the sidewalk and could not get close. eldridge: do you feel that officer was stopping you from getting closer? >> yes. eldridge: at some point did you see any of the officers check for a pulse on mr. floyd? >> i'm not really sure. eldridge: what did you see the other officers do? >> they were holding him down nobody moved that much. >> did you hear people around you or are bystanders asking about a pulse? >> yes. eldridge: people are asking did anything change at that point? >> no. nobody responded. eldridge: did they move the bodies off? >> knaus. eldridge: did they get up quick. >> no. eldridge: did mr. chauvin get up? >> no. eldridge: with mr. chauvin still on mr. floyd at that point? >> yes and re

that's how i felt threatened. understand why the mace was even needed at all. >> so as you were observing mr. floyd under the knee of mr. chauvin, did you ever see mr. chauvin do anything to offer care to mr. floyd? >> no. >> did he ever either let up or get up so that he could breathe? >> no. >> did you ever see him try to administer cpr? >> no. >> did you see him call anyone else to administer aid to mr. floyd? >> no. >> did he call out and ask if anybody amongst the bystanders knew cpr who might be able to help? >> not at all. >> at what point did you see -- well, let me ask this. did an ambulance at some point arrive at the scene? >> yes. >> and you saw the ambulance arrive there? >> yes. >> roughly how many minutes after you first started watching what was happening to mr. floyd did the ambulance show up? >> the end of my video. the video was about ten minutes. i would say maybe somewhere around 9:00. not sure. >> so was there any point in your video whether it's nine or ten minutes that mr. chauvin ever let u

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yeah i felt good i felt who. ended. i felt i felt like i was carrying. heavy baggage that was just ticking off me and i think that is those well they healing process begun and the reporting of gender based violence cases has been a major problem in fighting the menace the german development agency g.i. said and patents are helping to change the trained using technology. the mobile app is now available to help victims report on money mostly in a form of violence they have experienced via s.m.s. interactive voice response or voice recording the developers of the op wants people to get stalking and gain the help they need. speaking now if the fs there that you can actually seek justice speaking nap is also the 1st that way you can get help and speaking up is the only way that you can protect your family you can protect your colleague you can protect whoever is close to you from being a victim of gender based violence in the future. are many activists wants districts to do more to help victims get justice quickly this see that's would encourage more people t

that's why i felt threatened. i don't understand why the mace was even needed at all. >> so as you were observing mr. floyd under the knee of mr. chauvin, did you ever see mr. chauvin do anything to offer care to mr. knowed? >> no. to mr. floyd? >> no. >> did he ever let up or get up so that he could breathe? >> no. >> did you ever see him try to administer cpr? >> no. >> did you see him call anyone else to administer aid to mr. floyd? >> no. >> did he call out and ask if anybody amongst the bystanders knew cpr who might be able to help him? >> not at all. >> at what point did you see, while looking at this, did an ambulance at some point arrive at the scene? >> yes. >> and you saw the ambulance arrive there. >> yes. >> roughly how many minutes after you first started watching what was happening to mr. floyd did the ambulance show up? >> the end of my video, the video was about 10 minutes, i would say maybe somewhere around 9. not sure. >> so was there any point where your video in this 9 or 10 minutes that mr. cha

that's why i felt threatened. i didn't understand why the mace was needed at all. >> so as you were observing mr. floyd under the knee of mr. chauvin, did you ever see mr. chauvin do anything to offer care to mr. floyd? >> no. >> did ever either let up or get up so he could breathe? >> no. >> did you ever see him try to administer cpr? >> no. >> did he call anyone else to administer cpr to mr. floyd? >> no. >> did he call out to the bystanders anyone who might be able to administer cpr? >> not at all. >> did an ambulance arrive at some point to the scene? >> yes. >> you saw the ambulance arrive? >> yes. >> roughly how many minutes after you first started watching what was happening to mr. floyd did the ambulance show up? >> the end of my video. the video was about ten minutes. i would say maybe somewhere around nine. i'm not sure. >> was there at any point, whether it was 9 or 10 minutes, that mr. chauvin ever got up off the neck of mr. floyd that you saw? >> no. if anything he was kneeling harder. it was like he w

i felt i felt like i was carrying. heavy baggage that was just ticking off me and i think that is those well the healing process begun and the reporting of gender based violence cases has been a major problem in fighting the menace the german development agency said and patents are helping to change the trained using technology. in mobile app it's now available to help victims report on money mostly in a form of violence they have experienced via s.m.s. interactive voice response or voice recording the developers of the op wants people to get stalking and gain the help they need. speaking now is that fast there that you can actually seek justice speaking nap is also the 1st step way you can get help and speaking up is the only way that you can protect your family you can protect your colleague you can protect whoever is close to you for being a victim of gender based violence in the future. are many activists want to do more to help victims get justice quickly this see that's would encourage more people to come forward

and i felt like i was -- feeling it? >> felt like you were or you said failing. i hear you now. >> why did you feel like you were failing? >> because i was there and like technically i wouldn't do something but i kopght couldn't do physically because i wanted because highest power was there at the time.e. >> when you couldn't do physically what you wanted to do and explain why you couldn't? >> there was another police officer kind of like pushing the crowd back making sure everyone was on the sidewalk and didn't get close. >> did you feel that officer was stopping you from being tiebl get closer? >> uh-huh. yes. >> did you at some point see any of the officers check for a pulse? on mr. floyd? >> i'm not really sure. >> okay. >> what did you see other officers do? >> well, they kind of just -- kneeled>> at the same position holdings him down not really moved that much. on floyd. >> and did you hear people around you bystanders asking about a pulse? >> yes. >> and when you heard people ask about a pulse, did anything about whatt officers were doing change at that po

and i felt i literally felt the presence of god i really did. people can see him as crazy as they want to but i feel. like when i was in the dressing room cranking day he met me where i know that. he was starting. to do a work in me that was pretty phenomenal. and. i felt like he was there and i couldn't get where i was doing in front of him it was like pm in front of my dad. i got off the stage and stood by make not even halfway through the song i just could not get into it i just couldn't. you know. so many people think that because i'm a survivor that this work must get. this this word empowered this work let's. have control of the things that happen instantly and to turn around and use it instead of. make me. money. i was just a normal girl just like any other girl you would have you know the girl next door i never dreamed that anything like this that have ever happened i mean. it happened to your daughter it's your friends. or your line wasn't that. kind. of people. to come out here with the right cards the right mind and. the right intenti

i felt like i could have or should have done something more.hen i tried to go back and help, i told my group that i was taken out, i had to go back, they restrained me and i felt guilty about it. another time i felt, i held a guy until he died, when he was dying he said tell mom and dad i will be all right, and that i love them. he died and i didn't know who he was. were taken out again to the new position, 19th regiment. >> then we got chased off of that hill. back to chindu, after chindu fell is when i left there. so before chindu where did you go? >> i was loaded on the train. i was helping the wounded out of the school house onto the train. and the train left chindu, last thing i remember is fighting for my rifle with somebody who is trying to take it away from me i was and a stretcher, i believe i was in pusan. it may have been a nurse for somebody. the next thing i remember, i hear a loud, strange noise. i look around, i saw this round big hole, everything was white -- right where i was, i looked at the window and i saw this beautiful gre

but also i felt like i had to have that in their. it was about community because in the book because it was just us. we thought we were the shit. [laughter] >> in the essay nobody took a seriously we were the only ones that demanded to be an artist first. and then we read the piece. when we reread it we start to think about the importance of the utility of consent? and so i wondered how you approach the idea of the consent when writing soulfully about experiences that you shared with other people and get a fake or real names. talk about ethics and consent. that is also part and parcel but if you can locate ethics and consent like we talk about other people. >> let me boomerang that question back to you. [laughter] >> that's a scary thing for me. obviously having a book is built on consent and with my whole understanding of consent. but i'm much more comfortable because i had to talk to almost all of those people and most of them for them apart one - - for the most part but my granny is 92 she has dementia. i think what it means to ge

i felt a lot of emotions as i myth. i felt a lot of emotions as i worked _ myth.orked on this project, particularly the killings of fred hampton and bobby hutton. we wanted to convey the gravity and the brutality of what happened to them but we also don't want to be gratuitous or disrespectful, so it was a matter of finding a balance. in some ways, working on this book was very, very heartbreaking for me. and because i was seeing all of these parallels to what happened 50, 60 years ago, to what has happened today. literally the day after i wrote the initial afterword for this book was when george floyd was killed. i remember watching the city start erupting in protests and violence, thinking to myself nothing has changed. the black panthers aren't _ nothing has changed. the black panthers aren't taught - nothing has changed. the black panthers aren't taught in - panthers aren't taught in schools due to the fact we are coming in and meeting the readers of various points of knowledge. readers of various points of knowledue. ., knowledge. this book had to be about th

>> yes. >> i think we said that earlier, too, why was that important for you. >> at that time i felt all i could do was catch what was going on with the camera and i just wanted to make sure i got everyone there moving around a lot. >> did you feel it was born to document what was going on? >> yes. >> how does watching all of this in the moment feel for you? >> it feels really, a lot to take in. i walked away at first because it was a lot to watch but i knew it was wrong and i couldn't just walk away even though i couldn't do anything about it. >> since that time, since you saw this happened last year, what impact hasn't had on you as a person? >> well i felt numb about it, i just kept to myself tried to go on with my day and remember what i came there for. >> after the fact, after you had some time to process that day, what did you feel? >> i felt, i just pushed it aside because i didn't know how to feel, it was a lot to take in. >> did you go back to cup foods after that? >> i still have not been there. >> why is that? >> i don't want to be reminded. >> mr. nelson. >> a few question

>> that's what i felt like i did, correct.

i felt i could have or should have done something more. when i tried to go back and help, i was told by my group i was taken out, what to do, and i had to go back, and they restrained me, and i felt guilty about it. then another time i felt that i -- when i held a guy until he died, when he was dying he said tell mom and dad i'll be all right, that i love them, and he died, and i didn't know who he was. i didn't go back to see him. >> where did you go from -- >> i want from haydong to chinju and we were taken out again to the southwest to a new position by captain barsits. then we were chased off the hill and back through chinju, and after the chinju fell is when i left there. >> so from chinju, where did you go? >> i got on the train. i was loaded on the train. i was helping wounded out of a schoolhouse on to the train, and the train left chinju. and the last thing i remember is fighting for my rifle with somebody that was trying to take it away from me and i was lying on the stretcher. i believe was in puson. and i might have been a nurs

i felt i had to act. >> alfonsi: dr. seftel's decision to use a prescription drug off-label is an accepted medical practice, with patient consent. the most common side effect of fluvoxamine is slight nausea. how many of them ended up taking the fluvoxamine, and what was the outcome? >> seftel: 65 patients elected to take fluvoxamine. 48 declined. 12.5% of all those who refused fluvoxamine ended up hospitalized and one died. in the group that did take fluvoxamine, none of them were hospitalized. >> alfonsi: once again, none of the covid patients taking fluvoxamine deteriorated. >> seftel: since you started the fluvoxamine last week, how have you felt? >> good. >> alfonsi: could it have been a fluke? >> seftel: i don't believe so. you cannot influence a virus that is as wily and as wicked as covid with a fluke. >> alfonsi: but to be trusted by the wider medical community, fluvoxamine needed a larger trial. so, steve kirsch's fund put a half-million dollars behind a new trial led by dr. eric lenze. paper bag deliveries have

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>> i just felt like that was the right thing to do. i didn't know what else to do. i didn't know what to do. >> i'm sorry, i cut you off. and the response then was to transfer you to a sergeant, correct? >> that's correct. >> and then at some point the call, it sounds like you're talking to officer tao? were you talking to officer tao at that point? >> that's correct. i was. i think at the moment -- i think at the moment that i was making a call. he preeded to intimidate me and stick his camera in my face, body cam. and -- >> okay. and the call sort of ends abruptly. did you hang up? did you terminate the call? >> not 100% sure. i may have. i felt threatened once the interaction happened in front of the store with me and the officer. >> and then from there after hanging up, did you stick around for a while and talk to some other people there? >> yeah. i wanted to do my own investigation. >> your honor, i have no further questions. >> good morning, sir. >> good morning. >> can i ask what you're looking at? >> just notes, that's all. >> i'm going to ask that you put t

that's why i felt threatened. i don't understand why the knee, even needed it at all. >> keith, between that testimony and was david henderson was just referring to with the younger girl, 9-year-old's testimony about noting that the ambulance people had to -- first they asked nicely and it took them to having to physically remove mr. chauvin off george floyd in order for them to get there, it's a very -- i know had it a raw impact on me. just describe the impact that testimony just had on you. >> i mean, the impact on me was incredible. i'm sitting there watching it live with everybody else. but i think it was also a brilliant way for attorney -- for the prosecution to actually combat this narrative of the angry black witness on the stand who was the angry black resident on the scene when he was filming it as well as some of the other ones as well, which raises questions about the picture that the defense wants to paint about the angry black community that was responding to everything that was going on out there. s

and i felt, i felt a kinship with these women, and i felt like they had rah really opened doors for me on a generational level. and i wondered why, why that the had never really been credited. so the book explains in a lot of ways why that is. in an attempt to place them where they belong in history. so i'm going to do a little bit of reading, a very short reading from the book. this is from chapter one in which readers will meet a woman named lynn. lynn is finishing up her last are year at cuny, she's going to graduate with a science degree, but she's really not loving it. not because she doesn't find the work interesting. she finds the work very compelling, but being in labs is not thrilling to her. she's more of an extra accelerate than that. -- extra accelerate than that. and she's intimidated by the men in the lab. she doesn't really love being the only woman or one of two women in the science labs. so she also starts to learn about the vietnam war. a boyfriend of hers at the time, and starts to get a little more politically engaged. her last year of college she goes to rome, and

i could work through her issueissues. >> reporter: so you felt you were saving her? cky to have her had the night i had the stroke. when i stood up, i fell straight down. >> reporter: brian lives alone. >> and my cell phone was over there. >> reporter: so sadie was his only hope. >> i grabbed her collar and she pulled me out of this space here. >> reporter: pulled him all the way across the room to his phone. >> as far as i know, she has never been trained as a service dog or anything. >> reporter: how do you explain it? >> i can't. >> reporter: meghan thinks she can. she said rescue dogs are often incredibly loyal. >> you have a dog who has lost something, all the dogs have lost a family, a person, or they nver had that. when they make that connection, you are their world. >> reporter: brian said sadie does the constantly track him and she was at her post when he needed her most. >> reporter: he was rushed to the hospital and spent a couple of weeks in the treatment and rehab. and just before his release, he got a visitor. a very grateful visitor. >> she just immedia

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and i wish i felt like we were closer to getting to that. but as you said, like, we're still trying to get a remedial -- [laughter] understanding of where we're at in this country. but i love that idea of kind of assessing and looking at voices that are different. i mean, that's pretty much what i've done my whole careerment -- career. i think we need to spend more time with that, and i don't have a quick answer to it. >> all right. let's go to questions from the audience. thank you guys so much for asking questions, we appreciate that. i'll summarize this first one. have you seen the development of nontoxic trends? translation is optional. [laughter] does it ever work? does it ever work and how? >> ooh, that's a tough question because this is why i -- >> [inaudible] >> pardon? >> what does working mean. >> right, what does working mean, and this is why i also sort of don't identify with the transracial community. not that i don't have tons of respect, but i just, i don't know if it works. and i don't know, and i don't feel like i can tell pe

betrayed because i had felt sorry for her. e and that i was betrayed and deceived. it -- it was terrible. >> reporter: no doubt. she did say what she said on those tapes with the confidential informant, matt walters. >> like, if it was me, i -- would've gone back and cut her -- fingers off. i would've burned 'em. i would've lit the house on fire. >> reporter: what did you think when you heard that, knowing there was a 2-year-old child in the house at the time? >> i thought, "well, those are -- those are strong words. that's a lot of hate.” >> reporter: but was it? or was it something else altogether? a few days before that scene in court -- >> reporter: hello? >> hello? >> reporter: yes, hi. >> this is cynthia wilder. >> reporter: we interviewed cyndi by phone from the ward county jail in minot. how would she -- how could she explain all those terrible things she said to matt, on tape? her answer was also her legal defense. >> i mean, i'm lonely, and i was trying to see if there could be any sort of relationship. and i was kind

i felt i felt like i was carrying. heavy baggage that was just taking off. and i think that is those well they healing process begun and the reporting of gender based violence cases has been a major problem in fighting the menace the german development agency g.i. said pratinas are helping to change the trained using technology. in mobile app it's now available to help victims report on money mostly in a form of violence they have experienced via s.m.s. interactive voice response or voice recording developers of the op wants people to get stalk in and to gain the help they need. speaking now is the fs there that you can actually seek justice speaking nap is also the 1st that way you can get help and speaking up is the only way that you can protect your family you can protect your colleague you can protect whoever is close to you from being a victim of gender based violence in the future. are many activists wants districts to do more to help victims get justice quickly this see that's would encourage more people to come forward and some of the stories. in ter

and though i felt i had horribly embarrassed myself. i had to agree. selena then handed me the parking validation stickers and said i was gonna wait to call you tomorrow and leave you hanging and suspense for at least a while. but i already know we want you to work here. so can you start interning with us on monday? yes i could so i held it all together until i was outside the building i didn't know whether to shout for joy cry or dropped my knees in prayers of thanksgiving i was so overwhelmed by all that it just happened i started laughing out loud the preposterousness of it all me him this office fox plaza avenue of the stars we had met he had shook my hand and now i work for him i didn't have any idea what monday would hold but i knew with confidence it would never be the same after that day and in fact it had already changed so that's how my story begins and i consider myself to be one of the luckiest women in the world because i did have a front row seat to history. i got to see this man up close behind the scenes when he thought that nobody was