. >> rose: but i done mean it in the sort of self-help. >> i know exactly. i know. well, i don't know. i mean we did-- well, all i can say is that if i hadn't been married to michael he would have been my breast friend. you know, and that's important to like the person, very much. i think. >> rose: . >> and to have a natural, you know, both of you have a sense of humor, same kind of sense of humor. i think that's important too. that's vitally important. but-- . >> rose: you have channeled that experience and people said good acting is channeling your own experience. >> well, i am sure everything that happens to you, all of the experience you have had goes into everything you play. because you have to either have observed it in somebody else or read about it or yourself. so you know, it's a huge eye and huge ear because you have to-- if you play, if you play lady macbeth you have to, you know, it is an observation thing. you don't go out and do somebody in and then think, i'm saying something, you know, it's an amalgam of all, it's a receive of all the things y

had i was eighteen years old. i didn't know why i i just didn't know why and it was you know your few years later when i started to hear about agent orange. and you know i knew that her dad had been in vietnam and that's when i started to do a little research into that and think you know because i used to think did i take any medicine while i was pregnant with her i didn't i didn't take even aspirin i was sick the whole time i was pregnant with her. i was raised on the merrimack river in st louis that when there's not a healthier place in the world to be you know i was out in the country as healthy my husband you know he was and i i had no idea oh you know what caused it. but then i started to you know hear more about agent orange and i contacted the i think you know was probably five then and i contacted the disease control center in atlanta and i told them my story and they sent me a packet of research papers that they had that they. had been doing on laboratory animals and i remember one thing i haven't looked at those for years b

i was doing. and now i can be a mom. i can be a mom to my kids. i can be a good daughter. i can do the things i want to do. you know? i can go to school. we got to go. >> i love you.

you know what i mean? ♪ id you're feeling down ♪ ♪ it's probably cuz i ain't around for you ♪ >> i doubt i could sing. i can't hold a note -- yeah, i can't hold a note. ♪ i know you probably need me now ♪ ♪ it's really not much i can do ♪ >> i mean it's another way of going up and over to show her that you love her. you know. ♪ at the present i'm dealing with my past ♪ ♪ hopefully there's a future that can last between us ♪ >> anybody can say it. you can say i love you, i love you, i love you. but to show it -- ♪ i love you >> to the best of your ability in jail, that's the best way to go. ♪ i need you >> at the end of the day, that's all i got. that's really all i got, her and my mother. so emily, i love you. ♪ can't take my love away ♪ baby i'm yours i'm yours ♪ i'm yours i'm yours ♪ i'm yours >> i love you, baby girl. i love you. she says she didn't expect that one. she wasn't ready for that one. i told you, you did it, baby. i love you. >>> coming up, melanie reddy is back in jail. and robert sutton gets t

, i know that. ihow my life's going to go. >> it's an opportunity for you and i hope you will really try at it. it's kind of like going to school and you don't like school. i know. >> after 40 minutes, the video monitor turns off. so katie and her mother must say their good-byes. >> so do you want to come back? should i put dad down? >> put dad down every time you put me down. and i'll keep trying. it's hard for him. he gets really emotional. >> i know. >> he loves you. he just can't -- just can't come. let's try again for next monday at 1:00? >> okay. i can do that. well, thanks for coming. >> i love you. >> i love you, too. >> i'll see you again. bye, sweetie. >> bye. >> hang in there. >> i wish i could be like, yeah, mom, i'll totally go to this rehab and i'll totally do it and i'll get out and i'll be clean and sober forever. but i just -- i can't say that. >>> coming up, the jail deputizes its newest team member. >> this is a great dog, very loving. she took to me right away. free. good. >>> and

i don't know, i can't tell you how many, because i don't know. ll you i've been with enough men that -- i hate to think that i did it, you know. >> so let's think about that, tammy. here's a chance, where were you a prostitute? why don't you talk about the area you worked as a prostitute, and from what years. so if somebody is watching this and they recognize you, maybe they could get themselves tested, right? >> well, but that doesn't mean that they probably got it from me because there's probably, i would not be the only one that they've been with. so they can't determine. there's no fact that my blood was in your blood, you got it from me, i got it from you. or whatever, what not. because you know what, i could have tried to find out who i got it from. it wouldn't work that way. and vice versa. i've been with so many men, he's been with so many women. he don't know if he got it from me or he got it from the next one. >> dietz later told us that most of her prostitution activity after contracting hiv occurred between 1998 and 2001 in knoxville,

i don't remember. i don't know, miss. >> i am, i don't remember. i think... i know i wasn't here yesterday. i came wednesday. i wasn't here on monday. i was here tuesday and wednesday. and today. >> pretty much, i need to know where you've been. i haven't seen you since we had the big talk about you need to really think about how to get here, be here. is this funny? >> why does your head hurt? this is the first day i've been close to you and you smell like you've been smoking. or like someone around you has been smoking. >> probably, i don't know, i haven't been smoking though. >> has somebody around you been smoking today? >> i don't know. i've been at school all day. >> i've never smelled any smoke on you before ever during class. but when i was over here working with you, i was like, it smells kind of like weed. and i'm not trying to insult you, i'm just saying i haven't seen you, and then you're saying i don't feel well, and you're late to class. i'm like, what is going on? >> nah, it ain't no smoke. >> okay. >> the fact that she smells very strongly of marijuana, i'm going to follow up

i hope i do the right thing. i hope i do. but i don't know. really, really don't know. >>> coming up -- >> my first impression of lawrence stall was that he doesn't fit. >> i didn't even hunt. i didn't kill nothing. i was john denver all the way. >> an inmate attempts to deal with a murderous past. >>> i'm veronica de la cruz. here is what's happening. mitt romney continues his campaign swing in florida. he will be in port st. lucie saturday. the obama campaign and democratic party raised a combined $181 million in september. the romney campaign and republicans have not reported their september numbers. >>> and gas prices hit a record in california, $4.61 a gallon. prices rose 12 cents in one day. i'm veronica de la cruz. now back to "lockup." >>> due to mature subject matter, viewer discretion is advised. >>> most of the old-timers we've interviewed in prison have learned how to deal with the consequences of their past. they've come up with distractions to really take their mind off of their crimes. but sometimes our very presence in a prison

her write you know i don't know what. i love. going to. die and. i don't really i don't. think that i do you know how to get you where you can't go i think that i don't get what you. feel like the daughter is twenty seven and the son is twenty five. he was hashi's in great pain when she has her period. back bad night sometimes the pain is so bad she can't eat three days and i'm only nigella how modern day her brother cannot see and needs to be fed. maybe. you can have reality their daily life i entered the military in one nine hundred seventy three and was stationed and done. on that i'm not. going on i was building roads to get to you know when you ask him what he thought it was the problems with children where did you first understand that there were any. when i came home from the war and the children were born i was shocked to get it i never imagined it was because of agent orange. that took us we thought an ancestor might have had a serious disease but again you go you know we checked the family histories and found nothing. good night oh good. i thought well a lot of y

i was worried about and i had sent it to my editor and she called. i'm telling you the gossip stuff now. i think in a way that's more interesting. i was very nervous because i didn't know how she would receive this book. she called and said to me, well, it's very different. [laughter] and then nobody said anything. i didn't say anything and she didn't i didn't know what to say different good or bad so just with quiet. she said, i think this about part of -- she talked to me about story lines. i realized wow, they are going to publish it. and we talked about it as we would talk about a man script that would be accepted. i'm thinking, i can't believe they are going to accept this book. it was a crazy writing experience because of all the books i had written half the book. i had half the book to write before it was due in terms of a contract. we sign a contract and they put a due date on it that was the only book i felt i had to get in on time. since then i have not done it since. i tell everybody -- in my second book i thought you had to get the book right when they say you need. you should, i shouldn't say to you aspiring writers out there. i had a month and a half to w

connect it his exposure to agent orange he would always say i didn't realize i was taking my children or he said floored me if i didn't know he said if i had known what would happen to you. i would have dodged the draft. and for my father to say that that was huge and to hear that come out of his mouth was shocking to me it was shocking but it just spoke to the guilt that he carried from the moment my father went into the draft our life always centered around vietnam always of course there's been times fits and i would call in fits and spurts in my life believe it that i would become so impassioned over power and i have to do something about this agent orange stuff and it's just still there and it's the unfair and i can't believe this one of the last times i found sharon perry on facebook believe it or not it was i had googled or something children of aging or injured children american veterans soldiers children you know and those kinds of things and legacy was there and i was. i cried you know i just cried we laid there's other people because when you fight this first so long and our country is so large that you feel isol

i was. i cried. you know i just cried and we only there's other people because when you fight this first so long and our country is so large that you feel isolated. when my husband died everything that i based my life on my beliefs my value system it was turned on its head he always told me from the time that i'm met him that you know we were going to get married that he he was going to die long before me and he died at fifty six it is it is my understanding that his death is attributed to exposure to agent orange because he did serve in country on the brown water navy on the rivers and he had yes he had diabetes and perform a rocky other of secondary illnesses. got started with agent orange legacy. after my husband passed away of course what the american people need to know that's that's who needs to know is that the families of vietnam veterans are on the brink . they are there they are devastated with the circumstances though they face today that they've been living with for years with untreated post-traumat

i get a lot wrong. i cringe when i pronounce a japanese word because i know i'm not say itting correctly. i can get away with it. here i don't know, it's harder to get away with it in the bay area because we are such a melting pot. and so many people who know japanese where i don't. what i discovered i think on the whole, for all cultures both cultures and the writing process itself is the more i write about different cultures the more i realize how much alike we are. and if you take anything away take that. take the fact that all humanity is the same. you know the -- culturesar a background for me it makes you who you are. if you are japanese you bow. if you are chinese you don't. there are certain things that are specific to each culture. but if you are writing characters there are specific things that are everybody. and that's more important to me in that sense. you have the culture's background but if you can understand why a person who lives in that culture feels the way they do or does what they do i think that's the most important thing. does that answer your question? >> yeah. >> t

know what i mean? stop. you know what i mean? >> josh pike was a firehose on full open throttle that was uncontrollable. was whipping around and you just -- you couldn't contain the stream that was josh pike. >> i have to say the dinners have gotten better. i don't know what they did. i guess they have a new nutritionist or something like that that's coming through here and shaking things up. the dinners are a little bit better. i mean, they're edible. >> josh pike is great for tv. huge personality. however, i didn't quite realize he was going to be such a difficult interview subject. >> what's going on with you? you're getting a little approaching over there, huh? what's going on? i see you out of my peripheral, i'm on you like that. i know what's going on, pal. 50, 50 bucks. 50 bucks. 50 bucks. we're bidding your watch off. is that me? what the [ bleep ] is on my face? that's going to get edited. >> pike was at maricopa fighting a variety of methamphetamine-related charges. including burglary. >> i can't believe people tune into

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how do i know? i don't really -- in america these days i don't know. i think women in general are different. in general. >> rose: women are different period. not a question of nationality, just a question of -- >> i can't say. i didn't study. >> rose: you don't to study, you know. there's no academic answer to this. >> i do think in general. in general. women don't choose -- the best in the world is -- the stronger one and they don't use it. >> rose: have you used it? >> you want to know my secret? >> rose: yes. >> no, i don't know. i think -- i don't know. i don't know. i suppose so. but the femininity is the best weapon we have. we're stronger than a man with femininity and they don't want to use their femininity, they want to be like men. that's what i don't understand. i don't talk of work and to be paid, a problem. of course. >> rose: you're talking about difference. >> but the femininity is a very important thing and very strong i remember we used to say in the history and things like men, very powerful men and we always discover them behind there

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i. i i. i. i. i i. i i i i. i i i. i. know. how to maintain the current. masters grammys i'm making a story about you may take your picture and wait a. minute i'm with yours. start that again and again you know. we've been invited on so many tours that i have to start refusing saddam and i get tired very quickly but i'm young at heart straight you come back to your place. my children have already retired rather than my oldest daughter's been retired for two years now my son used to be a police officer he's retired now too. my youngest daughter is retiring this year i really am getting old. when a. oh i've got plenty to do so i'm never bored and i have to take care of the vegetable garden feed the geese and the calf of milking a cow there's plenty of work. over all this means you can find me in the vegetable garden or and the hole where we were there when i look at the big. potatoes grown apart from imo hey there all the way up to that fans in here let's move on ok with the major's a good case yeah yeah. that's the best. like here it is my mother's side i cr

i had grownup in the chinese culture i wanted to write about china. i wanted to find out more about myself because of i was raised in the bay area and because i didn't know culturally a lot of things i wanted to know. i knew i wasn't going to write about myself and knew that i was not going to write about my family. but i wanted to write about an aspect about china and women. those were the 2 things i knew when i began the first book. i was fortunate enough to it stumble upon the silk working women which gave me everything i wanted. it gave me the culture. it gave me a sense of what it meant to be a female chinese women in that time and a sens