that's a lot of time when i cut myself. i get mad and angry and want to hurt something, i'll turn on myself. >> but some inmates act on anger by lashing out on others. >> inside, inside, close the door. >> an assault has just occurred inside "f" dorm. the victims are isp staff members robert taylo -- >> [ bleep ]. >> -- and james cadwell. >> a man was getting moved out to get fired from his job, was getting moved out. somebody blamed him for that. we were getting ready to leave and he jumped him. i tried breaking it up and got hit, too. >> you okay, jimmy? >> yeah, i'm fine. >> nitro? >> i put one under his tongue already and he's got them in his right pocket if you need more. >> taylo is 68 years old and has a history of heart problems. >> mr. taylo, we'd like to bring you back to the hospital building, okay? >> whatever. >> one, two, three. hold on to him. hold on. look at me, look at me. i want you to keep looking at me. don't look at the floor. >> today we had an offender that was told he has to move out of his cell hous

because i think-- i fancied myself a "survivor" expert. i kind of come in and the react iraqis is who is this joke and we had high hopes for him. i feel like i disappointed a lot of people, including myself. i didn't really play the game like some strategic mastermind like i thought i would. having negative reactions whether online or tribemates eye love everybody now by the way. it's water under the bridge. it was difficult because i like to be liked. that's the perverted thing. at the time time i'm thinking i'm playing the greatest social game of all time. everybody adores me. and then i see sophie envisioning my head on a branch chopping with a machete saying i'm the most annoying freak in the universe. so it was -- >> how did this game change you? >> i mean tchanged me probably in more ways than i'm aware of but one i'm very aware of, obviously i'm a socially anxious guy. seven months ago, going to a bar or party i get nervous. i freak out, on the verge of a panic attack. but now i put myself through the most socially uncomfortable, psy

ruppersberger: i you i yield myself such time as i may consume. -- i yield myself such time as i may consume. the speaker pro tempore: the gentleman is recognized. mr. ruppersberger: i think we really need to discuss the issue of cybersecurity. cyberthreat is the one thing i think that keeps a lot of us on the intelligence committee up at night. how serious a threat it is to our country. we are being attacked on a regular basis. and we as a country need to do what we have to do to go forward and deal with the issue of cyber. cyberposes one of the greatest threats to americans for both an economic and national security perspective. we are losing millions of dollars because of cyberattacks. our intellectual property is being stolen daily just as we speak. our pentagon is being attacked as we speak. we have seen countless examples of cutting-edge u.s. ideas being stolen and used for foreign products. cyber is also a major national security concern. we only have to look at the attack on south korea banking system to realize the impact an attack can have on critical infrastructure. in sou

i have forgotten myself. who i was, i cannot now know who i have become is a stranger i have forgotten myself there are other things to lose in battle eyes and guts, other sacrifices before life. vilost myself. i am not who i was before this war, i am not she who no longer dares to be my mother is so happy with this worn body returned home. we pretend that i am as whole as i look. but at night when i stair through the dark at the hidden image in the mirror i cannot lie to the stranger i see. i have forgotten everything. except my affection for children, my service to country and my insatiable fear. [applause] >> sizing up the cost of war. >> what is left but the shoes. shoes scuffed and torn, no longer having feet to carry them, shoes empty now. work boots bearing mud from the last field he had plowed with his father. empty now. red sneakers with white stripes brought back fwr america by her oldest son given to her youngest, both of them immediately rung outside kicking the soccer ball back and forth the older

i myself would like to see such building. i do not want to see our 49ers go away. we have a lot of support from diana feinstein, senator of the united states. she wants to keep them here. we would have to approach the subject matter from demographics, getting in, getting out, increasing the access. the closest analogy i can give to you increasing the roadway has to do with when you wait to go on the golden gate bay bridge. you go around and around. this particular roadway would go around and around and whichever way you want to go, you go. thank you very much. commissioner buell: thank you. >> bruce stone. >> i am president of the san francisco marina harbor association. i just want to let you know we are pleased with the progress on the harbor. it is a great project and moving ahead. there is one area i was asked to speak to you about. our last annual meeting was in november. there is an unfunded portion of the harbour east of golden gate yacht club that has attracted a lot of interest, especially among small vote owners. there is an area permitted for 36 slips, a

i had to satisfy myself that i was better. you can't prove you are better in one night. it is something that comes as you go through life. i knew that i was better, i was able to have the confidence to get back out here. i remember that the first time, why did you go? you sound the same. but you have to know yourself, what your experiences are. never mind what people say, if you know what you want and you know who you are, if you know who the man in the mirror is, that is what it is about. tavis: i will take that, especially right about now. i will take that from sonny rollins. you mentioned your friend of few minutes ago. if there were ever a classic piece at 21 or 22 apiece, it is the bomb-diggity. in the moment, because jazz is so fluid, you are putting down a piece like coleman, it is going 21 minutes, i know i can't have it your body and your brain, i wish i could. what is happening that makes the piece run and run and when it is done -- >> there used to be great lionel hampton. you know him? tavis: absolutely. >> lionel hampton, when he was in his 80's, he had to b

i consider myself one of the luckiest people in the world. ber a day i want to be a rapper and i'm doing my thing. i fwet a call from quincy jones. he wants me to rap on my album. remember that? that's why -- so that's why for me it's key that i remain humble. because all this right now is luck. i mean, i remember timing where, you know, if i would have went this way, i wouldn't be here. if i would have went that way, i wouldn't be here. i'm grateful to have friends. i'm grateful that, you know, conan has me on the show. i'm grateful to be sitting next to tyra. you know, i'm grateful that you invited me to this dinner. i thank you very much. i'm just a kid that's from northern new jersey who followed his dreams, stayed out of trouble and i'm here. >> quincy? >> i'm grateful that i'm a motherless -- going to go from infancy to alzheimer's. i don't ever want to be grown up. seven of the most beautiful kids. six daughters, one son. grand kids and the best friends in the world. i work with every major artist in the world in the last 60 years. ever

and i say to myself, it's not obscure or clear. the cypress is in pieces. there is only this. the cypress is in pieces. . >> a poem i wrote shortly after 9-11. the terrorists for rachel cory and all those who were idealists and who actually believed that they could make an effect and social change. the terrorists who lives amongst us is not you, the terrorist who lurks in the shadows of our crowded city streets isn't me. he's not a demon with bulging eyes, a twisted mouth full of dirt, a crooked mouth, fangs driping blood. it's not the savage guner waiting for our school on their way to school. no, this heinous replica of satan doesn't look like a jew. dopt make a habit of supplying the motives of sin with colors of skin because it's skin deep. a student with dreams of statehood or a teenage girl driven by desperation and fear or a dentist or an apprentice of a dead soldier, who crouches in the wounds of the dead and the dying, who hurls stones at tanks and encroaching soldiers, who stands unmoved before a roiling tank, who stares with barbed eyes. the enemy is never one who ki

i blame myself for not being there for her. ow, because that's to me know what's going on, and to make it right. and i didn't. >> up next, raleigh learns the ugly truth about life in the life. >> it's a career that's like the pits of hell. >>> msnbc now. i'm richard lui. spending time with their grandfather philip following his heart procedure. queen elizabeth's husband had surgery to clear a blocked artery. >>> texas police are investigating the shooting deaths of seven people at a dallas-area apartment complex. authorities believe the shooter is among the four women and three men killed on christmas morning. we'll have more news for you later. now back to "msnbc undercover." >>> take a ride on any prostitution track in any big city in america and you'll see waves of young women trading their bodies for quick cash. but what you don't see is the pain and despair burning inside many of these girls who are often coping with the fallout from child sexual abuse. >> i was sexually abused four times by the time i was 10. >> like many

i spent a lot of time learning. about you waiting my mild person and you know myself and how i wanted myself. i guess you can go back to a letter that i've written to monica when we were in the area of iraq that was supposed to be you were guarding the. cradle of civilization where many times again . i had to ask myself. why am i carrying around in sixteen adored. army. and nothing honorable and killing i went to the war zone and i started seeing how i need to change and the only way to do there is the not a rival and kill another person that's why we're primed for confidence and better. sergeant bindra men was to essentially be on an airplane and fly to iraq with his unit but these offenses go to the essence of what it is to serve in the military you cannot have discipline if you have people that are disobeying orders. and sark haven't been has been charged and i level court martial that is the most serious time the maximum penalty that he faces right now is five years confinement and a dishonorable discharge. with regards to united states versus interment at this time the charges before the

scott: i yield myself such time as i may consume. the speaker pro tempore: the gentleman is recognized. mr. scott: we can cover the international drug conspiracies with a reasonably drawn bill. unfortunately, this bill not only covers the international drug conspiracies but also as the gentleman from tennessee has pointed out, those who are ensnared by doing things that are legal where they occur but if you agree to do it in the united states it's all of a sudden a drug conspiracy that will subject you to all kinds of mandatory minimums. i would hope that we would defeat this bill, start from scratch and draw a bill that covers what ought to be covered and leaves out what ought not be covered. agreeing to go to canada or go to amsterdam to do something which is legal would not be a criminal conspiracy in the united states. . i hope we defeat the bill and yield back. the speaker pro tempore: the gentleman from texas is recognized. mr. smith: let me try to address the concerns of two of my colleagues on the judiciary committee, and i w

myself. by what i guess you can go back to a letter that i had written demonic when we were in the area of iraq that was the post to be where the garden of the. pride of civilization is where mankind began. i had to ask myself. why am i carrying around in sixty the gordon. there's nothing honorable in killing i went to the war zone and i started seeing how i need to change and the way to do that is not pick up a rifle and kill another person that's why i'm applying for jobs in subject or. the. sergeant bindra min was to essentially be on an airplane and fly to iraq with his unit and these offenses go to the essence of what it is to serve in the military you cannot have discipline if you have people that are disobeying orders. you know sark haven't been or been has been charged and the level of court martial that is the most serious time the maximum penalty that he faces right now is five years confinement and a dishonorable discharge. with regards to united states versus bindman at this time the charge

. >> a few of my military career i prided myself on not being of what i saw. the worst thing you can do is but a senior leader had on the road in the back of your mind you're thinking, you know, maybe we ought to take another look at this. maybe we ought to look at it from this perspective. we have an obligation and a duty to be good steward of the resources that the public trust us with. sometimes you have to be courageous were everybody's head is going up and down, you are going -- i think i have a different perspective. >> marcia anderson on being the highest esteem of ranking member of the u.s. army. sunday at 8:00 p.m. >> which part of the u.s. constitution is important to you? that is our question in this year's studentcam competition. tell us the part of the constitution that is important to you and why. be sure to include more than one point of view and video of c- span programming. and trees are due by january 20, 2012. there is a grand prize of $5,000. >> educators, politicians were honored last week at the 2011 top americans leaders award. the award

i yield myself such time as i may consume. the speaker pro tempore: the gentleman is recognized. mr. pitts: mr. speaker, h.r. 2405, introduced by my colleague, mike rogers from michigan, would re-authorize certain provisions of the project bioshield act of 2004 and the pandemic and all-hazards preparedness act of 2006. these two laws help protect the united states against attacks from chemical, biological, radiological and nuclear weapons. project bioshield authorizes -- authorize funds for the purpose of medical countermeasures to the special reserve fund and enables the secretary of health and human services to authorize the emergency use of medical product. pahpa created the biodefense advanced research and development authority within h.h.s. to help with the development of medical countermeasures and ensure communications between h.h.s. and the developers of the medical countermeasures. it created a position at h.h.s. to lead the government's efforts on the chemical, biological, radiological and nuclear weapons preparednes

not that i myself was evil, but that i allowed myself to be drawn towards evil things. >> while robbing, fry stabbed his first two victims, then slit their throats. >> when you walk in that path of darkness, you can't help but walk hand in hand with evil. whether you believe it to be evil or not, i never considered myself a violent person. >> in 1998, fry savagely beat a man to death with a shovel. >> i came from a very good family, but i got involved with alcohol and drugs at a very early age. i was looking for something in my life to fill a hole, in my heart and my soul, and i tried everything i could think of to put it there, and then anger and frustration lashed out, and then i lashed out at the world. >> his last victim was a mother of five. she was found nude, having been stabbed and bludgeoned to death with a sledgehammer. it was for this murder that fry received the death penalty. >> you know you hear a lot of people who come to prison and oh, i found god. well, i did. >> where are they taking you, man? >> bible study. >> fry leads a weekly bible study class with fellow inmates.

i need to see for myself. i have to come here so i can see him to make sure he's okay.myself to sleep a lot just thinking about it because he's still my baby. hey, baby. >> how you doing? what's up, man? what's up with y'all? >> how are you doing? >> i'm fine. >> okay. >> white boy specifically said tell mamma meech i said what's up. >> what's up, dog? how are you feeling? >> chilling, man, chilling. >> you looking good. look fit and strong. >> stand up. let me look at you. stand up, turn around. let me see. you all right? okay. >> burks has not seen his mother since he assaulted officer manuel. but he told her about the incident over the phone. >> when will you be able to sign up for school again? >> probably after all this is said and done and whatnot. >> after this is settled? okay. you know we want you to get back in your classes and make sure you concentrate on that. >> you just have to keep your head on. keep your head on. you'll be all right. >> yeah. >> i want him to stay positive, stay focused, go to school, learn all you can, get all the education you can get

and i don't and really don't know why i asked myself so because i had no one with me and the parents meeting at my school. she would like they all died that i would and. i would be. i really know very well in my own eyes that you would like and i remarried. sunday was. his sister was nine his elder brother i mean he was only thirteen and these were the only people left alive in a family of. my family old runaways i was told later two of them died in hospital. my mother and father were. the bodies of three sisters by. the other two hundred. they lost their parents. and three sisters and two brothers calling one night. my bad and. my family members die because of this factory. and his sister when children's village. but it is a gold mine because it was a thousand eight hundred people at what according to the people who were carrying out bodies from the g.g. from the houses around seven thousand to ten thousand people have died in the next seventy two hours and. twenty five thousand people have died. i remember my but that will be a month and organize it and. then automatically i myself

the first thing i asked myself is there a version of this disease for older people. does it start later in a person's life? as i'm researching i discover warner's syndrome and that's how it came to be that particular disease in the book. i thought this works because she would have a life before the disease started to age her in the 20's as opposed to being very young. more i researched the more i realized that a large population of japanese people seemed to have this genetic defect. it brought me back to the japanese culture even though i was not looking for it. what happened was if she was half japanese. here again you will hear the writing process. as i'm thinking about this and thinking about story line and her parents. if her mother is italian and her father is japanese which would make her half and half the genetic defect would come to the father then things would have to happen if they grew up in california. he grew up in pasadena which means he would be inturned. things start to happen without you looking at it from the beginning when writing a story but as you

. >> so that -- much older -- i'm so old and, you know, i don't care about making a fool of myself but if i feel something is wonderful and the chemistry is right between people and we want to be a band, i don't mind making a fool of myself. i was never uncomfortable with this group. why? because they're such fabulous, first of all, human being, and then second of all, great musicians. edgar i've known for over 20 years and edgar's known chris and stewart for over 20 years, so it's an immediate friendship. your friend is my friend and how it goes. and we're never going to put each other at risk to make them look bad or whatever so there's that sizing up and saying, ok, this is what he can do, this is what we can do together and that's how it comes out. tavis: you've lived long enough, you say, yo-yo, to not be afraid to try things and take risks. at this point in your life, you have nobody to fear in your field and quite frankly you have nothing left to prove in your field so i get the fact that you're ok taking risks. what i don't get is the flipside which is that there are people who

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and i spend a lot of time learning and reevaluating my mild person and of myself and how i warned that myself. by why i guess you can go back to a letter that i had written to monaco when we were in the area of iraq that was supposed to be where the garden of the you know the appraisal of civilization and where man time began. i had to ask myself. why am i carrying around in six feet in the garden. are you saying. you know. there's nothing honorable in killing i went to the war zone and i started seeing how i need to change and the way to do that and not pick up a rifle and kill another person that's why i'm applying for jobs in subject for. the the. sergeant benderman was to essentially be on an airplane and fly to iraq with his unit and these offenses go to the essence of what it is to serve in the military you cannot have discipline if you had people that are disobeying orders. no sarcasm bitterman has been charged at the level of court martial that is the most serious type the maximum penalty that he faces right now is five years confinement in a dishonorable discharge. with regard

i yield myself such time as i may consume. the speaker pro tempore: the gentleman is recognized. mr. pitts: mr. speaker, h.r.

i needed and goats for myself. and i needed ways of expressing anecdotes to the dreadful destructiveness and evil that i was encountering. and so i could make jokes about it. my wife and i would talk about it, and we said what about you wish grapes? but anyhow, some of the dreams, well, i would say that one needs a certain amount of humor all the way through about absurdity of what one is encountering. and this expresses itself in one's dreams. and it doesn't mean that those elements of humor don't combined with something that one is struggling with. quite strong. >> you mentioned your wife, she's a constant reticence and character in this book. this has been a hard year. you completed the book and she fell ill and died. how does the work of a memoir change as you look at it? >> the memoir was completed just before my wife became extremely ill, and she died from pneumonia that they couldn't contend with very quickly. she had had some illnesses before then but nothing like that. having the memoir -- i couldn't have b