i was still transferred. i was tried as an adult. ey figured there was not enough time left within the juvenile court jurisdiction, which was three years, 2.5 years, for them to help me. so i go to the adult jail come to the county jail. i am in solitary confinement to be kept away from the adults. amy: foror how long? two years. from 16 until i was 18, i was in solitary confinement. amy: what is that like? what does it mean to be in solitary confinement? how large was your cell? who were you allowed to see? >> it was horrible it was horrible. theell is probably the size of your bathroom in your house. you don't get out much. you get out for an hour a day if they remember you where you can go outside to be locked in a kennel, which is pretty much a dog kennel, a cage, a fenced in cage. they will take you to the shower. it was really hard, especially with everything that i was dealing with. you had nothing to distract you. you're nothing but everything you were facing. all of the inside to come all of the thoughts, all of the trauma --

i was. team, got to the atlanta olympics, you, amazingly in a practice session, before your heat, you broke the freestyle 50 metres world record. i did. and yet, at the very same time, you were drinking alcohol to the level of addiction, you are consuming cocaine and other drugs, how did you maintain the level of performance? drugs, how did you maintain the level of performance ?|j drugs, how did you maintain the level of performance? i mean, i think part of it is youth. because i meant all young kids now who who it's just an absolute miracle now that they are alive. —— mentor. not eve ryo ne that they are alive. —— mentor. not everyone makes it out alive, i have some young ones who have passed and i feel quite lucky that that is not what happened to me. it could have. but as far as the people around me, from coaches to team—mates to institutions, the absolute indifference that i felt from them was something i was acutely attuned to, as were all of my team—mates, andi to, as were all of my t

i mean, i was... kicked out of practice, and i talk about them, but there was one school who would, and it was in dc and the reason they took me was that this one coach had actually coached me for a very short time in high school, and he says, "look, you've a clean slate with me." i think he was hoping to get a fast swimmer too but i was like, "whatever, i need to finish college." and then i came out. i came out as gay, and there are no gay athletes. i come out like this. like, there is no—one who looks like me in swimming. i shaved my head, you know... looking back, i have such fondness for that experience, but it was ultimately the excuse i used to quit swimming. the last, um, the last moment i had with the team was that i sat down to eat with them. they had all found out i was gay maybe a week or a few days prior. about half the team stood up and left. again, this is the late 1990s. homophobia in dc is still very real. there are still pockets in the united states, there are pockets where safety is n

but then i was sitting in the watching catfish, i remember this plain as day, and i was just sitting there, and i just kept putting my lotion on, and i was like, no. and it took me weeks for me to really realize what happened. and i was, like, i'm going to have to hit this girl. [laughter] see, that's like a whole other thing. the only space, i already know how it's going to be received if i just say anything, then you like shut down on that. and i think that's, like, the power of microaggression. like having to break through that fear of how you'll be perceived and just, like, like i said, they'll go around it. like going through it. and that takes, like, a lot of, like, time and, like, amping yourself up to do. it sounds like so easy to be like, girl, i'll slap you if you say that again. [laughter] it's not that easy when you're, like, in the moment. >> right. >> yeah. >> great. we are running out of time, but i did have, i wanted to give you a chance to if you have anything to add about your books or about anything else? >> i had a question for you because you were saying like, oh,

remember him telling me i was and i said well was sub you here to see me and he pulled out the 45 and he put it to my face and. what that what then that quick 2nd i snoozed the gun very familiar been i seen all the bullets and the barrel. and he start talking crazy he was on the start talking crazy talking about you know i should be smug because i'm dana enemy and i understand i know the protocol for females you know like you don't date enemies you don't date other fools from other neighborhoods i think the guys can probably get away with it but for females no and so because i did date somebody from another neighborhood it almost cost my life. he pulled the trigger but it was like a spiritual thing that happened that i can't explain till this day i mean for me i think it was god that was my transition of changing because when he pulled the trigger the barrel moved but no bullets didn't come out and i blacked out and when i blacked out i remember fallen in his black tunnel i thought i was shot in the hit . i thought i was going to hell because i wa

angeles because i was the victim in los angeles i didn't feel like i was a victim in vietnam and the level of violence i feel is just the same really even though they don't declare it to be a war zone it is a war zone. when we put cameras in the public housing developments there was great disdain the folks in the community didn't want the cameras there there's already bars on the windows and some of the developments and the community perspective was already living in a prison when you drive by our community it looks like a prison and now you're adding video cameras and now you're watching us and think brothers are always watching this we just want to feel like we're a normal community but on the other hand the cameras have been extremely successful as it relates to long for some and a witness intimidation we've had some murders occur inside jordan downs and caught them on video to where we don't have to ask that community member to put their life in danger and testify because we got it all on video so i think now that it's grown on the community and they realize that we're utilizing

which i was but it took many years of therapy in the real story behind the essay was a fracture the essay came out right after the me too movement. and it went viral and chaired by some of my favorite writers. and on and on. i quickly realized people were not responding to just the content but the title of my essay about my mother and i don't talk about. so many people came to me, strangers, friends. so then i put this together and it came out this year end has been with the exciting to travel around the country and talk to people about this topic. everyone can relate to it. >> it is very relatable. it all comes with the wall and front of it. i went to acid panel, each of you, what does that prompt you to write about and what does the prompt make you to think about. michelle reached out to me when i publish this and i was living in madison wisconsin in graduate school when my mom died. and i was walking on the highway when i got the phone call that she died. and right then as a writer whenever something horrified happens i turned to writing to think of how i feel. my mother and i always h

i was good. because i was a little bit more under the radar when i was like a competitive athlete it gave me more room to try things because it wasn't like, i knew when i was at the olympics the biggest asset for me being on that team was to be like the person who was going to help us win a medal. so that's what my main goal was to be when i was on that team. i knew it wasn't to get an individual medal but i knew it was to be an asset to get our team medal. i think in that space that i was given more opportunities to speak my mind and to take bigger risks that i think people who are just so close would be afraid to take. >> speaking of speaking her mind, i'm from indiana so i kind of have to talk about this a little bit. >> i know where this is going. >> i'm sorry i have to ask about this. he openly criticized mike pence, do you ever think about that and think about what that call would've been like? >> i sometimes think about it. right now, i've been on the book tour and sometimes i will do like

i was quite old by then, i was 65.e as you well know in the ‘70s including leaders of the world so age wasn't really the problem, it's just you saw a shortcut, you saw that money could deliver you something, perhaps give you more power than running as an mp. it wasn't so much that i wanted to look at power, in fact, i was idiotic. and i went to see william hague because i rodney leach, before he could opening his mouth, i told him why i was doing this and i ended up saying, if i was offered a peerage, i should reject it and further, i was stupid enough to say i want no influence at all over the cabinet or over your policies. i think you changed your mind about that over time. yes. it interests me given your background that you've said and again the book you discussed it, that your views of broadly libertarian, you are right of centre when it comes to economic policy—making. "i am right wing economically. "the critical point i suppose is that i would be in favour "of being not at all kind to those who do not have a job

so i knew jeb was finished. they didn't want -- he's a good guy but he's a little low energy, am i right? we were in a moment, ladies and gentlemen, when isis was going around cutting people's heads off. christians and jews were being persecuted unlike any time in this millennia. the economy was in a rut. illicit illegal immigration was running rampant all around this country. we did not feel like it was the america we grew up to believe it was. i'm 32. there's some people younger here than me. some people older than me here. i guarantee you under obama we didn't feel like that was the america we recognized, am i right? [applause] so i said to myself, my colleagues over at the hudson institute told me go get your feet wet. we are going to get you in with one of those establishment campaigns. you are going to do great. are you 28. you are going to move up the ranks. and obviously people were predicting clinton might have won, get your feet wet and come back and continue working in the swamp. that would have been t

i was watching him with my husband and i had a holiday i was on the gulf of mexico with him and we saw these kinds of hearings people in japan australia and around the world. people caring so much. i thought it was wonderful. actually that launch launched my career. it was my first to launch. i think there are working that they did not let me sit there and lift off. there was always a man at that council and my thoughts went to bed i got permission for me to sit there. all of a sudden it made a difference. i got seen by everybody and she said she's been working her for ten years isn't it about time? it's a little bit about my story. it's great to be here with you. (applause) >> she began her career and areas with as a human a country that was pretty quickly promoted to engineer working in mission control a johnson space center underway turn to its trajectory. her presence and mission control to the incident of the media and placed her in the public eye making her and inspiration to young boys and girls around the world. poppy. >> unlike john, i did not have this big plans to be in the

it was my first launch to be in. i mean, i'd been there working on propellant loads and other activities but they didn't let me sit there at liftoff. there was always a man at that console. my boss went to bat and got permission for me to sit there. and all of a sudden, it made a difference. i got seen by everybody and my boss said, well, she's been working here for ten years, isn't it about time? so it's a little bit about my story, anyway. it's great to be here with you. >> thank you very much, joann. [ applause ] poppy northcutt began her career in aerospiace as a human computr but quickly promoted to engineer working in mission control in johnson space center on the rush retu return to earth trajectory. her presence in mission control placed her in the public eye making her an inspiration to young boys and girls around the world. poppy? >> thank you. [ applause ] unlike joann, i did not have this big plan to be in the space program. i graduated from the university of texas with a degree in mathematics and went to l

that i was i. i i. i i i i 7 i yeah i got. you know the west some actions i saw that i didn't agree with as you can probably see in my video however there's 2 sides to every story i just wanted to document what i saw. was. the i. i. i was into it has to get out in front of the legislative console to try to. stop our. legislative process i i i think that. i. we go hot so you cannot blame every protester who used more radical rape to response. but i thought the month response. from hong kong legislature plans folks they got into pockets 1st elected by every hong kong people dislike them up by the professionals at the company saw at the cafe and. have no need to listen to the all call people. gradually over the last few months to see if the morals of expected to be on the still so there are 5 major demands the 1st time is of course to which are out there actually. there is also the demand to release all arrested protesters they want the designation of rights to be removed and both the government and t

and was a good father. i think people would think probably not, but he was doing everything he knew. he said these kids came into my life and he was doing every thing he could to raise them. susan: did he have a job? chris: no. the mother who is not in the photo, is standing along that road panhandling. that is right outside of mcdonald's outside of portsmouth, ohio. they were just there in the community. the father, while the mother was working panhandling, the father would push the kids around, maybe sit under a tree and play with them. susan: where did they live? chris: they lived, in his telling, in a garage behind the home of someone he knew. and he said, it's not that bad. he said, sometimes we can run a cord out there to run a heater but is not that bad right now because it's not that cold. susan: did you ultimately -- i think i read in one of the stories about this, that you ultimately struggled with calling social services on these folks. chris: i did. i was in town three or four different times over

god i have was. people throwing down reinforcements umbrellas against the water cannons they've been handing out mosques and doubles to everybody oh my god and these are the our brothers reinforcements i mean cost forward in a very organized manner. i think that the still high in from the to gas the smoke everywhere this is an absolute madness was it was a moment of panic it was a moment of carnage my mind was. up here i was always in this moment of adrenaline i i was always very aware of my surroundings i. i saw lots of things which really made me worry nicely i would say the my girlfriend safety the safety of the protest was he was never going to they've wanted to get out of it i but i still got through it that i was i. i. was i thought i yeah i got. you know the west some actions i saw that i didn't agree with as you can probably see in my video however there's 2 sides to every story i just wanted to document well i saw. the i. i. i was into the past this get out in front of the legislative console

know nothing like that i was there to. say so why does it have to be so big to see why 20 do tell me when i said if i think. i love ladies how you're laughing at us. coming. so why did you type painting to play that card to that oh i was thinking you've got the news in your life. and i you know i was able to track it but even that's interesting minds me of a mixture of paranoia. and a need as a control and take control of the situation you know so well yes i've got plenty of relatives who who fit that mold. and some love on line i want to play this for you because it's also another gift people are loving the gifts to express their enthusiasm so jane says we say when the story is over this is a quote. from the characters tell me what is your credit score i will tell us on our why did he not talk to us about the writing process behind this because some of these are pretty inside jokes for a certain comedian but others are ones that everyone can get behind and yet you know these are all basically stories from my life and the l

>> i think it was around 8 i first found pornography, it was dialup so you had to wait. >> i had beengling with this since i was 11 years old. i remember vividly seeing the image on my computer and having this first orgasm with technology. >> i was exposed when i was probably 7 or 8. and then i would say i started using regularly when i was 10. >> i first saw pornography when i was around 9 years old. i actually did have a cell phone or a computer. i had a nintendo ds and they came out of a new model where you can access the internet and by the time i turned 11 years old, i was watching pornography on a regular bases. by the time i was 13, i was fully addicted topograph pograo. >> many others in the no fap community were addicted to porn at a young age. >> porn is a big issue for my wife. i have gone through a lot of guilt around it. porn causes me to not be able to perform sexually and sometimes thinking about having sex with my wife causes a lot of mental distress. i want to have real sex but i also don't want to because i am afraid in the real act of sex. it is a dark place for me.

>> i think it was around 8. you know, i first found pornography. it was the dial up kind. you had to wait. >> i had been struggling with this since i was 11 years old. i remember vividly seeing the image on the computer and having this, like, first orgasm with technology. >> i was first exposed when i was probably 7 or 8. and then i would say i started using regularly when i was about 10. >> i first saw pornography when i was around 9 years old. i didn't actually have a cell phone. i didn't have a computer. i had a nintendo ds and i remember they just came out with the new model that you could access the internet with. and by the time i turned 11 years old, i was watching pornography on a regular basis. by the time i was 13, i was fully addicted to pornography. >> many others in the no fap community were exposed to porn at a young age and now report side effects such as reduced sex drive, erectile dysfunction, and social anxiety. >> porn is a very big issue. with my wife, i've gone through a lot of guilt around it. porn causes me to not be able to perform sexually. sometime

i was part of another community. i just want to reason that it was essential but so was this other piece so the tendency of humans is to see people that they are irredeemably evil if you isolate them because they thank you are evil so we don't want that kind of hatefulness and you don't want to convince other people to join them so have that language as much as we can for whatever individual has for the patients to feel safe enough to engage with people like that more likely we are to change hearts and minds. people say that this is unique somehow. may be in particular with the specific things they do but i don't think my reaction was anything other than completely human and there are many other examples of other nationalist like david duke was his godfather who left the movement after engaging with jewish people. and darrell davis is a black jazz musician who convinced 200 members of the kkk to abandon the movement. there is a lot of examples of the strategies being powerful with that community aspect. the person tha

i was stunned. i asked do you know what happened?l related to our trial question mike >> tamron: what are they say? >> they said at this time there is no indications as to such but the investigation was ongoing. later this week, later when i got back to dallas i found out that the police were investigating a possible drug connection. i just feel for mr. brown's family. eow toughhat se that his parents somotial for h.vo and he steppep to do is civic responsibility, which is to testify in a co days later he is gone. and people were afraid and worried and still are. tell mike that they don't know the entire story despite the police investigation. another element of this is amber guyger is planning an appeal, or could appeal. you could preside over that appeal, is that correct? >> actually. if she does appeal the appellate court located in dallas will be the first court to handle that. but should they find something amiss in her trial and it is reversed and sent back for a new trial, then there is a likelihood that i could preside over t

but i was unaware to the depths of which i wasas involve. amy:y: and you're not wearing yr ownpants? >> correct. amy: and you're missing your underwear. >> correct. yes, my dress was hiked up to my waist. i did not have underwear on and i did not understand why or how they could be gone. and i was given hospital pants. amy: did you ask anyone to explain what is going on? >> no. i figured if there was something that grave, they would tell me more explicitly. i also refrained from asking because i think i knew something was wrong, and i wasn't prepared to hear the answer. i did not want you to tell me that i had been assaulted. i wanted that ignorance. and sometimes you need that in order to sit down with the detective ash which i did that morning -- and be levelheaded and go back to your night and right through it all to give him answers. if they had disclosed everything at that moment, i t think i woud hahave been completely immobilized, unable to digest that information. so instead, i was released home and not given anything more. amy: you h

hold, that my credit store was awful, i was really worried about the future and so when i was doing this memoir, resentment and i went to my mom and i said, mom, you and dad, my father have since passed, you and dad always said we came here for a better like in the uk and we had a crappy life. i grew up, listen, i love queens, i love the neighborhood. i literally woke up multiple times, we fought incredible by hard to stay in the country, my father's life was pretty much destroyed in the process of staying in this country and we all lived like when you have one family member hurting and under attack whether it's by legal issues or health issues, everyone suffers, so what do you mean a better life, why would you have risks crossing the ocean with 3 kids and having no plans and that's when mom told me that my paternal grandmother, her mother-in-law was -- she didn't use the word abusive, abusive was not a word in circulation back then but she was abusive. my family lived in what's called the joint family m immigrants will know the setup, you're living with your inlaws, the brothers of

i did not hear anything. there was not really any noise at that point in time until they turned and fired. to this day i still get shook up tohave a reaction helicopters flying overhead with searchlights were ambulances racing down a street. i can still see the kids being put on gurney's and rolled away from the campus that day. recap, how did this incident compare to any other university campus violence at the time? was this a huge deal? can sort of remember, the young young, is there was violence at berkeley and ucla had a riot. was this vastly larger then sees other larger places? it seems ohio is not really on the forefront -- howard ruffner: i can't speak completely for the other universities but i had gone to ohio state several times before the incident at kent state and i had seen national guard and parking lots and protesting. i think it was more pronounced -- butr schools but not the burning of the rotc building which happened on kent at that particular time was the straw that broke the camel's back for the go

i think it was a wake-up call. ings that energy cannot be created nor destroyed it did not go away so i literally was like grad school, and it went into poetry and writing and if you read my poetry it's like Ãthat's where the energy is coming from. i was fortunate enough that i began to get positive affirmation, this poem is really good. we get those positive feedback, you can begin to stick with it. then also just finally i've seen what happens if we don't talk about it. i feel like if one person in this room can go home and read the book or not read the book, just have a conversation that they been afraid to have them à it's worth it. thank you. >> i'm a big fan, i haven't finished the book yet so i want to ask you a broader question based on something i think you'd tweeted a bit ago. i also recently left new york in a dramatic way. >> get girl f. >> i know for you going there looking at watching rent growing up it's like where you can go and be clear and it safe there. i've been struggling with being my authentic

i didn't know what it was. ff. >> you think that guy you were holding it for, your buddy, is that what he's into? >> i guess. >> you're an educated guy. >> but, yeah, it would be an opinion. >> i'm saying educated guess. >> if that's what he do. >> one plus one is equaling two. >> i'm saying as far as i'm concerned. >> i'm not saying -- i already know. my gut feeling is if he's not running the tax scam, he's got close associates up in state prison that are doing this. >> you want to know about the tax forms. make it easy for me. >> he's willing to give us some information but, of course, with brian singletary he wants something in return and what he's wanting is something i can't give him and that's help on his current appeal is why he is in state prison right now and that can't happen. as of right now it's pretty much a dead issue with brian singletary unless i'm hoping that maybe he gets some second thoughts and maybe in two or three days he puts in the word he wants to talk again. you know, i've always shot s

i was not taught hate at home. i had to look at these people who were very insular and plain old ignorant people, including the governor. that is where i was coming from. i think i was sane then, even at 14, because i had the right to be there. -- i knew i had the right to be there. that was by stating above it all. it may not work for the other eight, but it worked for me. that is the way i don't with -- dealt with them. >> dr. roberts, you are a sychologist. are you sane? [laughter] >> i truly doubt it. >> would you know if you were? can we pass the mic to you? >> i am a teacher at central high school, and i must stand and say thank you to mrs. lanier for coming to my classroom and talking to the students. it was a beautiful, awesome moment. my question is -- with students from all over the spectrum falling through the cracks, without having the obstacles that you had in 1957, what are your thoughts? what are some things you can share that we as a community can reach out to those students, or say to them today, yo

that's who i was. that's not who i am today. [ applause ] once upon a time, they wouldn't let me see my son. i was a drug dealing maniac. i liked to get violent. that's who i was. i was a street guy. they wouldn't let me see my son. now they let me pick him up from school today, you know. [ applause ] of course, there is a process, and i tell you, north carolina, the prisons love us. they love kurtis taylor. they love justin lozier. now they love me. so, yeah, there is a process. you know, they -- whenever i receive an email from a case manager, i send the re-entry application, five-page application, goes into great detail, i send the oxford manual, i tell them, have them read this. i will be asking about this. you know, then after i get it back, i conduct my phone interview. longest phone interview i've had was about, almost two hours long. i get real into, like, i'm telling you the truth. i get -- i tell them a piece of my story. you know, i let them know you're not talki ining to somebody beha desk.

already done so i was doing peer. so i must say i was very confident that it will be you know like this and i was very very young on that and when i went to that shelter home and the fuzz day was the disaster in nothing luggage 2 2. so then i thought ok it's not working and but that gave me an insight that i don't know anything actually that entire the infrastructure of a shelter hole the communication of the goddess and the 1st space deve everything and i thought that i need to really start putting the new. so i started to create some story to leaving and focusing on movement not the dance and then this started to tell the story there is started to dog. so that you know to be all that up you brought say this and then i found that all that is don's movement it has a 40 us history and i was kind of wow i am on the right track. it's. ok it's i think it's a day that you to have a man take you down her skirt design that i was going to say a sketch and see if you can make a pattern to fit her do you want to start the story

i think it was a wake-up call. that energy cannot be created nor destroyed it did not go away so i literally was like grad school, and it went into poetry and writing and if you read my poetry it's like Ãthat's where the energy is coming from. i was fortunate enough that i began to get positive affirmation, this poem is really good. we get those positive feedback, you can begin to stick with it. then also just finally i've seen what happens if we don't talk about it. i feel like if one person in this room can go home and read the book or not read the book, just have a conversation that they been afraid to have them à it's worth it. thank you. >> i'm a big fan, i haven't finished the book yet so i want to ask you a broader question based on something i think you'd tweeted a bit ago. i also recently left new york in a dramatic way. >> get girl f. >> i know for you going there looking at watching rent growing up it's like where you can go and be clear and it safe there. i've been struggling with being my authentic self

when i was 16 i was in high school i grew up in little rock arkansas but my parents are verypassionate about caring for so we moved them to an orphanage and i went to high school. and then at 19 i went to rwanda and i saw hope village and it's a child or an orphanage i was 19 and there were other girls who were my age and i wanted them to be able to go to university. i went back to college and made wire crosses from my dorm room and sold them and then a few months i made enough money to send those $2.00 girls to school so that was the trip that sparked my interest in using my creativity to create change. doesn't come. with school. i started with judith and we made a laptop bag that turned out terribly and they had no idea what a laptop was or what sizes supposed to be but i assumed that they knew what a laptop was. and then we made a skirt and the skirt was beautiful i posted the pictures on facebook and people loved it and so the feedback from the u.s. market through facebook album is what really made me think ok this could work. female genital mutilation is a reality for mo

i don't. think it was that night but it was under the flag i think i was going to become my helper stand up and i let my you know medicare not charge cannot. when i started to make people i was not a guy to be used and it's only when i moved from dakar to germany i think i started to do have some kind of like activism to say i can use my voice. for those one who doesn't have to push me to do so we say good morning sister very nice to see your sister this is not a moment you see is in fact an award winning the senegalese urban soul and hip hop star and activist invited by his stage name system she is breaking taboos by returning to her home country to talk about this issue she joins been. writing out a bit of material magic the house you grab and then to kyra i can see and this is just like the one behind this right here in the end there that people that you're a living reading and. want to might have bright years since 2001 right they look like they wanted to show me that. there's a lot there were. 3 were right your 1st album definitely. i remember when the 1st time the show had the t.v. here i

14 year's old and i was in high school and this was the year, i won't try to give the year but you will figure it out. the year after president kennedy was assassinated. i was in rochester, new york and a friend of mine came after school one day, why don't you come volunteer for bobby kennedy, he's run if for senate in new york state, so i was always looking for something to do after school, oh, this is good, i could stay, go after school 3 to 4 hours. so i took her up on it and i went down and i took the bus every day after school from the east side town of all the way to west side of town, i worked in the office, i made phone calls, i did -- lick envelopes, if you remember machines where you put the funny paper and you got your fliers and stuff, we did all of that and actually by the time he won the campaign, i was going out door to door talking to people, actually about -- about him and i was -- i guess i look back at my young age, all the kids are so much smarter, way beyond us, at the early age i understood the issues and i was able to explain them to people can understand it. now,

28 years old it was my first job in government, i was my title was directed for international organizationscekeepers. basically i had the un portfolio on the nsc staff so i got oversight and insight into issues in africa, issues in asia, issues in europe. in addition to the Ãand rwanda going on in that period that's what i focus on the book but we were also dealing with haiti and cambodia, the whole series of major challenges in which the united nations and peacekeepers were involved. somalian and rwanda were particularly formative crisis in my professional development. in somalia black hawk down really was the culmination of the administration's decision to try to go after the warlord by deed who had killed many somali civilians and was preventing us from completing the mission of providing humanitarian assistance to people who were starving. that was the original mission president bush got us into at the end of his administration and president clinton carried on. after the tragic shootdown of those helicopters and the loss of those 18 servicemen, including images of people may recall of o

and there i was. and one of the things that always happened to me throughout my life is i would get intensely focused on weird issues like i went through this with color. i got really obsessed with color. i am obsessed with aphorism. if you have any favorite ones, i am collecting them. right, sorry. and so this is something i knew about myself. when i was clerking, there was a day where i went for lunch, during my lunch hour to go for a walk around the beautiful capitol hill and i was looking at the dome against the bright blue sky and asked myself a rhetorical question, what am i interested in that everyone else in the world is interested in? power, money, fame, sex and these words kind of locked into my mind and overwhelmed me and i became interested. so there i was, i was clerking the supreme court, working, working, then i had free time i would stay late or i would come in on the weekends because this was before the internet, so i would run giant searches on lexis-nexis. also little-known perk of b

i want my bones and my body to come home. that was so important to me, that they didn't leave me over there somewhere. when i came home, my family had a big ceremony. they had some medicine men smoke me and do pray for something for me. my family gave away and they fit -- fed everybody. to me that i felt so good about what my tribe and indian people were doing for us. i had seen that my whole life, and i really experienced i felt like i belong. you know? a long time ago, a lot of the tribes when their men went out before they could come back into camp, they made stay out. they made him stay out on the perimeter. wl likeuld ho wolves. they sent their servicemen out there to cleanse them and said because you've been fighting and doing things and we don't want you to come into the camp, around their women and children and act that way being angry and volatile but we want to cleanse you and clean up and make your human being again before you come in here. indian people were dealing with ptsd a long time ago. medicine does not work for eve

but i was, i was an undergrad, and i was changing my major, like, three or four times. landed on creative writing -- [laughter] and i just found myself among the whites for the first time, like, i'm from dallas -- [laughter] and all my life i only went to school with black people and mexican people my whole entire school life, public school life. so when i went to college, i was, like, immersed -- even though the i went to art school and it was liberal, which means it was even more racist than the south. [laughter] each though this was a liberal arts school, i was immersed into these classes where i was the only black person. or i found myself knowing, like, that i'm the representative of, like, black people for these people. and so i just found myself everything i write starts with anger, so everything i would write in my workshops would be very angry, these things to, hike, white people. and it started when i went to college. it was the year after trayvon happened, and then mike brown happened, and it was a ripple effect. i would go the protests with my three white ro

>> yes. >> tamron: i did not see that coming. she wastand like this, you're not going to catch me slipping. susanna, one of the answer comes i follow, this woman betty winkle, we have pictures. i don't know how old she has but betty is bad. another woman, the accidental icon everyone follows her and someone who's a personal heart of mine and i was just with her recently. tyson is 94. [applause] d tss athg. lehink now that 50 is the new 30? >> yeah i think that's it. >> tamron: c73, she looks 53. what's the beef, what's the problem? >> i think there is this idea that women have kind of an expiration date honestly. we are constantly fed these ideas up in media but women women should look like. everybody you see in tv and movies and ads is then. they don't have pores. there are 25 years old. plus five model ashley graham wrecking the game and she's not alone. i just showed three accounts of women who aren't famous that have thousands of followers and they are over the age of 50. i think that people are really refreshed by that. i don't nece

why people thought i was crazy but i was like no show's going to get picked up i'm good be moving to l.a. for this show and i'm a place you can see that place on instagram show he was. you are smiling so brutally on all who is such a gem of a carriage when 1st read that character what were you thinking. oh well it would just be a dream to get this i mean i've you know came into the project in the traditional way i. you know i went for the additional. and another one here which was quite exciting she said you know screen test so you know i just thought oh my god if i could get this to be amazing. came to be well where. i was that i'd seen charlotte. chewing gum mckayla cohen has. taken a screenshot of her 6 and found her details and i sent them to chuck and alan with the other coke ways of the show and i was like this is i actually does you don't need to auditioned anybody else this is so i found a us senator and that's where they will dish it came for even senior women who. i was like i don't know your other things is not yours you write here. and i did you know i mean you know i came

it really was. i mean, it was my anniversary, my 30 year anniversary, but we had been doing this for years. no matter where we are, no matter what fatality, what country, we are there for every disaster. it was amazing. later on i went home quickly, checked on my dog who was hiding , he never did that. i made sure she was all right, went back to station seven and i said, i am a pro be, can i answer phones? >> answer phones, get on the rig i got on the rig. i didn't even have a coat, i just put on some old-timers turn out. we went to south of market. the entire south of market had their horrible collapse on the street. the entire south of market smells like natural gas and it was really an eerie feeling. then we swooped into the marina where i was dropped off and we have a very special guest a little later that will tell us his story, but i was dropped off after -- at the marina. basically what i did was help expand the auxiliary portable hydrant system that you see right here. when it opened the hydra

i was a wreck. i needed out because i was lucky and in an incredible support system and because i wanted to be a benefit to my one and half yeahalfyear-old againahalf yeara functioning partner in my house and i had the family support to kerry me through when i was completely unable to do it myself. but i did make it out. for weeks without. i gave up at the end actually. i filled a prescription and managed to sleep that night for the first time in three nights if i didn't take any and when i woke up in the morning i knew that i could make it out. in the wake of that, i was grateful at first because i thought i was going to die and i didn't than i was angry because i thought the reason was the reason. then i was deeply confused and frustrated because the more thai thought about it the more i thought how do we get to a place that we are so bad in pain medicine at opioids but no one failed me in one particular way that an entire group of world-class doctors failed me in multiple ma ways. i was withheld m

it wasn't an exact date but when i was in middle school i remember i was surprised i didn't realize a teacher was writing on the board and i was missing stuff or there was information missing that i experience the world was different than how adults experienced it. so i had a meeting with one of my teachers for the blind and the mainstream teacher that's how i started to realize how i experience the world is different from others. others who just go to school and expect the teacher to teach them. i could not do that. i had to think about how could i find out. and all my life with this process to identify unknowns. >> from your book you write the blind community has horror stories of blind kids that never contribute around the house because their parents tell them that they can't. my parents expect me to do chores and i do. >> that's true. the truth is as a kid i had to do chores. they expected me to do chores. i learned visual techniques like for doing dishes. they would say you can't do that if you are blind or just go sit in a corner and not participate and then to develop these ind

i was mad. is lovely description even at that point when she is not very well talking about what happened with your relationship and what was going on. >> when you see so much death day after day and week after week, i hate to admit this but it is a normal site to see a dead body. but that was the first time and it affected me very deeply. and i think that somehow that site stayed with me always , that first experience to see a dead body. i have never forgotten. >> describe what it was like when you got to algeria and on the way there is a wonderful description of people finishing lunch with a lot of leftover food hamburgers. and the cook just through them overboard and your response that's what could have saved your father or hundreds of lives as it was thrown to the fish. >> it was the first time i had seen hamburger in years. so i ate too many. [laughter] i was very uncomfortable so i went on the deck to lie down on the ground because that is all i could do. then the man came out of the kitch

it that i was i. i. was i not i yeah i got. you know the web some actions i saw that i didn't agree with as you can probably see in my video however there's 2 sides to every story i just wanted to document well i saw. the. oh i. i. i'm centerfield has this get out in front of you have to say console to try to. stop. the legislative process i i i think that. i. where. we go hot so you cannot blame a tree protester who used more radical way to response. i got someone to respond. for hong kong legislative council into pockets 1st elected by every hong kong people just like them elect up by their profession knows that the company saw the cafe and that you expected so you have no need to listen to the people. gradually over the last couple of months to see if the morning of expected to be on the spill so there are 5 major demands the 1st time is of course to ensure are there actually honestly there is also the demand to release all arrested contests or is they want the designation of rights to be remanded

obviously i was hugely relieved. litical trial in the 0ld having a huge political trial in the old bailey. but on the other hand, i did feel that we had a real chance to tackle many issues and the legal tea m to tackle many issues and the legal team were fired up. there was a precedent that we could potentially set, we could put the iraq war on trial. that is what you wanted to do. guess. and we wanted to demand the attorney general ‘s legal advice. elizabeth grant has said herself that if she had to go to court on oath and swear on oath that there was a difference of opinion she would do so because viewers may remember she resigned before the invasion of iraq. she was a senior legal officer in the government and she resigned over her grave concerns. principally because the attorney general ‘s advised if it from hers when he went to the us and came back with a different opinion. let me ask you, when you now look at the whole film today, do you, in any way, feel you should have done things friendly? are you absolutely

i have a brother who was a mechanic in vietnam. another one who built roads in vietnam for two years. i wrote press releases in waco, texas, and directed tv in the philippines. my view of the war was still the same. i did not think it was just. i felt we had no reason to be there. when we got to kent state, i my personalew, but desire to do photography was stronger than my desire to be a protester, so i chose that. i had to keep myself a little toe objectified than trying do one side or the other. ok? yes? >> [inaudible] mr. ruffner: no, i can explain that, really. it's quite strange. when governor rhodes -- and all this is in the book -- whenever governor roads arrived on campus , he had his public appearance, but then he had a private appearance in the firehouse with the -- i don't even believe there were any kent state officials or administrators there. fire chiefs, state police, national guardsmen, some .eporters his words were being broadcast also to the -- i don't want to call them dormitories, but the facility always -- facil