>> i should say that i have, to be honest, i did not see very clearly by what i was inspired. i do not know if there is, like, a first-time -- i think it can be everything. but i know i was touched by the things that i think a beautiful, and things that are from the street. like maybe why i also have a kind of obsession, i love to work with denim. it was not so well cena that time. i am born in 1952. in 1958, some boys had denim trousers. for my parents, they felt it was not very elegant. so it was not so nice, not so clean. so me, i fantasy about it. and maybe i was looking more and people that were wearing that kind of close, sometimes going to buy a jacket. there is a movie of marlon brando. but i must say, i remember it was a time in the 1960's, it was some boy from the suburbs. i suppose little gangs who were supposed to be bad boys. maybe i was a very polite boy. i was a little fascinated by bad ones. [laughter] it came from my fascination with movies, with james dean, most of all marlon brando. all wore rebellious close. i find it very attractive and very interesting. of

i was just like on cloud nine. and then i get out on the run, and i was just, like, i can't believe it. itually win the ironman. >> the day of the race i knew that something was wrong with my body. i had a great swim. about 30 miles into my bike, i just was not able to keep anything down. anything that went in just went back out. i was just trying to drink as much as i could each eighth station. and then run, that's the part where things can really fall apart. >> when i got the report that i was leading by 22 minutes or so, i got chills and i kind of got a grin on my face like i think i can actually do this. i can hold on. around mile 13 or 16 it's just hot and windy and the toughest part of the race for a lot of people. i require a lot of salt tablets. i go to reach into my bag and they were gone. and i was like trying not to panic. but i knew i had to conserve. and i could feel the cramping coming on in my quads. and that's kind of when the mental starts taking over. you're like one step at a time. don't panic. breathe. just keep moving forward. >> 10k to go. i felt stronger than i did

i began running. i ran and ran away from the beach and all the death and dying. now i don't remember what i was thinking. the greatest honor i could have given my family was that was my death and i ran from it. i was frightened for not fulfilling my obligation yet there was a voice in me that told me to escape. i ran away as if it were the diseased one. at night i hid among the trees along the stretch of road. it was cold that first night alone. i was hungry. i began to think that may be death was a better way after all. i never before felt the black void of abandonment and i knew no one would look for me. as far as my family i ran with the others that morning. everything had been planned. we each left notes for our families hoping we would honor them in the other world i said good night to my family for the last time knows i would no longer be a burden. the only way to honor them to allow them to think i was dead. the following morning in the woods i was awaken by the sound of foot steps. if i moved i would draw attention to where i was. so i lay silent and still. hoping whoever or whatever it was would move on. i stared up

and in another thing i felt was because i begged him to bring me, i felt that i owed him that. ifelt that i never wanted my father to say, i shouldn't have brought you. and it was bad, but really, like always motivate me to do really well in school, to do all these great things that he wanted me to do. because i didn't want to hear that ever from my dad. he never said that to me. he didn't. but yeah, i mean, my dad, as i was writing the book i really wanted to make sure that he didn't come across as the villain in the story. you know, i really wanted to give him his humanity. because he had some really great things, my dad, but he was also dealing with a lot of difficulties that unfortunately as i said our relationship spent and utilities were in it about how you want to go to church one sunday and he held up a budweiser and said this is my god. >> yes, yes. when did your father passed? >> he passed away last year, november. he died from liver cancer and he got diagnosed with cirrhosis back in 83 and he never told us. and he kept drinking. and he actually gave up drinking in the

i will try to answer a, b, c. for me, i know that the first thing i began to think about when i thought i wanted to write a novel was that i wanted to write about my culture. and because i had grownup in the chinese culture i wanted to write about china. i wanted to find out more about myself because of i was raised in the bay area and because i didn't know culturally a lot of things i wanted to know. i knew i wasn't going to write about myself and knew that i was not going to write about my family. but i wanted to write about an aspect about china and women. those were the 2 things i knew when i began the first book. i was fortunate enough to it stumble upon the silk working women which gave me everything i wanted. it gave me the culture. it gave me a sense of what it meant to be a female chinese women in that time and a sense of empowerment on what they had done. regardless of what they understood they were doing at the time. they didn't know it was a culture that was earning money and living independent of husbands and family that was doing everything against what it meant to be in the chinese culture. i hadn't h

so i say, i also come from nigeria and i am like you. [laughter] i do not think she believed me so i was inventing names. anyway. so she influenced me. she had white skin. you could see her veins. she was very strange but beautiful for me. i was always attracted by different beauty that i saw everywhere. i remember some movies called guess who's coming to have dinner tonight with sydney party. i remember i said to my parents -- i was 12. if i come with a black girl, what will you say? and they say, if you love her, that is perfect for you. years after when it told them what i could say about the fact was going with a guy, they said if you love each other, that is wonderful. so i think i was lucky to have parents like that. very modern. very open-minded. unlike for some, there's no question of religion, of color of skin, or anything like that. people can be all beautiful. it depends on who they are, but it is not a question of color. for me, both of us were beautiful. and i loved color. color of the skin. tattoo on the skin, which is a kind of color. some blue colors that you add. and i w

when i see something that i find interesting, even if i have no interest in anything at the moment, i say that one day i will do something from that. i know that there was work on it. i think i have to burn it, because at the end, i take too much time to look at it. but, yes, i mean, to be honest, i think will realize what time that i have no more of the passion, which will mean i will stop. i think it is better. honestly, before i was doing that profession, because i was not at peace with the fact that i was rejected, so i was inventing a lot of things. at the moment, i started to work -- i finish. because i do the things that i'd love to do, why should i live now. there's no reason to lie? because i am accepted through my work? why should i lie? because i do not want to live again in my old days. but i will always interested in fashion. >> the next question is for both of you -- how is it in the fashion world for larger size women? >> i will answer this first. i was so happy when beth ditto appeared in one of jean paul's collections. she is a terrific woman and quite rotund in size. i have not quite caught up with her yet, but i certainly am no little

when i was afraid to go there because it was extremely personal and i wasn't just writing about myself, i was writing about my family, about my parents and there were many times when i felt that i was writing things i shouldn't. but then i felt that if i was going write a memoir, i needed to be completely honest with the story, and to turn my pain and my fear in to my strength instead of them being my weaknesses. >> renee grande, did you write this book originally in english or spanish? >> i always write in english first. unfortunately when i came to the country, i got so obsessed with learning english, i know neglected my native tongue. for many years all i did was eat and breathe english to the point that when i got college i was the writing tutor and i was tutoring native english speakers and teaching them how to write better english. but when i was in college, i got exposed to pan spanish for spanish speakers. that's what i took the classes and i said, i'm going reclaim my native tongue. i tbli english because it's so natural to me that i don't have to think about the language vocabulary as i'm writing. the times when i have tried to write in spanish i have to pick up the d

i was worried about and i had sent it to my editor and she called. i'm telling you the gossip stuff now. i think in a way that's more interesting. iy nervous because i didn't know how she would receive this book. she called and said to me, well, it's very different. [laughter] and then nobody said anything. i didn't say anything and she didn't i didn't know what to say different good or bad so just with quiet. she said, i think this about part of -- she talked to me about story lines. i realized wow, they are going to publish it. and we talked about it as we would talk about a man script that would be accepted. i'm thinking, i can't believe they are going to accept this book. it was a crazy writing experience because of all the books i had written half the book. i had half the book to write before it was due in terms of a contract. we sign a contract and they put a due date on it that was the only book i felt i had to get in on time. since then i have not done it since. i tell everybody -- in my second book i thought you had to get the book right when they say you need. you should, i shouldn't say to you aspiring writers out there

i could. i mean, i reverted to a 5-year-old. i had a crucifix. and i was like, "don't get me." know, i was going to, you know, strike his heart with a wooden stake. i mean, i didn't know what was going on. but it was something that i felt that was absolutely real. now, some people could say, "oh, well, you were just projecting your own darkness out on the --" i don't care which way it happened. it was a very real event. and so it is there. it's waiting. >> what came of that experience that night? >> well, this was fascinating. i went back to the capuchin monk. and i said -- and he said, "whoa, i think we've been messing with something that might be bigger than we are." and he said that, you know, "if you're going to break evil's hold on someone's soul, evil's going to fight back." in other words, i had gone through this ceremony where i was beginning to distance myself. and i was beginning to understand. and i was no longer acting in this unconscious way, like, jumping on people's -- you know, hoods of their cars and kicking their windshields in. and it was sort of like he used

i was not part of that. but as a voyeur that i am, i wanted to see them. i'm fascinated. i love them. i love the work of westwood. so i love their work because they did something, but they saw something that was happening, rebellion tight, and that mix of conservative with the art still. i love that, so it has influenced me. for example, in london, i saw a black trench coat, and in the front, you say black is not for children. black is bad, and everything like that that is ridiculous, so i told them. i must say that one for me was a learning experience. i love it. >> london has changed, as every city has. you certainly will not have any of those bankers wearing bowler hats and numberless. more to the point, london out is tremendously diverse. paris is becoming in admitting that it is more a diversity, and there's a little line for me quite hidden away the says i'm very much a parisian or i'm interested in parisian women, but not quite sure that i ever met a parisian woman. what do you mean by that? >> what i mean is that my education, i have been looking at old movies that i love. we s

i was arrested. >> i was arrested and scared straight. i decided i would rather be poor and free than half a little bit of money and not able to sleep at night. soaker two years i was on probation. i paid an attorney to $32,000 to get me off the hook and that is something that is not fair in the justice system. if you can afford proper representation you're going to get a slap on the wrist. i got probation. for two years i kept myself clean but my friends were still trafficking drugs and they grew their empire to a $25 million in year empire and the dea told me they are not that big. they came questioning me one day and out of loyalty i asked my friend they are questioning me. you should consider what you are doing to evaluate everything because something is wrong. my friends repaid me by having a hit man visit my house and he described in gory detail how he was going to shoot me and my pregnant wife and three kids one by one by one by one if i read him out but at that point my decision was made because once you threaten my children i have to take dr

invested in the story and see what they wanted to see and i knew where i was going and i had to put on mental blinkers a lot and think i know where i am going uh i must not be influenced by this. so in a sense, it was liberating to leave that weight of expectation behind and know i could just do what i wanted to do, it was very freeing, but i must say that i spent the first two years work opening the casual vacancy telling me you don't even have to publish that and you don't even have to publish this book and that was a way of bringing down my own awareness that, you know, people, it wasn't going to be what some people wanted it to be. because as we both know i could have kept writing harry potters forever pretty much. >> rose: and why didn't you? >> because i always envisioned it as a seven book series, i had enough plot for seven books, and when -- i always knew i would stop at seven, and i am not going to lie it was heartbreaking in many ways because harry was with me through a very turbulent period of my life, and it was always a place that i could go and you talk about regis, readers able to go there it was a place i could go

i. was i. i. i. i i. as monks we don't take up arms and nick that we don't start revolutions no. i know no more. than make a political situation would not benefit from orange revolution hue. i would say that the protest wasn't successful because many were killed. but in the past no one knew that the dictator tortured and arrested people that we are but we know these if you can. who we are suffering the revolution showed the world the cruelty of his regime the volume you need to know yes that is what all of this is one tangible victory. your government. the notion of what we do as people all around the world have future consequences. for the extraordinary global mobilizations of february fifteenth two thousand and three when the world said no to war there were somewhere between twelve and fourteen million people in the streets that day all with the same slogan the world says knows who in a hundred different languages it was an amazing outpouring of love. to give this book of world records that it was the largest outpouring of humanity on one issue in the history of the world might

i was -- i grew up knowing that i couldn't live forever. i grew up knowing that people i loved would die because my father died before i was born, so i never had the fear, the terror of my own mortality. >> how do you know you're healthy? first of all, would you call yourself healthy now? >> i think i'm healthier than i was. i lost 27 pounds, and i feel good, and i actually have, believe it or not, more energy. i seem to need -- when i do sleep, i sleep better, but i seem to need less sleep to function at a reasonably high level than i did. >> i mean, you talked about the fact that you love to eat. >> you know, i like the stuff i eat. i like the vegetables and fruits, the beans, the stuff i eat now i like. i like it. >> do you call yourself a vegan? >> well, i suppose i am if i don't he's dairy or meat or fish. >> you cut all that out. i mean, do you -- >> the only thing -- once in a while literally in well over a year now at thanksgiving i had one bite of turkey. >> you're doing this for your health. >> yes. >> is that why you're doing this?

i shot him. i shot him. i wish i could go back. in one stupid moment i destroyed everything. it didn't mean anything to me and i lost everything i thought i wasst my husband. and he was a good man. like i said, he did not deserve what i did to him. i lost my daughters. >> she told us she regrets the past but she's also moving on. >> i still face the consequences of what i did. but i don't go around piled down with that guilt any more. yes, i'm guilty but god has forgiven me. >> but rupel told us her religious conversion wasn't easy. >> we had these ladies that would come in to do a bible study. i have to say, i hated them. they come in with their cheery little faces, smiling, telling me everything will be all right. everything will be all right. jesus will fix it. i was like, you don't know what you're talking about. maybe the biggest problem you got is that you might burn the dinner or have an overdue parking ticket. you're not facing what i'm facing. i was facing the death penalty at that point. and i don't want to hear it till finally i just -- i'll come if you just leave me alone. you know. i don't want to hear it! and don't ask me to tal

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i really felt like, you know, it was a testament to overcoming my disability that i was able to do that and i was excited about my future and graduation day, i got this news that my kidneys were failing. and, iot know what that meant, i was 19 years old at the time. scared me to death. and, i eventually got so sick i couldn't even play the piano or sing in my own living room. and, it was like my dreams were dying, when i couldn't do the very thing that i believed god put me here to do, it was devastating. and, i didn't know if i missed his calling for my life or what was going on and august of 2007, the wife of my former piano teacher from college donated her kidney to me and saved my life. >> gov. mike huckabee: oh, my goodness. wow. [applause]. >> gov. mike huckabee: your life is a testimony, scott of god's grace, and your determination, to follow his dream for you. tell us what song you will do for us today. >> i'll do a song off the "heartstrings" album, called "i am hopeful". >> gov. mike huckabee: "i am hopeful" ♪ ♪ when day is swallowed up in night ♪ ♪ when you can barely see the light ♪ ♪ look for me ♪ when all your strengths is gone ♪ ♪ when you are barely holding on ♪ ♪ reach for m

i am sorry. i thank him. i had done what i had needed to do. i was grateful for how generous he was. hung up the phone and try to get to the day. the good news is i did not kill myself that day because the next day stephen called again as i was headed out to work and said, he could not get it off his mind. he thought about and thought about and he was tormented and he walked around the lot for hours and thinking about it and he talked to dan. he said, he sent the footage to daniel. i said, oh, sweet, jesus. oh, no. you didn't. he said, yes, i did. and daniel wants to meet you. i said, great. i will get my toothbrush. wherever that is, i am going. just tell me when. he said, i will get back to because he is in ireland. let's meet maybe new york -- we will have a cup of coffee. i said, i am there. so i am dashing about trying to put a schedule together. stephen's and daniel's, get me off the show. i get another call from steven 's office, saying he wants the same hair and makeup people. for what, a cup of coffee? i was going simpler than that. tavis: hair and makeup for coffee. >> they