idid.cause, i don't know if this is the right word, but you anaesthetised yourself with alcohol. absolutely. and with drugs. drugs. and so i think that, as my swimming took off, so did my drinking and using. as i got faster and faster, my drinking and drugging increased and there were a few reasons for that. part of it was that general irreverence and a clear understanding that any of the adults around me, just the duty of care was absent. in the kind of best circumstances, it was negligence and in the absolute worst, they were perpetrators of violence. this is where it seems to me your story gets really dark because in essence, you are describing a late childhood/adolescence in which adults were comprehensively a toxic presence in your life and we have to be honest and say even your parents would stand accused of this because whatever duty of care and love most parents acknowledge, your parents simply weren't there for you. i mean, i think my parents weren't, the entire institution of swim

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it wasn't idideal, but both the performers and the organizerers wanted to make the best out of a difficultation. other performances have suffered worse fates in recent weeks. according to a recent survey of artists, 95% say some of their shows have been canceled as a result of the coronavirus pandemic. ♪ among the affected is katsukiji kinea. he dedicated his life to mastering a traditional japanese style music called nagauta. he says most of his performances have been scrapped. >> translator: if t the income loss continues, we are in trouble. >> reporter: he continues to practice, earning monday on the side by teaching apprentices but he says it's not enough, especially if performances continue to be canceled. >> translator: our jobs will no longer be vital. i'm afraid what could happen. >> reporter: kineya says he'ss fortunate compared to other performers who have no other source of income. according to a survey one-third say if things don't improve soon, they may have to find jobs that provide more stability. an industry expert says the exodus could have a long-term impact. >> that's ve

idid take i did take a test thatjust came out. this is from the white house physician.his morning. it took me literally a minute to take it. it took me a guess 111—15 minutes. i went to work, i did not wait for it. it came up with a conclusion and it said the president tested negative for covid—19. i think i took it out of curiosity to see how quickly it works. i have done them most and the second one is much more pleasant. peter bowes is our north america correspondent and we can talk to him now. there was a mention of wearing face what did he say about that? -- face what did he say about that? —— facemasks. face what did he say about that? -- facemasks. will the federal government order all americans to wear facemasks outside of their homes. people living in los angeles and new york cities have been told by local officials that is exactly what they should doing. he was asked about that but he seemed to back away from a national order. he again mentioned the fa ct order. he again mentioned the fact that perhaps wearing a scarf could be just as good as wearing a face ma

this weekend, it is important to be clear that i was also there last weekend with my husband was up ididend with my husband was up i did not follow the advice i'm giving to others and i am truly sorry for that. nicola sturgeon initially said she would continue in her role, advising the scottish government. her advice and expertise has been invaluable to me and it continues to be so. if i am to do what i am to do to steer this country through this crisis to the very best of my ability, i need her to be able to focus on the job that she is doing. many have expressed their anger and disbelief at catherine calderwood's actions stop police scotland said they have spoken to her and emphasised that the stay—at—home rules apply to everyone. as we the stay—at—home rules apply to everyone. as we go the stay—at—home rules apply to everyone. as we go into a third week of lockdown which has been observed by most, the chief medical officer has now resigned from the scottish government. now on bbc news — talking movies. hello, and welcome to this special edition of talking movies, coming to you from my

idid i did pose that question just now, what is the likely scope of the damage?of the damage? iwould imagine what is the likely scope of the damage? i would imagine it is almost impossible to predict. so when you go into our macro forecasting models, there is no line for a pandemic. so estimates really have a huge range but i think we can be pretty certain that this will be the mother of all recessions. the only real question is how long will it last and what is the shape of the recovery after this? you are right, the idea is to put the economy on ice, basically, in the hope that we can freeze everything until we contain these virus and then slowly defrost the economy and have things mmp defrost the economy and have things ramp back up, but the longer this lasts and the list synchronised it is globally the harder it will be to go ahead and defrost all part of the economy at the same time. whenever this ends for good, and none of us knows when that will be, do we'll just pick up where we left off in march 2020 or will it take years and yea rs march 2020 or will it

the first thing idid was been handled so far?id was i avoided it because that isjust so much out i did was i avoided it because that is just so much out there that i did was i avoided it because that isjust so much out there that is no more thanjust isjust so much out there that is no more than just numbers isjust so much out there that is no more thanjust numbers are being bandied around and it is difficult to figure out where they come from, so to figure out where they come from, sol to figure out where they come from, so i actually read william blake, springtime poetry. in other areas, so i actually read william blake, springtime poetry. in otherareas, i have been writing, and i'm very interested to know about how much... because the us and the uk have approached this crisis up to a point in the same way, initially saying, well, we are not going to lock down, well, we are not going to lock down, we will not shut down our economies, possibly because most of the victims initially were in their 805. well, some people close to bor

idid. the claps for the nhs? yeah, oh yeah! i did. and i saw the one last week.ged, yeah! i did. and i saw the one last week. iwas prettyjet—lagged, but yeah! i did. and i saw the one last week. i was prettyjet—lagged, but i managed to stay up until eight o'clock to hear it, and won again last night. it's amazing that people are coming out to clap for notjust the nhs but carers throughout all of our society, and i hope that after this gets better and subsides, which i really hope it will do, that people still remember how great our nhs is, and for me, personally, i feel such pride working in the nhs and think it's a really important bit of our society. she's there doing a very important job for us. so thank you to her. now, for some the postponement of the olympic games until 2021 has thrown up some difficult questions. british rower tom ransley was all set to be part of the men's eight, defending their olympic title — but the prospect of adding another year onto his career, was something he couldn't face — as jo currie reports. the golden moment for great britis

idid, i saw the seen some of the collapse for the nhs? -- claps.one last night, and it is amazing that people are coming out to clap, notjust it is amazing that people are coming out to clap, not just for the it is amazing that people are coming out to clap, notjust for the nhs but for the carers throughout all of our society, and i hope that after this gets better and subsides, which i really hope it will do, that people still remember how great our nhs is. and for me personally, i feel such pride working in the nhs, and it is a really important bit of our society. we are all really grateful for that, layla guscoth there. for some the postponement of there. for some the postponement of the olympic games until 2021 has thrown up some difficult questions. the british royal was also to be pa rt the british royal was also to be part of the men's eight defending 0lympic title but the prospect of adding another year onto his career was something he just couldn't face. the gold moment for great british rowing and the eight men on board. 0ne rowing and th

if we were to do, idid size of a cupboard. if we were to do, i did some maths today.acity from 28 people to five people including staff. wow. wow. including staff? so maybe you have two drinkers and there are three? so evenif two drinkers and there are three? so even if it was adams barbell from the last of its market work. even if it was adams barbell from the last of its market worklj even if it was adams barbell from the last of its market work. i think that might still be open. can you see a way that might still be open. can you see a way where you can get back to anything like normal? does social distancing if that's meant to be the way back into business, does that just mean you have to say closed much longer? or can you imagine any other sort of way of working?” think because there's such a variety of venue. the social distancing, tables apart and everybody's step down it only really works for quite vast venues. vertical drinking, what's that? just standing up. that's after you've done a lot of vertical drinking. his evidence rate you drink faster and that's wh

oriam or i am very serious and imagine if idid or i am very serious and imagine if i did this before has given me time to build relationships with my daughters and my partner but also time to be myself and also have fun. the first person to agree to send me a video of tyson fury. we are very close friends but he is all about having fun, encouraging others and giving others something to smile at and have a laugh out and i think all of us come together to achieve that goal. he may be able to lip sync, but apparently cannot sing. that is all the sport for now.

idid thoughts. thank you very much indeed. i did notice catty that you we re indeed.d notice catty that you were talking aboutjoe biting his basement. there you are and your basements. which actually lives better than his basement. yeah, you know nothing about sarcasm sorry i'm not with you but another thing is if i say to you christian, it's a good, your tie is really straight today. this is what i miss you see normally have a programme together and would be locked in basements, were being kept apart. i'm checking my time. i would affix his tie. that's what happens when he turns up in the studio ten seconds before airtime as well. well listen, it's really good to see you thank you very much indeed. i look forward to re—convenient with you shortly, catty. so just to reiterate we had a big spending bill in the white house. bill in the white house. today the president signed a massive relief bill into law, worth $484 billion, that brings the total amount approved to congress to three trillion dollars, the public deficit is ballooning, and already some are saying it is n

as you can see, idid not are monitored 20 a7. not look like a normal hospital, security holdings have gone up around the building —— monitored 2a/7. they are checking people's passes, making sure they come into the hospital when they should or should not be so an unprecedented and dramatic situation here arejust a unprecedented and dramatic situation here are just a few minutes walk from the houses of parliament. obviously very worrying for boris johnson's family and that is the coolest thing about coronavirus, when you are in hospital being treated —— the most cruel thing. you can't be visited by friends and family. the prime minister's partner is pregnant and a self—isolating after showing symptoms. we have heard from a lot of people who know the prime minister and say he is tough and resilient and fit and they are confident he will get through this. nadine dorries, one of his conservative colleagues, has recovered from coronavirus herself and she said she had spoken to him a few days ago and he said he was feeling down and a b

even though if idid, it would just be between the two of us, i'm sure >> question on energy, you've gotome exposure there with the oil portfolio. what is this country's energy industry going to look like when this is all over how many bankruptcies do you see and how much economic damage do you think that's adding to an already painful period >> i'd say the damaged area along with the transportation businesses are in the most pressured position it's because of too much supply. combined with much too little demand when you take $100 billion barrel type of industry and remove ten, 15 million barrels of demand let alone supply more, you're going to have prices that collapse, which you've seen. you're going to have significant shut ins of production less money going into exploration. you're going to have to get this in balance that's not a short-term possibility. because it involves a lot of people making decisions. if i had to put myself to a test, this will probably be the last area that normalizes. out of this crisis >> appreciate you phoning in and all that you're doing in new york with

of course, idid, and to talk him out of that?nhs under the strain it is, the fact you will not be able to see a doctor physically, you are probably down to a phone consultation, you might not get the best health care. but religion is very important to these people. it is very difficult to really argue against what they will see as the word of god. again, i do think that this debate can happen and could happen and i think actually it comes down to a point i was talking earlier about a disconnect. if government was more connected to some of these communities and they knew what some of the issues were, some of this debate could be hosted by the government. and some of these families, they would see this discussion happening on national television like we are now but for this to happen more regularly, perhaps some of the muslim community, actually the bbc are talking about this, maybe we should ta ke talking about this, maybe we should take heed. these very specific, precise bits that are relative to the muslim community or other div

one thing idid want indeed in other countries. i did want to ask which is of hugely important area, is to do with how the nhs is managing its own resources within this crisis? it has had to channel lots of things in the direction of coronavirus and covid—19 obviously, but what about the things it would have been doing, the things it would have been doing, the surgery that has been put off, the surgery that has been put off, the treatment that has not been taking place, how would you explain to viewers what impact that has had? indeed, we heard from chris hobson just before that the nhs is coping really well with this surge in demand and we have not seen the overflow of icu units that we saw in northern italy here. the problem with ppe and specific drugs and oxygen therapies, these are important issues, but in our research we looked at the capacity in the nhs here and in other health systems and we realised this capacity is not static but it is increasing on an impressive scale. so hospital and care homes are making a real effort i

authority i need to make the relevant decisions, whether it is through chairing cabinet updates as idida great team, it is a team effort, and best is not exactly the same as when the prime minister is here, that's clear, but as his first secretary, deputised to discharge its responsibilities, we've got all the authorities we need. in terms of the test, it is important to try to work out the proportion of people who may have had the disease with no symptoms. across the world, it is looking less likely that it is a very high number, so it's not likely that its 90% of people have had it a symptomatically, much more likely it is lower than 50. it could be around 30. but we don't know for sure. and in terms of the number of people who have had it in each country, that is why the antibody test is so important. there are beginning to be stories of people getting answers to that question. again, i wouldn't expect that to be a high percentage, and most of the figures that have come out so far are low single digit percentages, but we need to see, there are a couple of examples of slightly higher

he said, idid been coping with coronavirus.is good news. george, i hope you have a good continued recovery. there is also some positive stories out there as well. tha nkfully positive stories out there as well. thankfully we can bring you one of those interviews we have been talking about. as we've been hearing this morning, the government has admitted that it has a lot more work to do on ramping up testing for the coronavirus. let's try to find out exactly what they intend to do. we'rejoined by the housing and communities secretary, robertjenrick. thank you very much for being with us this morning. we will spend as much time as we can with you to get clarity on those issues. i wanted to start if we could talk about those two teenagers who sadly have died, we got that news last night, reading it to our viewers this morning as well. it is a reiteration about the seriousness of this virus and why it is important for us to stay at home while we can. absolutely, every death is a tragedy, back to young people dying is even more so.

idid quite quiet, i am in my own little world.or a while. obviously, you also have this delicious treat at the end of it which is always good. i have been baking loaves of bread as well and i'd forgotten how amazing bread smells fresh from the oven. we've had some of that at home. one of the issues there has been getting older yes, so it has been nice to see on instagram and twitter that everyone has been baking but getting older flower has been a bit of a pain. we have been 0k flower has been a bit of a pain. we have been ok so far, we have enough plain flour, we are running low on bread flour and all the places i would normally buy it online are sold out and every time i go on, it is sold out, but i kind of thing, i am hoping that it is that initial flurry of people buying stuff, people will be stocked up so soon there will be more stock of it, or i hope so, because i don't want to miss out on more bread. know, and you mention is taking things into work to share with others, it is been a real, there are good and very bad things

was clear yesterday she couldn't continue to be the face of the public advice campaign, but candidly idide doing to the important message of the government is putting forward right now. so these are not easyjudgments. at forward right now. so these are not easy judgments. at this forward right now. so these are not easyjudgments. at this point in time the normal rules of politics couldn't be further from my mind. i'm simply trying to do the best things and write things to best equip us to get through this challenge as well as we can. and i think everybody appreciates that. we have had lots of messages and questions for you this morning and the vast majority of people are saying, why was she not removed from post straightaway? was that an error ofjudgment from post straightaway? was that an error of judgment from yourself? post straightaway? was that an error ofjudgment from yourself? people are entitled to think that but we are entitled to think that but we are all making judgments in an unprecedented and difficult situation in good faith, and with the best motivations so i understand peo

idid that. you have been doing some training. i did some training, a full 20 minutes.ese huge, physical challenges. i spoke to him yesterday and he said to make sure i stocked up on pork pies and sausage rolls. in my emergency trip to the supermarket yesterday, i got some sausage rolls and ate them. you are already speaking to professor greg white. louise said she was concerned that i had done no preparation for a 100 mile cycle on thursday. the inside. yes, inside. he has some big names lined up. lots of triathletes. lots of names i'm not going to mention at the moment but i am really excited. it will be good fun. at that prep end today. wine a day before the big push. another ten minutes, i think. —— final day. holiday companies are being accused of breaking the law by refusing refunds for trips that have been cancelled because of the coronavirus outbreak. nina is looking at this today. good morning. how are you?” good morning. how are you? i am well. i can't stop thinking about pork pies and sausage rolls, i will have to take up cycling. there is no sinking feeling

idid i did most of the couplets actually but we are bouncing around some jokes on mobile phones.of them my younger son, has been doing scientific experiments, one where they try to suck a hard—boiled egg into a bottle, and another has been doing touch typing with his children. i think they are making the most of the home—schooling! absolutely, and these new pictures that have come out, you understand your readers, don't you? how important do you think it is that they can see something familiar like they can see something familiar like the gruffalo or stick man, taking pa rt the gruffalo or stick man, taking part in the new rules and the new measures? because they will feel like new rules and restrictive.” think that probably is a point, if they are like those characters are saying to keep your distance ought to get plenty of exercise, the one about stick man," stick man state home in their tree but they are still keeping fit with their sticky children three." that is a message you can still do the exercises at home. but really, i don't think axel ori home. but really, i don't thi

idid but she crossed the line just there. i did enjoy that.eep active in the same time as making the room are nice and tidy. it's brilliant, so the shot put into the draw, the javelin into the recycling bin. perfect. give the dog is a bit of a run around, get some exercise. i love the high jump and not something we can practise at home. well, be careful. 0k. wise words. thank you, we will talk to you later this morning. technology is back on our side and we will get another go at talking to our doctor this morning. dale, hello again? listen, let's give that one up. i apologise to her because clearly that's not working. she has a practice in derbyshire, and as you probably know by now, every day by now we try to talk to a gp to get a sense of their working days and what people are concerned about and how it's working out for them. i'm sorry we can't do that. there has been a lot of discussion of course, challenging the promising emergency loans worth an estimated £2 billion. lots of businesses asking when they actually going get this money. are

and follow better practice in the best way i can and i did not know what this virus was going to do, ididd not know how we tackled it. it was something that we had never planned for before and never dealt with before. staff were quickly overwhelmed. they struggle to get protect if clothing, there was no testing available. this is the hardest 3— four weeks i have experienced that the whole seven yea rs of experienced that the whole seven years of care. it has been challenging in so many ways. years of care. it has been challenging in so many waysm years of care. it has been challenging in so many ways. it has been heartbreaking. have you been tested ? been heartbreaking. have you been tested? no. no. does that feel there is enough testing? no. a significant rise in the number of deaths in care homes are expected. we have a mask, a shield and then we have a gown. staff do now have the correct clothing, much donated. wearing full protective equipment has unforeseen consequences, particularly at the end of life. we are wearing the full ppa. we cannot feel skin on skin, even the last few momen

thought it would be quicker than phoning because i know they are really busy and it said call 999, so ididwere no visitors to the hospital. they took her in, they did the swab, they confirmed it on wednesday the 1st of april. when she was taken in on the saturday they decided on saturday night to put her on a ventilator. she was already sedated by the time we found out she had corona, she was sedated for five days. i am so sorry. presumably you are at home and you have to be alone? yes, she went in over two weeks ago so i have had my two weeks quarantine, loads of people have been so kind and getting me shopping and asking me if i need bates, now i had done my two weeks' quarantine, if i need to go out, which i don't yet, i can. it has been hard because nobody was allowed infor been hard because nobody was allowed in for two weeks, i was in the house all by myself and i've still got her mother's day cards hanging up, i just can't bring myself to take them down. i am so sorry. what are your plans now? she wanted to go to las vegas for his 60th birthday? yes, so my eldest sister and me have