i had is a serenity as if irp were there my whole life, it is a relationship with my savior, i was raisedholic school but my f faith is so much more, we had a lot of tough times. i found refuge and most powerful building in the world, sometime most challenging. mark: you are a cancer survivor. >> baraka 2. i have a genetic mew mmutation. i rail find refuge in my faith. that was such a time as well. on may one was my double mastectomy. my mom had one before me, i look to very strong women before me. i took action and took my chances down to zero. i'm thankful for all women who came before me. mark: what do you say to people who are facing these life and death decisions about faith? >> i say this, ask god, if he is out there. challenge god, i heard a story about underground church someone who was not a believer but challenged god, it was encouraged to do so, he showed up in a powerful way. in a healing way. if you are on a life and death decision, that will challenge him. are you there, ask the question, show up, i promise you. he did that for me, my faith became real, i was in a very lonel