i spoke with jack abramhoff earlier. >> jack, when is the first time you recall crossing the line as getting into something that could be criminal behavior? >> well, when i was a lobbyist i didn't think i was crossing lines, but that's the problem. >> you never thought of some. >> no, no. i never thought i was crossing lines. the problem is, first of all, the line are drawn in a way that that's kind of murky, as you know, in that business so you are never quite sure where the line is. and also the way i operated, unfortunately in those days, i was hyperaggressive, and i wanted to win, win, win. and i stopped caring where the lines were. that was the problem. >> but once you were arrested, indicted, put on trial, there had to be a point at which obviously where you said, you know what? i've really done some horrible things. when did that happen? >> after it happened and it was clear to me i wasn't coming back, when it first happened, when i was first i guess when senator mckee took my e-mails and started making them public and the justice department started getting involved, i told my