we left before the break with you talking about this abuse from jack gordon, your husband.i mean, he was such a control freak, he alienated you from your family, he made you pose for playboy, which you didn't want to do and i think to this day you regretted that. the worst thing for me as a journalist i remember this happened, when he made you do that press conference about michael when you went along with all of the allegations against your own brother at a time when michael needed support of his family. >> absolutely. >> that was a despicable thing for him to do. >> it was the lowest of all, the lowest. and that's one of the things that -- >> do you app solve yourself completely? people reading the book, you had this before, you say you can blame somebody to a point. >> right. >> when you denounce your own brother in public. >> right. >> part of you has to take responsibility for that. >> you have to take responsibility, and i do take responsibility for it. i must tell you, but at the same time, i have to tell you that if i didn't do what he asked me to do, he blatantly t

. >> you now say that you were forced to say that by your former husband jack gordon.mning about your brother? >> matt, when you're in a relationship when you're being abused and very controlling, he controlled everything i did, everything that went on in my life. he was working with a group of people that were working with my brother at the time, which, in fact, i didn't know. i wasn't privy to that. i wasn't privy to watch television. i knew nothing that was going on. when i went on television and said my brother was wonderful, he would never do anything like that. he hated that. the next day, you get on. went to tel aviv. he said i was going on vacation. i thought there was an award show. we drove up, all those cameras and people there. i didn't know. >> you had a complete change of heart in terms of your brother's situation with molestation. >> never had a change of heart. i always knew he never did that. and that's one thing that michael and i discussed and talk about because i had to speak to him about that. he said, la toya, you don't have to mention that. i kno

. >> you reference in your book, the other big topic in your book was your marriage to jack gordon whoanager from '87 to '96, and you say he controlled most of what you did, including when you in tel aviv said your brother, you believe was guilty of molestation charges. >> yes. >> how do you explain the control he had over you? >> it was a very, very extremely abusive relationship. and the book actually is 80% of this abusive relationship of controlling you, manipulating you, telling you what to say. my brother, i love him. he knew i loved him. he said i know you would never, ever, ever say. he said i know you have to do -- he was having you do that. he embraced me. he hugged me. we cried and said, i love you more. >> la toya jackson, thank you so much. the book is, once again, "starting over." we're back right after this. ts how to take insulin. but i've learned a lot from patients who use flexpen. flexpen comes pre-filled with the insulin i take and i can dial the exact dose of insulin i need. i live my life on the go and need an on-the-go insulin. i don't need to carry a cooler with