she was born in the same years as jane alda. i do think, i went back and reread things i learned something from it that was important. i learned not to read the romantic novels that i had in high school but to pay attention to the financial language in the novels. the way they talked about marriages and contracts or. that help me understand something which is that they went bankrupt right after she got married and she was devastated. when she's devastated by is the fact that -- she goes back year after year it's like a trauma that she is not able to get over. it constantly reopens. i that this was her crazy and i refer to it as her crazy. but that was the way they described it and then you go back and read some of these novels and you realize everybody has a price take and that actually if you couldn't pay it was grounds for getting out of a marriage. i had to go back and reread parts. he says i'm doing my duty and you realize the thought had crossed his mind that he had to decide to stay in that marriage. this was destabilizing