>> i didn't actually see the flames like janette did. i saw the smoke bearing down and i was freaked. you can't describe what goes through your mind. >> janette, you wouldn't be allowed back in your home but you saw it burning on television. i can't imagine anything worse than that. >> yeah, it was probably the worst thing i've ever seen in my life. you have that moment where you say is that really my house? but we knew it was, however, now i'm grateful that i know. a lot of people here just don't know and we are able to process it because we know where we stand. unfortunately, we saw it 50 times over and over and over on the news but at least we know. >> christian, what do you do now? i mean, how do you pick up and move forward? you said you had time to process this, but how do you start picking up the pieces? >> one minute at a time. >> we don't know yet. >> yeah, at this point, you know, we have no idea of the status of our property, if it's -- you know, if all our trees are completely burned down or, you know, if it's something we ca