janey? i dropped my plate right there. it was like god was saying to me, here is a glimmer of hope that you will find your answer. >> jerry ensminger, what are you talking about there? >> when any family has parents that have a child, especially a child that is diagnosed with a long term, catastrophic illness, without exception, because i have talked to so many other families when janey was sick, when you have a chance to sit down after the shock of the diagnosis wears off, there is that nagging question, why? no exception. and i looked into her mother's family history, my family history, and no other child ever been diagnosed with cancer. >> and what year was it that she got the cancer, and when did she die? >> she was diagnosed in 1983 and died in 1985, and that revelation on the news did not happen until 1997, three years after i had retired out of the marine corps, and all of those years, i had had that nagging question, and when i heard that, i was going into the living room with a plate of spaghetti, and the reporter on the television set what they said right there in that clip, and i dropped my plate of spaghetti right there