jimi and janis alvarez. they need the role they were going down and they lived with enormous intensity and i don't think they would have it any other way. people who join the navy seals, the green berets, they know that their lives may be curtailed in a moment where they may be terribly wounded at any moment, yet they make that a choice. i don't know how much you want to take that away from people. if you say to certain highly commodity pool, you can't play, you can't go headlong come you can't go until you stop and say i'm going to make you sick and take a timeout. what happens to those people? maybe they go on to become well mannered college professors like me for actuarial sublayers, but maybe they decided it's necessary to express themselves by going out of punching somebody sites out of the express themselves by sitting at the end of the bar and drinking until they can see the wall anymore. or maybe they decide depression is the name of the game. people have this urge and it's a question. i think it's a