i heard voices like jason voorhees. like one of my characters. they told me like how to kill people and when to do it. the devil. i was possessed by the devil for six years, with me for 17. the demon lives outside the window right now. jim, he lives outside my window. he's a demon. most of the time he just sings to me or hums. he aggravates me sometimes. and i can't sleep. >> when our producer noticed his scarred arms, she learned that sometimes ramon directs violence at himself, as well. >> what are those scars down here? >> i cut my vein open about three times. twice with a spoon and once with a razor blade, just watch the blood come out. i do it sometimes for the hell of it. it took 15 years of bottled anger to do what i did on the streets. if i keep it bottled up again, i may end up doing it to somebody again. >> he's not going to get that chance anytime soon. ramon isn't eligible for parole until 2057. >> if i could go back in time, i would have escaped when i had the chance. or at least took out at least 30 people before i go. i would have