and for some reason, i chose team ange, and she was my hero, and jennifer aniston was my villain, andbe honest, the only team you really cared for, it seems, was team perez, because you basically... absolutely! you began to make an awful lot of money out of suspending your compassion, your humanity, any filter you might have had, which allowed you to be, frankly, horribly mean to an awful lot of high—profile people. i fully accept that. and i know that that is the reason why, all these years later, you, and the majority of the world, are not willing to let me grow or evolve, and choose to only see me as the person that i used to be. for a long time, i was very sad about that. but now in 2020, i realise, you know what? i can't control people's perception of me. i can only control my words and actions, and my reactions, and how i do things. so yeah, i carry with me deep shame and regret, and, you know, i'm fully transparent. i knew at the time what i was doing was wrong. if i could claim ignorance, that would be one thing. but i wasn't ignorant. i'm a smart person. but let me — hang on,