>> i never really thought about having children until i got with jermaine dupree, when he and i weree first time i wanted to have children. i felt -- i don't -- i felt comfortable in the relationship at that time. how he would be as a father, how he is as a father. he has a little girl. but we're not together anymore. so i don't know if i eel have kids. but i have really given it up to god. if it's meant to be. >> do you think you would be a good mom? >> i hope so. everyone tells me for the longest they have told me, oh, you would make a great mother. i said, i would? why? you're very nurturing. you're very mothering. you take care of people all the time. yada-yada. so i don't know. >> what would you do differently if you had a child to the way your father treated you? >> a lot of attention. a lot of love. spend a lot of time. i'd let them know how much i love them all the time. they'd know. wouldn't have to wonder, guess. >> when we come back, the saddest moment of janet's life, losing michael. >> are you able to think about happy memories? have you got to that stage yet? ♪ smile th