. >> jessica calman says the guilt is overwhelming. every time she watches this video of her baby boy. jax was born physically dependent on a heroin replacement drug. >> he detoxed. he had the symptoms. there's no settling him. >> jessica lived her life in rutland, vermont. it's a small town with a secret - the most pregnant heroin addicted women per capital. by age 20 jessica was addicted to heroin and stayed hooked for 10 years. when she found she was pregnant she fixed to a replacement therapy. her new son's withdrawal from the drug was so bad jessica thought he would die. >> he went quiet, his lips turned blue. >> what did you do? >> i picked him up and kind of shook him and whichingle -- wiggled his face and he took a breath. >> did your heart jump out of its chest? >> yes, i was scared, really scared. >> now a toddler, jax appears to be normal, energetic and engaging child. he had to be weaned off. her younger son is also an serboxan baby. this is the ball by clinic. it -- ball by clinic. it provide treatments to mums and babies.