some that i made up and some that exist this is for jessica lynch, war memories. i have forgotten myself. who i was, i cannot now know who i have become is a stranger i have forgotten myself there are other things to lose in battle eyes and guts, other sacrifices before life. vilost myself. i am not who i was before this war, i am not she who no longer dares to be my mother is so happy with this worn body returned home. we pretend that i am as whole as i look. but at night when i stair through the dark at the hidden image in the mirror i cannot lie to the stranger i see. i have forgotten everything. except my affection for children, my service to country and my insatiable fear. [applause] >> sizing up the cost of war. >> what is left but the shoes. shoes scuffed and torn, no longer having feet to carry them, shoes empty now. work boots bearing mud from the last field he had plowed with his father. empty now. red sneakers with white stripes brought back fwr america by her oldest son given to her youngest, both of them immediately rung outside kicking the soccer bal

several other soldiers including jessica lynch captured. this is what we found the next morning when we rode forward, not knowing they were there. we went in buttoned up because they insisted we button up. actually that's the tack on the front of my amtrak as we we want in. inside, i had my computer and, you know, they said a lot of killing going on up there. i said whoa, whoa, whoa. so i went inside my pack because i knew it was going to get chewed up and took out my computer. now, everyone else is getting in the back, lock and load because we're only going to firefight. i walk in and the only thing i'm carrying is my little computer. i couldn't resist it. i looked at the other marines walking in and i said i understand there's an internet connection in the town and i want you to take it so i can use the internet connection. unfortunately, the other half was it was a tough fight. it was really a tough fight. then we were hit with this hurricane dust storm you may have read about. it was as though the earth turned 90 degrees and all of a su

we had seen the convoy where jessica lynch had been taken. into get jessica lynch. so we sat there and listened over the radio what was going on. we love to be in the center of things. so it's killing me to not be there get beiting the pictures. >> i was at cnn headquarters tying my shoe and all of a sudden there was huge explosion. and right after the explosion, my room filled with dust and debris and i ran out into the hall and i realized that the room next door to me had been hit. fortunately, there was nobody in that room. >> in an effort to clear out one of the buildings that they suspected the insurgents were in, a tank fired a shell into the building. and military men came out with their hands out and surrendered. the problem is that the shell continued to go through the intended target and into an adjoining house. it was surprising the number of people that came out of that house and it was one of those things where you decide whether you're a journalist or a human being. there was a baby just a few months older than my own daughter.

soldier, jessica lynch, had been rescued from an iraqi hospital., take a listen. >> inside that saddam hospital, which i need to note is also an iraqi military headquarters, 19-year-old jessica lynch. she was inside and the authorities, the military knew she was in there, because somebody inside the hospital had written a hand. written note say that she here. that she's alive, and they even gave the room number where she was. >> kerry, tell us how all of that came about. >> it was really strange. first of all, we were in this area near nasiriyah, and somebody stopped and told me that there was an american woman who was being held, a soldier, held and tortured, they said, inside that hospital. and so not exactly sure why they came up and talked to me as opposed to those who were in uniform around me. maybe i was non-threatening, but they came up to me, told me what was going on. i passed the information on. as it turned out, there she was. we're not sure about the whole torture thing but at the end of the day, her rescue took place. the young woman

i was talking about this earlier, you know, when i think back about the stories of jessica lynch and pat tillman. a good place would be to start about not lying about stories that happen. friendly fire, people die in from the fire accidents, and that's horrible, but when lies are told, it will not point disgrace is the owner of the soldiers that have died, but turns the public off from trusting the pentagon. it's a disservice to you and your fellow troops. but i think that beyond not lying, i think there needs to be more openness. this is not a personal complaint because the penness. this is not a personal complaint because the pentagon was very cooperative today, or i would say not uncooperative? [laughter] not hostile? they were pretty good. they let me in bed for a week with the medevac team. i think there's more opportunities for me to tell stories and talk to people. public information officers are very controlling, and i understand why, but that gets in the way of reporters trying to do their jobs. does that make sense? please be safe. hope to see you here next you. i won't eve