where you go in front of 80,000 people, and not only that but i'm going to go and try to replace jim mcmahonllege with 73 in state records and joe montana as a pro. that will be great. this is a perfect combination, this will go well. >> how much of the anxiety was fuelled by that. >>> of course it was a piece. i expect mine was three iterations higher. people who knew what my story was, would come to me, steve, i know you kind of had this. my son is struggling and what would you say? the first thing i tell them is you will never completely understand it. it will not rationalize to you, so you need to know that you can't say, you know. >> get through it. >> just get through it. but by getting through it over and over and over again through my whole life, by the end of my career by going through it, my dad was right, it really was fine. it waned. i think that's why i wanted to keep playing, because i was having for the first time so much fun. >> because you wanted to play. you're very competitive. what was it that finally convinced you to give it up? >> one thing my dad said. he said, steve,