john lennon during what would have been a milestone month for the legendary singer. the former beatle would have celebrated his 70th birthday october 9th. in an exclusive interview in cnn's anderson cooper ono reflected on lenon'sragic death, life and legacy. >> remembering how john lived as opposed to how he lost his life? do you think about the day he died? >> not always, no. that's one thing i don't really want to know about. i mean, at the time, when i went to hospital, and i was waiting and then the doctor came, and -- and he was carried something of john's, you know, like the rings, and that's when i thought ah, what is that, what is that, you know, just funny feeling about it and when he said, you know, he passed away i said no, he didn't. he's alive, you know, and i was very, very upset about it, you know, and i just refused to think that he died. >> do you still come here to strawberry fields often? >> well, you know, when i take a walk, i walk a lot because, you know, it's very good for your health and everything, so when i take a walk in the morning, of course, i pass here just checking, you know. everything is all right, you know, that kind of thing, yeah. what's your feeling when you come here? >>