did you want to go after john regan? oh, yeah. hink you would have if neil hadn't have said-- if i saw him. that's a lot of bottled rage over the years that had probably built up. but john knew if he followed his anger, he'd hurt the people he loved the most. i'm a catholic. you know, murder is not something that is acceptable. plus, you have to think about what's best for your family. that would be a very selfish thing to do. i'd get rid of my rage. but then i'd put my family in a position where they could get sued by his family. the kids lose their father. but if i saw him and he came near me, i would have. i would have. andrea canning: but he didn't. instead, he took that anger to his garage, put it toward destroying a few punching bags. you punched it so hard, that you had to get a new one? shreds. shreds them. yeah. [mumbles] oh, come on. john called sarah, who was away at college to break the news. i remember where i was sitting in my dorm room. and i just remember being shocked to my core. and i remember going to the dining