and after that, doctor jonathan levin of marin health center and his team saved my life nearly at the hospital by refitting my shattered vertebrae with titanium, saving me the ability to stand, walk and run. i missed severing my spinal cord that day by two millimeters. >> oh my goodness. wow. every thing just, you know, thankfully happened to go right. that and the right people there to help you out. but as you know now there is additional help for anyone uh- that does attempt that. there's a net up 20ft below the sidewalk that extends 20ft from the bridge. do you think that might have made a difference in your attempt? >> as a matter of fact, i write the story of that in my book, the art of being broken, about how if the net had been there at the time i attempted, i had no money, i had no cell phone. i wouldn't have been able to pay for a bus ride home. i wouldn't have been able to call anyone. i was crying profusely, tears, water falling from my eyes while leaning over the four foot nothing rail. the ease of access. then to lethal means someone would have seen my pain, would have se