follow your -- [inaudible conversations] that's joseph campbell. he writes another book by britisher anthony campbell. >> okay. >> "seven states of consciousness" and the back cover there was, you know, if you are more interested about medication, call this number. he went and learned meditation with his wife. he dime massachusetts, told my wife and me how he was met at a timing for a month was the most powerful and life changing event. that occurred to me, i said to him, good for you. [laughter] i wasn't interested. i had this concept of chanting. and my wife, a pediatrician, and absolute loy brilliant went and learned it. i noticed amazing changes in her. i was holed up in a month and i said to the teacher, i said i have three concern about learning meditation. the first is i'm in a position as associate chief of medicine at the medical center to occasionally reprimand the medical students and staff and junior colleagues. i don't want to become mellow. number two, i'm playing in a tennis tournament and i'm in the finals. i'm very competitive. and