josh edmundson says he confessed at the time but alleges it confessed at the time but allegesil!to legends, but beneath the surface, josh edmondson was struggling to deal with the pressure and for the first time, the 24—year—old from tea m first time, the 24—year—old from team sky has broken his silence about the depression he suffered, me he linked it to the telling me he linked it to the controversial painkiller tramadol that he secretly took to get through training and races. the dangerous thing about it is you don't know when you are coming to your limit, soi when you are coming to your limit, so i would be pushing and pushing and pushing, and normally you can't keep it up, but you go a bit further than that. the next day if feels like you are over so you need it to just get through. and i think the withdrawal from that immediately after a race, iwasjust withdrawal from that immediately after a race, i wasjust depressed. i was at the point where i didn't leave the house two months. so it doesn't get much worse than that other than committing suicide. there is no suggestion te