join me in welcoming jeff danziger and karen pratt. thank you. so jeff did you want to do to read a little bit from the book or do you want me to start your questions? let me start with a few questions as sam said this book had a long gestation period why do you think that was what did you need to get some distance or a lot of distance from the war? in order to write about it. a distance might be the wrong word, but it's been 50 years since the end of the war. and i've turned into a different person, but i thought about it. every day something that doesn't go away. and as as time went on i skipped thinking about why did that happen? why did i do it? why did i well why did i do what i was told? i'm not i'm fairly obedient in person. but in this case going off. to join the army, which i had no use for. and in a war which i had no use for. and about a year ago. i was at in new york and i was talking to some students some very well educated young people and they said well it's an if you didn't like the war and you didn't like the army. why did you jo