was just one of..." of his fans, this absolutely did not satisfy her, they soon broke up, but as khodosevichsy, well, even if not of first love, but the first love affair with a great russian poet, this was the first love affair that arose in her life, it left a very bitter aftertaste, a kind of hangover, later she spoke mockingly about balbonte, spoke badly, she actually... of course, but didn't know how to forgive and she didn’t want to forgive men for the insults that they inflicted on her, but she was very attractive, life was still ahead, and this mistake taught her, it didn’t teach her, whether it was a mistake or not, you can argue about this endlessly, but so or otherwise, in her female destiny, in her poetic destiny, in her life-creativity, the next hero appears, her next... chosen one turned out to be the legendary poet of the silver age, one of the key figures of the then literary process, the son of mathematics professor nikolai bugaev, boris nikolaevich bugaev, which much more, of course, everyone knows him as andrei bely, he took this pseudonym, andrei bely, it was with this na

, it is with this article that a brilliant book of memoirs opens khadosevich and necropolis, so khodosevichte of nina petrovskaya, said that people of the silver age often mixed life and creativity, some had more talent for writing. others had more talent for living, but from hadasevich’s point of view, the story of nina petrovskaya is the story of a girl, the story of a woman who mixed these two too much... the poet who had a very great personal impact on her was konstantin balmont. balmont at that time was really such a literary star. he was very popular, fans and admirers of his work crowded around him, at some point our heroine turned out to be one of them. she fell in love with balmont. balmont reciprocated her feelings, so to speak, but it was... clearly not what nina was counting on, nina wanted to be exclusive, and for balmont she was just one of his fans, this absolutely did not satisfy her, they soon broke up , but as khodosevich later wrote, this ecstasy, well, maybe not of first love, but of first falling in love with great russian poet, this first love affair that arose in her

i wrote it myself prose, but obviously, subsequently vladislav khodosevich wrote wonderfully about this article called the end of renata, it was with this article that the brilliant book of memoirs of khadasevich and necropolis opens, and so khadasevich, reflecting on the fate of nina petrovskaya, said that people of the silver age often they mixed life with creativity, some had more talent for writing, others had more talent for living, from hadasi’s point of view. the story of nina petrovskaya is the story of a girl, the story of a woman who mixed up these two concepts too much, it turned out she didn’t have very much literary talent, but the talent to live in a literary environment, communicate with poets, communicate with writers, eagerly respond to everything that happens in literature, make personal acquaintances, play a role in literary life of that time, to directly participate in it. and how to sunbathe in this fire, in this bonfire, in this she saw, she felt her calling, and the first poet who had a very great personal impact on her was konstantin balmont, balmont at that time

everything that they live straight into literature, and such the impression that they lived, and khodosevichote about this, not just in order to live, but so that what they lived was like how people take selfies today, but here we go, they took selfies in much the same way , all this went into literature, but another thing is that someone managed to combine it, someone managed to not perish, not to disappear, but for nina petrovskaya, unfortunately, all these experiments on her own destiny... which she did, they did not pass without a trace for her, because gradually she her psyche simply began to wear out, she began to not be able to withstand this frantic tension in which she lived, or rather, i would even say so, she could not give up this tension, she could not simply forget this life, she could not simply meet some normal person, get away from these madmen, and some person just spit on them and live. a woman's destiny, which was probably, well, theoretically possible, but she was not psychologically prepared for this at all, things started happening to her, well, sad, but in general hum