. >> her name was kiara. when kiara passed, i was up here in lockup. one of the lieutenants came up with my mom and she's like, "it's kiara." i'm like, "it's kiara?" i said, "what's wrong?" is she in the hospital?" she's like, "no, she's dead." i freaked out. they did everything they could to at least let me go to the hospital, but it was out of the prison's hands. it was upper staff management. and like i say, because i was up here and the status quo i was in, it didn't allow me to go to the wake, to the funeral, the viewing or even to the hospital. because at first her brain died. and they had her on a breathing machine, you know, just to see if they would let me go up there, but when they didn't let me go, you know. and my spirits kind of like dropped, you know, and i didn't eat. i lost a lot of weight. you know, and i looked like a raccoon. my eyes was, you know, all black and stuff. but then i thought about it. i said, you know, that's just another baby that god needed. but every day i look at those pictures of my daughter up there, and this is he